Glimpsing The Greater Picture
I believe that things happen for a reason even though the reason is often not apparent or known to us or at least consciously. I have this little saying taped on my shelf across from my computer that says "Every adversity has an equal or greater benefit." Many years ago I would not have accepted or believed this. Now I know this to be true and I often quote it to friends and clients as well as read it myself. Adversity comes as part of the package of being human. The degree to which we experience it depends upon several factors: our personal karma we have accumulated in past lives that has to be cleared and worked through in this life time. Our accumulated karma determines our childhood environment, our geographical location, our upbringing, our family, and those significant others who we come into contact with.
Although the personal karma that we accumulate must be encountered and paid to every soul we have done wrong to, I also believe that when and how we meet up and face the karma can depend upon many factors. Sometimes our guides are allowed to extend us some grace and we may not have to face such harsh conditions and circumstances such as we encountered in the past with particular souls. Sometimes a soul, and they tend to be the very old ones, will choose to work off a substantial amount of karma in one lifetime. They may choose circumstances that your run of the mill ordinary person simply could not endure. They may choose to undergo the most trying, difficult and painful childhood. They may do this not only for their own atonement and soul evolution, but also to serve as an example to others and to humanity at large. Sometimes we will choose a lifetime full of adversity simply for the learning experience for the soul, without any karmic retribution involved. Fortunately, many people do learn from their adversity and suffering and some become compassionate healers and teachers.
I believe that I am one such person. The horrible things I witnessed and experienced as a child would break the will and spirit of many people. They would lead many down the path of self-destruction, to the bottle, to drugs, to the mental hospital or even to prison. For to witness so much abuse can strip one of their very humanity and even turn them into a neurotic, a sociopath or a psychopath. I could have easily gone down that road. For years I was tortured by frightening nightmares of harrowing proportions. Dark shadowed monster creatures were always pursuing me and wanting to do horrible things to me. However, there was always a star or even a cluster of stars in the sky that I would follow. It actually seemed that they were moving ahead away from the hideous demons. The good news is that the monsters never caught up with me.
The sad news is that the chases were long, frightening, and exhausting and often I'd wake up shaking and trembling. Now I believe that my subconscious and my guides showed me the stars to run towards as a means to spread the 'light' of hope and to show me that I would outrun my inner demons. I would conquer and come out victorious. I think that on a higher level I partly took on 'so much' because I wanted to prove to myself and be an example to others that there is no obstacle or burden that enough faith, love, and hard work cannot heal. I think of the old gospel song that says "If I never had a problem I'd never know that God could solve them."
I wasn't so confident back when I had the nightmares. I'd pray for them to go away but they never did for a long time. I think that my subconscious partly created them to make me aware of my inner demons and skeletons in the closet that needed tending to. In a sense they were symbols of my own inner warring factions or aspects of myself that were at odds with each other. Now, I jokingly say that schizophrenia beats dining alone. I truly did have so many characters, people or sub-personalities within and they would constantly fight and yell at each other.
Just as my father constantly yelled at and tortured my mother for years, I did the very same thing to myself. Life was an internal battleground for years. But I finally figured I'd had enough and began to pray and beg God and my guides for help. I also went into therapy and worked with several different ones off and on for several years. The nightmares did decrease after time in therapy and once I began receiving more other worldly visitors. And yes, thank goodness, they finally disappeared altogether thanks to my guides, the angels, and my own strong will and fierce determination. When I look at or come into contact with troubled downtrodden souls I say "there but by the grace of God, go I." And I truly mean it.
On the surface it most assuredly looked like Life had dealt me a bad hand of cards. Back then I wasn't versed and knowledgeable on metaphysics to the point that I am now. I didn't know about my karma and my past lives, the law of attraction, and how we reap what we sow. Things are different now and I have nothing but compassion for people who get caught up in the 'poor me victim' role.
Eventually the soul gets weary when we stay in the 'poor me victim' mode because it is not conducive to our growth and it retards our progress. I played the poor me game for a few years then I began asking deeper questions. And like Jesus said 'Ask and you shall receive.' Knock and the door shall be opened unto you." I was to receive and the door to knowing and knowledge would open to me. Had I not reached out and gotten help, yes, I do believe I could have become a criminal and committed acts of violence and wound up in prison. They say that under enough pressure even your normal everyday person can break down and go over the edge. So yes, my horrible circumstances could have broken me. I have a poster which says that children learn what they live: A few lines really stand out to me: If children live with criticism, they learn to condemn. If they live with hostility, they learn to fight. If children live with friendliness, they learn the world is a nice place to live."
There was certainly no friendliness at home and lots condemning, hostility and fighting constantly going on. Needless to say this all took quite a toll on me. I now see that it is a miracle that I survived. Now I know that it was all part of 'a bigger picture' that I had agreed to face and experience so I could pay the karmic piper, heal and move on. Then I would be a servant of humanity, a compassionate healer, who could personally identify and relate to many of the woes that beset our fellow human beings. I would not be some certified psychologist or shrink with several degrees framed on the wall who spouts of this and that psychological theory but has no idea of what some of these people have been through. And many have little idea or the means and knowledge on how to help these tortured souls. I am not saying that in order to be an effective counselor one must have endured a horrible upbringing.
There are many counselors who possess natural compassion, empathy, and sympathy for others. But there are far too many who are stuck in their 'heads' as my psychotherapist friend used to say. I was very fortunate to meet and work with some of the finest therapists and counselors. As a result of that and my spirituality, I know that anyone can heal. But it does not happen overnight and you can't swallow a magical pill to make it happen or pay a certain amount of money for a quick fix from a doctor or your psychiatrist. You have to put in the sacred soul labor.
It can be wrenching and at times you may think you cannot survive another day or deal with life or with people, or your creditors, or even your spouse or your dog. It is okay to have such feelings. I've had them and even still do at times. For those who stick with it, the benefits and rewards do begin coming in and we do begin to learn that every adversity has an equal or greater benefit. One of my great adversaries was a deep loneliness and alienation that I felt inside. It gnawed at me and kept me chronically depressed constantly and I was constantly haunted by thoughts and fantasies of suicide.
I begged God and the powers that be for help, and I also expected it. Something deep in my soul has always known that we are not destined to spend our lives being lonely and miserable. So for embarking upon the healing path (which was limited to traditional therapy and counseling for a few years) I was rewarded far more than I could have imagined possible.
My meditation and psychic development opened me to other realms as well; the realms of poetry, and music. Poems of all types will literally 'pop' in my head: rhyming verse, non-rhyming, prose, you name it. My friends told me they thought the poems were beautiful and encouraged me to create some books of poetry. I am proud to say that my first book of nearly two hundred love poems, Dawn's Kiss, came out in May 2009. I have written enough new ones for a second book. The same thing happened with music. Songs would pop in my head out of nowhere and would not be content until I wrote them down and sang the tunes in a tape player as I do not read music very well. If I hear any instrument being played, a song can easily follow if I wish.
I have read in my metaphysical studies that the subconscious mind has access to far more knowledge than the conscious mind, and perhaps it has access to 'all' knowledge. I have read many wonderful books where people spoke in long details giving tremendous information on topics they knew little if anything about. While under most of the subjects have no idea what they are saying. planets, hidden underground cities, other lives as animals, plants and in strange otherworldly bodies and much more.
I no longer believe that my unusual experiences were crazy and now I am glad to share them and am very grateful for them. The once lonely boy now has a direct hotline to the muses, art, poetry, heaven and other worlds and it is something I cherish and feel honored to be able to do. I had to put in a lot of work to get there but it pays. This is what I always tell my clients in the psychic readings and the spiritual counseling that I do. It is why I write my articles and books and work very hard to get them out there. I am compelled to help others because I know what it is like to be desperate. I know there is hope and there is a light at the end of the tunnel so to speak. My plea to other ailing lonely, depressed, tormented souls is to reach out for help. For the call truly compels the response. It can be no other way.
There really wasn't a time when I was not aware and attuned to the 'other world' as I refer to the realm of the psychic and the paranormal. A psychologist or psychiatrist might say that due to a troubled childhood, and to escape the terrible goings on at home, that I retreated into my inner world and fabricated all of the beings and spirits that I made contact with.
I admit that my 'outer world' living circumstances being a hostile and dysfunctional place could contribute to me seeking inner solace. But I do not believe that it was imaginary realms that I began to explore. I believe that I came into this lifetime with an innate ability to step through portals to other realms. It is just how I'm built. I've done it most of my life. Not having an easy home life just made it easier and gave me more motivation to tap into the spiritual realms.
During those lonely years of my childhood and many of my adult years, my other worldly friends proved to me that we are never alone. No matter how dark the night of the soul may be or how lost, abandoned or desperate we may feel, the truth is that there are angels and many other celestial and other worldly beings who ever watch over us and our call compels their loving response. Without my faith in God, angels, my guides, and the precious other worldly 'visitors' I could not have survived all the terrible things going on around me. They have kept and sustained me for many years and have promised to continue to do so for the duration of this lifetime.
Why do I speak these words confidently? Because I know that things are never as they appear. There is meaning and purpose to our lives even when we are not aware of it. Obstacles often occur in order to wake us and shake us up so that we may enter the vast and grand domains of the soul, spirit and our subconscious and even the universal collective unconscious mind that Jung speaks of which connects us to everyone and everything. Within our soul and being exists the knowledge, wisdom, strength and resources to liberate us.
I weep tears of joy every time I think about the precious angel who visited me in the back yard so many years ago, and I weep tears of sorrow for every soul who feels abandoned and alone. I daily pray that each of the sorrowful ones will search deep within for even a faint glimmer of hope. For as the song goes "it only takes a spark to get a fire a going." Reaching out for help will begin the healing process. For the call truly compels the response Beloved Jesus the Christ (Lord Sananda) stated that ‘in my father’s house are many mansions.’ The other worldly beings inhabit some of the mansions and these mansions dwell upon many realms and worlds. As the old saying goes "the sky is the limit."
Help came to me in other ways. It was to come from Pansy Parker, an eccentric mysterious woman who I met at church when I was twelve. Everyone considered Pansy to be a bit funny in the head. In high school I was to meet another mysterious woman who helped me accept my psychic gifts as a 'seer'. There were several hypnosis sessions which opened me to the deep layers of the subconscious and universal mind and helped open me up to other realms. Even being put under by the renowned mentalist, "The Amazing Kreskin", in a stage demonstration in New York in 1977, affected me deeply and helped spur my fascination with the psychic and paranormal realms.
Remember, we all need to be dreamers. Dreams cost nothing, and yet they offer boundless treasures. Happiness, success, abundance, freedom, and peace of mind are some rewards for the Dreamers who are also Doers. So dare to dream and keep remembering to do, for one is just fantasy without the other!
Michael Dennis (513) 281-5696 - author Halfway to Heaven, Dawn's Kiss, a collection of nearly love 200 poems that explores the many faces and facets of Love, and Morning Coffee With God, coming out from Ozark Mountain Publishing in early 2010. Cincinnati, OH. Profile: Psychic, Spiritual Medium, Author as seen on Fox, CBS, Jerry Springer, heard on MOJO, MIX, Q-102 radio in Cincinnati, Michael Dennis offers a variety of Psychic Readings to meet your needs. He offers In-Person, Telephone and Email Readings. To order his books or to book a Psychic Reading please contact him directly. Please visit his website at www.mikethepsychic.com for more information or email him at firstname.lastname@example.org