A good part of the time I've been been a person (a writer) who has wanted to get away from writing what other people are paying me to write, or else just find an enjoyable (and productive) use of available time; who has written on whatever subject came to mind at the moment. That's been the writer part of me.
Then, though, there's the "person part of me". Besides wanting/needing to earn money when a divorce made finding full-time work in a bad economy even more difficult; the person part of me actually began writing online because I had been shaken to the core to discover (through that divorce) that after a lifetime of just kind of assuming I had no particular problems being understood in this life, and no particular problem in interpersonal relationships (I'd always pretty much gotten along with people and had a reputation at work for that and a number of other "interpersonal-relationship" skills); I was picked up by authorities because someone thought I was "nuts" when I left my marriage.
I was released without even a full evaluation, and I would later get a "clean bill of mental health" from a private professional; but from there I went through what is known as "legal abuse" (when lies are presented in court and the individual has no opportunity to get the truth "established" in court). Year after year had gone by, and I'd never "gotten back from" any adult connected with the court and/or me, personally, the reality that there was not, and never has been, anything at all wrong with me. I've never cared what much what people think of me, but when we are treated/talked to in a way that doesn't match the truth, that's something else.
I'd never been anyone who made it a point to explain my thinking/beliefs to anyone because I didn't think I had to. After enough years passed I started to get uncomfortable (and frustrated) not to get back from the world any word or sign that the truth had been figured out; so I figured I'd write "whatever" online as my way of "making available to anyone interested" that I'm not "some weird, over-sensitive, writer-type with a big imagination" and that I'm a normal, unimaginative, mother of three who is capable, strong, sensible, and pretty much only interested in sharing what I think I can about understanding other people better (and NOT imagining what they think, or what their motives are, simply because we don't understand why they do/say something).
Also, I'm working up to writing what I REALLY want to write.