Tempers and Who Can't Control Them
All or Nothing
My temper flares without a care.
My mind is made up and the world is wrong.
I can't think
I was better off not even trying
I never try to understand and listen to reason
Over and over complaining I shout instead of trying to explain myself
No time no time
I insist my way is the only way
The world is against me and I will repeat it over and over until I believe it to be true
How can this be happenning
i most certainly wonder
I try and I still end up the same way with no solution in place
Don't you see it is me
I argue with aggression
I have all the troubles and nobody else can see.
With no one to come to my side
I feel like the queen of spades when everyone else is a heart
I rant and rave can't you see my pain?
I am so lost that no one can help me?
I move on like this day has never happened so I can soon forget
You offer assistance and I can't see it because I'm to stubborn and ashamed of what I have done
You ask me to think and work things out
I can not do that
That would make to much sense
That would be reasonable and be helpful
i could not except the world with no more but's and chances
I won't listen because I know I don't have to
I will find things wrong and cause trouble with all your help you give
I did it in the past and got my way
Pitty me until I change my ways
I cry myself off to sleep
I have turned back time when I was queen
the queen of spades is who I pretend to be
Haven't you heard my yelling,screaming and tantrums of wild insanity.
I get upset and cry with tears running down my face
You don't care as you won't let me talk
You ask me to leave
So I can calm down and think of what I have done
I just feel rejected and feel you don't need me.
We both know that is not true
You had enough and tell me to believe what I want and do what I want
You watch me sit and sulk
you write and tell me the way things happened
I get all upset like so many times in the past
You plead and beg I have no time for this as I continue
Let the truth be told and everyone to see
no time for your games
been there done that and I will not do it again.
Childish and no time to waste
Life is important and many things to do
I argue and cause you great sadness
I Close my eyes and breathe
I a bleeding heart who needs to be loved
What reason could I have to be hugged and held so close
To be comforted by you and to be told how much I'm loved
When all I feel all this disapointment and dispair
I am sad I distrusted your judgement
I question the words that you speak
I want to throw and break things I am sad
I will never ever give in to the QUEEN OF SPADES again
when I am a lonely heart