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Questions From the Child I Once was

Updated on August 18, 2020

This request threw me for a mental loop. I love conundrums, and this is a huge one, especially the first question in the request. The reason I decided to answer this, though, is because it moved me in a way I can't explain. Thinking back to my child self and considering if she'd be thrilled to know me today causes all sorts of feelings inside me. Hence, here's a simple, short hub to answer this deeper than they look, thought provoking questions.

Would the child you once were be impressed by the person you are now?

Quite simply, I think she would, because I am still that child, and I am rather impressed with the person that I am. Wow. That sounds pretentious, immodest, and so out of the ballpark that I wonder how I have the gall to post it, just like that. Well, again, quite simply, because I believe it to be the truth, my truth.

See, the only thing that necessarily changes with age is knowledge and, if one plays the cards right, also wisdom. The rest, dreams, attitude, courage, spit, energy, you name it, may perfectly stay the same, or improve. Yes, it can get better because as a child one doesn't have the tools to engage the world around, but as one grows up one learns to engage and work with whatever cards life throws at you.

As a child I was a very restless, little spitfire of a kid. Today, I'm a spitfire of an adult, I just learned to curb my restlessness, which brings me inner peace.

As a child, I had a wandering, inquiring mind. Today, my mind still inquires, but wanders less, just because I learned to search for answers or live without them.

As a child, I sought approval from my loved ones. Today, I still seek it but I'm not pained if I don't get it.

I could go on, but I think I already made my point. The child I was would grab my hand and ask me to play with her, and I would, gladly.

What questions would the child I was ask me?

Realistically, I don't know what I would ask myself. I'm not much for second guessing my choices, because those choices together with my spirit made me the person I am today, and I rather like me, as I said. What I know is what little Elena, or Elenita, my nick back then, would like to know, with hindsight! Elenita, in the shape of today's Elena, would ask:

  • What will I feel on my first kiss?
  • Will it be worth it giving up tennis to pursue a more traditional way to make a living?
  • Do you think I should do as you did and run away from home only to be returned by some nice policemen a few hours later? Was it a good adventure for you? Did you learn anything with it?

  • What shall I do so as not to have regrets over the years?

  • Will I always have this tendency to go against the flow and will it hurt?

  • Can you tell me what mistakes you made that I should avoid?

  • Will I ever cease to be afraid to die?

  • Will it hurt when dad dies?

  • Will I be happy as I grow up?

With Elenita's inquiring mind, we'd probably be in for hours of much the same impossible to answer questions. My answer to all of the above would be: Live your life, honey, that's the answer to all those questions.

© 2009 Elena.

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    • Elena. profile imageAUTHOR

      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Hello, maggs224 -- it's a wonderful photo, isn't it. I'm glad it and the article touched you, I remember shedding a few tears myself when I wrote it. I actually get a bit teary when I visit this space. I see Elenita all over the place, and I know it's ME I'm seeing, she is I regardless of the years gone by. Thank you for the kind words.

      Jill - And thank you for reading. "Linking" Elenita and Elena was was a real eye opener for me, just as I said, I realized I wasn't really linking two people, but bringing out the little one in me. I think we all have that little one inside, it just takes a moment of introspection to realize it.

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      jill of alltrades 

      12 years ago from Philippines

      Hi Elena,

      Just like maggs224, I also came to this hub by clicking the link in the hubber2hubber interview of JamaGenee.

      I must say that I was intrigued why you said that this hub reveals the real Elena. Well, I certainly am not disappointed. I just love how you were able to link the Elenita and Elena so effortlessly. This is really a beautiful hub.Thank you for writing it. Now I have become your fan.

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      maggs224 

      12 years ago from Sunny Spain

      Hi Elena I came to this hub by following the link in the Hubber2hubber interview that you did with JamaGenee and I am so pleased that I did. I absolutely loved the photograph of you and your dad what a treasure to have such a moment captured on film. I have a mental image of holding my fathers hand like this when I was about four years old and out in the dark walking under a street lamp looking up at my dad and seeing snow flakes fluttering down through the lamplight. I must have been about at eye level with his hands because I can remember that he was wearing brown soft leather gloves at the time. This hub has touched me and moved me in ways I cannot yet fully explain and has set my mind back to that little trusting four year old me looking at her in a way that is totally new to me. It has been a most thought provoking hub and has caused me to cry a few tears both with you and for me.

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Au contraire, Jewels, thank you for such an insighful and personal comment!

      It is amazing how our outlook changes depending on the glasses we decide to wear, those of defeat or those of hope.  Sometimes we look out and "blame" the world around us, but in my experience looking within brings one answers and solutions. Besos to you!

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      Jewels 

      12 years ago from Australia

      Hi Elena, Frieda put me onto this hub, I missed it, like so many. Tis beautiful. I have a picture of my 7 year old me on my computer desk. I admire how the sun shone through her and her eyes full of wisdom and hope. She inspires the part of me that has been through the trenches to brush off the knees and keep going. It always amazed the adult me how this little girl, who by seven had already endured hell, could always be smiling in a photograph. Your hub made me see that I am still her. It's funny I thought the child was damaged, I think it's the adult who couldn't take much more who had the problems! Thankyou so much.

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Gracias, Mighty Mom!  What a nice picture YOU gave me, a mental cupcake with a cherry on top :-)  I'm glad it was nice, this peek into my head! 

      As to the avatar, the thought did cross my mind that nobody would recognize me!  Well, there's a whole weekend to get used to this new me – I'm going back to blueness Monday morning!  Besos!

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Hello , mayhmong, and thanks for the nice words. I get all mushy, too, here in this space, in the presence of my inner child. Don't think you're not facing reality, yet – you face it every single breathing moment :-)

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      Susan Reid 

      12 years ago from Where Left is Right, CA

      Whoa, Elena, amiga! I didn't recognize you (looking for the familiar sea blue avatar!). So glad I followed Ms. Mayhmong over here. Missed this wonderful inner child/outer woman dialogue the first time through when you first wrote it. It's really neat to get inside your head this way. You've given me a delightful mental cupcake with a cherry on top to cap my Friday evening. Thumbs Up!! MM

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      mayhmong 

      12 years ago from North Carolina

      That was a very touching hub. I'm glad to hear that things turned out great for you from your own childhood experience! Just reading through this kinda brings tears to my eyes. Guess I'm not ready to face reality just yet.

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Hello, Hawkesdream -- Retrospection and hindsight are great, but if we knew then what we know now, then now we'd be different people and we would know different thinks altogether. Isn't it totally mindblowing?!

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      Al Hawkes 

      12 years ago from Cornwall

      How very true, who we were and what we did ,is who we are today. If we could go back and ask those meaningful questions of ourselves we would not be the person that we have become.

      total brain blowout now, gotta think

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Advice is fine, a MUST in fact for a child in your care.  Now, decisions are another matter, and we all know how we learn from our choices --which over time we tend to call mistakes :-)

      In practical terms, I think it's wise to choose for your kids until they are able to choose for themselves, but I also think it's very healthy to let them choose, especially in non life alterning matters.  Choosing and learning the consequences of one's choices and actions is the most valuable lesson, isn't it?

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      Amanda Severn 

      12 years ago from UK

      Gracias! Sorry, I just went back and re-read the last few lines of the hub, and of course you did say how you would respond to the questions. It's good to own up to who we are, otherwise life is sure to catch us out sooner or later. Not giving advice to a child is trickier (at least it is for me!) At least these days I try to choose my nuggets of wisdom with care! (LOL!)

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Hello, Amanda! 

      If you notice at the bottom of the hub, I would NOT answer the child/adult questions, I would tell Elenita to live her life and find out the answers for herself :-)  Precisely because of what you say:  The person I am, the life I've led, mistakes and successes and ALL, made me the person I am today.  It's not only that I like who I am today, it's also that I OWN up to who I am today, and the person I am would never choose for a child, she would tell the child to go on and choose herself :-)

      And, amiga from this side of the pond, the pleasure of knowing you is all mine!  Un abrazo!

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      Amanda Severn 

      12 years ago from UK

      Goodness Elena, how did I manage to miss this?

      I love the photo of you and your Dad. I have a similar one of my daughter looking up at her Dad, and it's one of my favourites. It's good to know that the child you were, would enjoy the adult you've become. I suspect that the child I was would probably find the adult I've become a bit of a puzzle, mainly because, I was such an away-with-the-fairies kind of child that all adults were puzzling.

      I like your child/adult questions, too, but I wonder if it would be wise to tell the child you once were, what mistakes to avoid making, because if you had never made those mistakes, you perhaps would have been a different person than the one you've become, and we might never have had the pleasure of meeting you on hubpages!

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Thank you, AEvans, I'm glad you liked it! My inner child and I take a bow for you AND your inner child! :-)

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      Julianna 

      12 years ago from SomeWhere Out There

      Absolutey wonderful and my inner child would be proud of me too. This Hub deserves a standing ovation.:) Bravo!!:)

    • Elena. profile imageAUTHOR

      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      There's always a first time for everything, Proud Mom :-) In this case, "eloquent" is a first for you and for my hubs! :-) Thanks for that!!

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      Proud Mom 

      12 years ago from USA

      This was eloquent--and I don't know that I've used that word yet to describe a hub.

      Thank you for sharing it with us!!

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Hello highway star! The title is a twist of the request I answered, so I can't take all credit and will share it with the requestor, ParadigmShift :-) The content is all mine, so I'll take credit for that :-) Thank you!

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      highway star 

      12 years ago from Mostly Seattle, Amsterdam and Milan

      I like very much the title of this Hub. The content is great also...

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Thank you, Lgali!

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      Lgali 

      12 years ago

      Wonderful Hub Elena.

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Hello k@ari, thank you, there is a profoundness to looking at the child we were and realizing we are still that child, the thought brought a lightness to my step that I'm still cherishing, over a week later.

      CC Riter, nice to meet you and thanks for the kind words :-)

      Both - That photo is a joy to contemplate, as I was contemplating dad in it. I wonder what he was telling me, makes me misty eyed all over again!

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      C. C. Riter 

      12 years ago

      Simply put, it's a beautiful heart warming hub. I too love that picture, I can see the adoration in the childs eyes as she looks at Papa. What a smile.

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      Kari Poulsen 

      12 years ago from Ohio

      Elena-I love this hub! It is simple and sweet and profound! I am glad you are impressed with who you are. You should be, you've held on to yourself over the years and "Against the Wind". (I love that song, also)

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Thank you, Mellas! Elenita was quite the character, I think she would ask this question, too: How come Mellas only has her toes in her photo? :-)

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      MellasViews 

      12 years ago from Earth

      Wonderful Hub Elena. I especially loved the questions the child you, would ask you.

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Are you positive about that being a mistake, Freeze? :-) We could argue about there being more interesting people, but we can't argue about the fact that you wanted to know the future you was extremely "advanced" and totally original! :-)

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      FreezepopMorality 

      12 years ago

      When I was a kid and people asked me, "if you could have lunch with anyone living or dead, who would it be? Einstein? Shakespeare?"

      I said, "I would like to meet the future me." Looking back on it, that was a mistake. There's much more interesting people to meet than the adult me.

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      Alana Obe 

      12 years ago from My mind...

      Totally agree, always have that child outside, laughing, exploring and playing it's the best way to live!

      you go girl!

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Hello Alana, nice to meet you, and thanks! I agree, this definitely sets the mind going. I didn't think about this being healing, I thought more about it being a big self realization, as in, it's not as necessary to get in touch with the inner child as it is to understand you are still that child :-)

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      Alana Obe 

      12 years ago from My mind...

      Beautiful hub Elena, wow! just beautiful, gets one's mind going on. To contact the inner child is a great healing technique.

      Thank you so much for sharing such personal takes on yourself and experiences

      Blessings

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Thank you jj !

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      jjrubio 

      12 years ago

      Very wonderful hub!

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Thanks, Feline, glad you find it so! :-)

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      Feline Prophet 

      12 years ago

      Lovely...truly lovely. :)

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Thank you, sixtyorso! I think we all retain that inner child, the wondrous thing is to realize it :-)

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      Clive Fagan 

      12 years ago from South Africa

      The sentiments expressed here are totally honest and child -like in their simplicity. Elena I think you have managed somehow to retain in inner child. How wonderful. And more wonderful yet you are able to share that with us. Bravo.

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      Christoph Reilly 

      12 years ago from St. Louis

      Good. Thank you for the sweet thought! It's nice that you care.

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      It's emotional tears, not a river of them but couldn't help a couple of sniffs. And no, you didn't sound self-pitying, just maybe a tiny tad hard on yourself. All is well, my sweet :-*

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      Christoph Reilly 

      12 years ago from St. Louis

      Aw, you shouldn't go crying over that. I was just talking. Besides, this is your space, y!our lovely thoughts. I'm alright with everything. Hope I didn't sound self-pitying. I didn't feel that way. Cheer up, Senora.

      And Hugs to you, too

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Hi Christoph!  I really, but really, don't want to start crying again, but I think I will, a little bit, after reading your comment. 

      What is more important than having your past and inner child be impressed by your heart?  That is the key, isn't it? The soul and substance, not the riches or the fame or anything else.  That is, partly, what made it so easy to put this hub together, I look back at all that I've done and not done so far, and all through it my spirit is there, I am still THAT child. I suspect you are, too. Besos to you, and un abrazo.

      G-Ma, thank you and hugs to you!

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      Merle Ann Johnson 

      12 years ago from NW in the land of the Free

      What can I say ...everyone has said it all and so well...you have done a wonderful job here my dear and Thank You...G-Ma :O) Hugs & Peace

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      Christoph Reilly 

      12 years ago from St. Louis

      Hi Elena: What a lovely hub. I, like those before me, love the picture of you and your father. I have a picture of my parents and my sister very much like that one. I think I like the picture more than she does! I am surprised that you say it was easy and fast for you to write this. I'm not sure if I could write it...or even if I would dare to do so. My immediate response to the question of whether I, as a child, be impressed by me, is no. But then I think that child might know more than I give him credit for, and would at least be impressed by my heart (it's just he would prefer to be a big movie star too!)

      Anyway, beautifully done. Touching, warm, and reaffirming. I know one thing: that I am impressed with the adult you have become.

      Besos.

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      ColdWarBaby 

      12 years ago

      Your advice is appreciated and will not be ignored.

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      I understand your concern, CWB, I really do, but you can't think about what the future holds for him first because we don't even know if there is a future, and second and more importantly, he is the one that needs to care about HIS future.  I'm not being facetious at all, nor a cynic.

      Nurture him TODAY, give him the tools he may need to make it tomorrow, tomorrow doesn't matter for him, probably the tools don't matter either, what matters is that he LEARNS today, every day, he has himself to fall back on, whatever the future may bring.

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      ColdWarBaby 

      12 years ago

      I can't help thinking of his future Elena, in terms of what kind of world we're leaving him if nothing else. Should I be emphasising his education in the traditional sense or maybe sending him to survival school?

      I'm not being my usual sarcastic self here. I'm genuinely and deeply concerned for his survival and that of all the children his age and younger.

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      CWB – You make me go for the hanky again, this is so uncommon of me, but shesh, I can't help it. Your grandson will grow up to be his own man and he will or will not compose moving pieces, but, again, in my very humble opinion (as always, when it comes to kids of others) I don't think you can really contemplate his future, as it's his, but you can and must contemplate his present because he looks up to you –he will learn to ask the questions if you teach him it matters to ask questions.  You can't really control the type of questions he'll ask either, but what counts is that he'll be in the asking corner, not in the yes or no corner. 

      Thank you for the moving comment.

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Paradigm – I have to say, thanks for this request. You can't begin to imagine the kind of feelings it raised within.  Time may go by, and the mind may expand, but the heart and the spirit, that really never leaves us, the unpolluted self we had when we were kids remains with us even when we're so old we can't pee straight, we can still remember when we played ball with other kids and the joy of just kicking the ball and getting home to dinner with the family.

      I am so used to hearing clichés like "seeing things with the eyes of a kid" that it's heart stopping to think, hey, I have the eyes of a kid, I am that kid --just a few years older.  I cant thank you enough for this request!

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      ColdWarBaby 

      12 years ago

      I doubt you realized how touching this would be to so many of us when you wrote it. I have sixty two years now to look back upon. My wife and I have our grandson of five in our care. I have his entire future to contemplate.

      Will what I have been and done give me the right tools to guide him forward? Can I communicate to him the need to avoid the pitfalls awaiting him "out there" and the best ways to avoid them? Can I help him see the beauty and vitality in life? How can I teach him to keep an open mind, to ask critical questions and know when the answers are genuine?

      It's very overwhelming to know that someone so vulnerable and so trusting is depending on me to lead him into his tomorrow.

      If one day he is able to compose a piece as moving as what you've done here, I think I'd be quite pleased.

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      GT – You'll do right, just by saying what you're saying here means you will, I think. In my very humble (no kids of my own) opinion, kids grasp what's important and what isn't, and I think for that you're a great role model. Besos.

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Pam – I think "going against the flow" is healthy as a form of expressing our individuality. Going against the flow means thinking for yourself and by yourself, regardless what others think or SAY they think.  I hardly ever mean going against the flow as a form of transgression, I usually mean it a form of self-expression. Very healthy :-)  And yes, the photo is my all time favorite family photo.  Now, don't tempt the devil to do another "list of one" hub! :-)

      JamaG – Thank you for the hug.  Here's my hanky, and you can keep it, ever since I posted this hub I've had to unearth all the hankies in the place! I miss my dad so.  He actually taught me to think for myself, if such a thing can be taught, and I think it can, he most certainly banged it into me. Ahhhh. I just don't want to sniff no more!!!

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      ParadigmShift... 

      12 years ago from San Jose, CA

      I agree with Teresa about "I learned to search for answers or live without them." That was very impactful to read. This little hub was pretty amazing! You have such a healthy outlook on your life, I hope one day we meet and I can add you to my circle of association. People need to know people like you!

      Oh yeah, thanks for answering my request! Elenita...

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      goldentoad 

      12 years ago from Free and running....

      When I look at my son, I see myself, and I also realize, he may be thinking the same thing as he looks up at me.

      So I better do right.

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      Joanna McKenna 

      12 years ago from Central Oklahoma

      What a sweet, powerful hub (sniff, sniff). And the photo is perfect - such love and trust for your dad. If my own dad were still alive, I'd have to go give him a hug. Instead, I'll give it to you!

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      Pam Roberson 

      12 years ago from Virginia

      AH! That makes the picture even more sweet! It does convey such a strong emotion of trust and adoration. :)

      That 'against the flow' comment wasn't directed at anyone in particular, and sometimes I wonder if maybe the way we grow up has something to do with the way one flows with or against life. That could be the case for me, I'm not sure.

      I admire your strong, unique individuality which shines so brightly here on hubpages, so please don't ever stop going against the flow! :)

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Thanks, Pam, and also for sharing the "against the flow" comment. Speaking of that, I always loved the song Against the Wind by Bob Seger & The silver Bullet Band! The photo at the top is dad and I, if there ever was photo of trust and adoration in the dictionary, I think that would be it :-)

      Robie, glad you caught on the photo, this ain't no photo bank or flickr borrowed image! I'd probably still be looking at my father that way if he was around. I'm happy that you found the hub lovely.

      Cris – In a way, it took a lot of introspection, but in another it's probably the easiest, quickest hub I've written to date. And that's exactly what I thought, that I recognize myself in the kid I once was. I'm not kidding when I say I shed a couple of emotional tears!

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      Cris A 

      12 years ago from Manila, Philippines

      Elena.

      I'm sure this took a lot of introspection on your part. And I'm glad you were able to still recognize the child that you were once in the adult that you are now. I guess it means you stayed true to yourself with the passing of time. This is bittersweet Elena. Beautifully bittersweet. Thanks for sharing :D

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      Roberta Kyle 

      12 years ago from Central New Jersey

      Hi Elena-- what a lovely hub. I am smiling as I look at the picture of little Elenita walking along with such love and trust holding her father's hand. The bond between the two of you jumps out of the picture. So does the enthusiasm and zest for life of that little girl. Knowledge may change, and life may bruise us all, but the essential ageless personality lives inside. Hooray for Elenita--she rocks!

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      Pam Roberson 

      12 years ago from Virginia

      Elena, how incredibly beautiful this is. The picture at the top of this hub is so sweet!

      The one question that really hit home with me is the one about going against the flow. Boy do I identify with that, and I think, universally speaking, that whenever a person selects choices or has natural inborn feelings that aren't the norm, then she/he ends up against the flow like a salmon swimming upstream. Although I feel that it's the inability of many people to simply accept that difference or at least try to understand it that presents the real problem. The good thing about it is that people who go against the flow themselves are much more tolerant and accepting people in general.

      Oh I could go on and on, but my daughter beckons me from her sick bed to deliver medicine! Lucky for you that I can't blabber on longer! :D

      Wonderful job!!

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Muchas gracias, Anthony!

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      ajbarnett 

      12 years ago from Costa Blanca, Spain

      Nice one Elena. Poingnant stuff.

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      Elena. 

      12 years ago from Madrid

      Frieda, here's a hanky, I'll share with you as I made myself cry a little bit!  I'm not sure why this request moved me so, maybe because when I look in the mirror I still see that kid and I love her, and she loves me back.  I better stop before I start shedding some more tears!

      Teresa, thanks, you're the sweet one! Resolute is a qualifier that I would relate to, indeed, even when "politics" call for a less resolute and more ambiguous response.

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      Sheila 

      12 years ago from The Other Bangor

      What a sweet hub. Elenita is a darlin' wee girl, and we can still see her in Elena! The passage from child to adult -- you map our progress so well -- when you say "I learned to search for answers or live without them" -- that's so true: we learn which questions we can get answers to, and which questions will never find answers.

      I love how you have incorporated the best aspects of your sweet childlike spitfire self into your wonderfully resolute adult self. neat!

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      Frieda Babbley 

      12 years ago from Saint Louis, MO

      OMG, Elena. You made me cry. How absolutely beautiful. I can totally see why you chose to answer this request. Thank you so much for sharing.

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