Life of a Capricorn or Maybe Just Cursed!
Anyone out there a typical Capricorn and believe your life is harder than for most? I was born on the 30th of December (a typical Capricorn, with a prominent Saturn; Saturn is the leading planet for all Capricorns and stands for delays, obstacles, hard work, self sacrifice....etc, story of my life basically). I think I have a hard time compared to most, I work incredibly hard with everything in order to get somewhere in life. I work hard at my job, at being a decent person, at everything to do with my life but I don't get rewarded. It's one problem after another, one step forwards and 10 back all the time. People call me negative but they haven't a clue and just for the record I think I'm realistic! I also deal with everything alone, aloneness another Saturn favourite!
I am now 50 and I realise that I have spent my whole life, working very hard to achieve the life I would like but yet I am still not settled. I still don't know where I'm headed and what life has in store for me. I battle on from one problem or obstacle to the next hoping that at last a new job, or something will be my break but no there is always some issue; some fight, some problem to sort out. Anyone out there had the same experience?
It's all supposed to be in the name of spiritual growth and I think in that department I am sorted. I believe I would not survive if my self esteem was not very high. I judge myself on my true authentic self not on what I have, possess or have achieved. Just as well because it's zero on that front. Although I certainly do think I am a good, decent person, however.......!
At the end of the day I am human and no saint! Don't we all want and need good friends, good family members, people to share our lives with, some sort of a fulfilling life? In this material world it is easy to forget ones real self but I am never allowed to get away with that. Saturn being the ruthless taskmaster that he is, I am constantly called on to find strength from the inside not from possessions or achievements alas. Some would say that's a great thing and I tend to agree but does that mean you have to be struggling all the time? Surely I can learn the lesson without being made to feel frustrated and out of control of my life so often?!