in-becoming - in medias res
There is more to life than this! was my lead when starting to explore the politics of gender, society and the arts.
I was frustrated with the male dominated consensus permeating the culture as well as history writing and started to wonder if there had ever been a great female artist, philosopher or scientist.
Being a child of the 70's I quickly learned that there was a wealth of knowledge already existing beyond the coulisse of mainstream status quo and that I could construct my story upon that knowledge.
I was a young girl when my mother gave me a book that introduced me to Diotima. She told me there was a place in between the dichotomies. Understanding through polarities. A place for love. In constant motion, flux.
While living through the 'l'invitÃ©' of Simone de Beauvoir, visiting the 'l'etranger' of Albert Camus, paying hommage to the 'female eunuch' of Germaine Greer I decided to incorporate myself by myself. To make my own decisions. Consciously, to speak for myself, through language (system) I chose.
The famous "The limits of my language signify the extents of my world" is the transcript where I launched to my journey, the journey of becoming subject, embodied
becoming one that speaks (celui qui parle)
embarking journey where questions of language system (langue) and language (langage) as well as the concept of translation have been strongly defining this becoming, as well as the ever intricate questions of "lining" of this becoming (doublure) or possibilities for renaming of this becoming.
There, in ambiguous insidiousness, in subtle sense I have written myself
- j'ai Ã©crit moi-mÃªme
Thus I finally became the protagonist (protagonistes)Â of my own life.