Hannah Baker's Poem from Netflix's 13 Reason's Why
If you've watched Netflix's book-to-screen adaptation of author, Jay Asher's 2007 novel '13 Reason's Why,' this excerpt of Hannah Baker's poem will bring you to tears.
The Netflix series uncovers the shocking events that led to the suicide of high school junior, Hannah Baker. Nearly nine years since the novels debut, Jay Asher's compelling story has touched the hearts of millions again. The poem below captures the pain, and frustration Hannah felt as a result of continuous bullying, and peer pressure.
About The Poem [Spoilers]
Searching for purpose in her life, Hannah Baker attended the Evergreen Poetry club where she was encountered by Ryan Shaver, "Liberty Highs resident intellectual, editor of Lost and Found, general - selfish - snob." Inspired by Ryan's poem, she convinced him to teach her how to write better poetry. Ryan then, took it upon himself to publish Hannah's impressive progress in his daily school column for all of Liberty High's faculty and students to read. Though no one realized that Hannah Baker wrote the poem, her intense outlook on life was analyzed and ridiculed, further sending her into a downward spiral.
Hannah Bakers Poem
"Today I am wearing lacy black underwear
For the sole purpose of knowing I am wearing them.
And underneath that?
I am absolutely naked.
And I’ve got skin. Miles and miles of skin;
I’ve got skin to cover all my thoughts
like saran wrap that you can see through
to what leftovers are inside from the night before.
And despite what you might think, my skin is not rough; nor is it bullet proof.
My skin is soft, and smooth, and easily scarred.
But that doesn’t matter, right?
You don’t care about how soft my skin is.
You just want to hear about what my fingers do in the dark.
But what if all they do is crack open windows?
So I can see lightening through the clouds.
What if all they crave is a jungle gym to climb for a taste of fresher air?
What if all they reach for is a notebook or a hand to hold?
But that’s not the story you want.
You are licking your lips and baring your teeth.
Just once I would like to be the direction someone else is going.
I don’t need to be the water in the well.
I don’t need to be the well.
But I’d like to not be the ground anymore.
I’d like to not be the thing people dig their hands in anymore.
Some girls know all the lyrics to each other’s songs.
They find harmonies in their laughter.
Their linked elbows echo in tune.
What if I can’t hum on key?
What if my melodies are the ones nobody hears?
Some people can recognize a tree,
A front yard, and know they’ve made it home.
How many circles can I walk in before I give up looking?
How long before I’m lost for good.
It must be possible to swim in the ocean of the one you love without drowning.
It must be possible to swim without becoming water yourself.
But I keep swallowing what I thought was air.
I keep finding stones tied to my feet."
-Hannah Baker, 13 Reason's Why
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, or displaying warning signs of suicide, please call the Suicide Hotline Prevention number at 1-800-273-8255 for help.
Remember, you are not alone.