I have traveled this country extensively, and have lived in many states, cities and counties. I have worked in many venues.
There have been people who welcomed me, and people who grated my nerves.
It is the way of the world.
I have made a few friends, worthy of bearing my true self too, most , although, kind people, have been kept at arm's length.
Looking backwards, I can recall being 4............since then, I have NEVER, truly, felt that I "fit in" or was truly a part of the crowd. The flaw must be internal, because, I have met and crossed paths with warm and welcoming people. Even, in their presence, I can not reveal all.
Bonding, with some, is NOT the same as 'being a part of the crowd'........it is not. Where ever, I might go, I will be my own private self.....choosing what to share/reveal, and what to keep to myself. It is not about the people that I might meet, it is about "me". I do not yet, know why.