ARE YOU READY TO DANCE?
ARE YOU READY TO DANCE?
I found the musical fountain of youth!
Just let it go!
Today, I decided to dance. Let the music sweep me away (yes, ladies...WE can still be swept away!); caught up in the moment and free from thought. Today, I decided to turn up the volumn, open the windows and blast away! No holds barred, no rules; no regulations! Nope, today is the first day of the rest of my life and, well; today....I decided to dance!
Let me explain.
Lately, I've allowed a murky, threatening cloud to take up residence directly over my head. I haven't even tried to push it away; no, I've actually hidden in it's deep shadows, even feeling familiarity there. So much to do! So many things awaiting my attention; surrounded by needs, demands which are lovingly met because I care.
But! Sometimes, one needs to realize that, in order to serve those needs, "I must be at my best." So many have said, "you have to take care of yourself first or you will not be able to help others....."
I find it very difficult, sometimes..well; much of the time, to allow myself to breathe. B-R-E-A-T-H-E when I am so vividly aware of a world full of so much grief. Anyone who knows me knows what these are. I've allowed weeks, months, even years to go by during which I felt guilty about 'selfish pleasures.' Fun, joy, delight and celebration in the face of what I know. I felt/feel that I cannot rejoice while, I am cognizant, without a doubt, that others suffer. But...I must rethink, recharge, energize and reconsider my approach...
Recently, I've come into contact with an old friend from my early teen years. Through the magic of technology, Jim and I found one another. Imagine the delight and surprise upon seeing a familiar, long ago name suddenly appear before your eyes. How fantasticl!
We've been walking, talking, philosophising, remembering, eating, laughing, lamenting and recalling together! What a wild and crazy ride!
Old feelings; ones I had forgotten or willingly set free were, once again, stimulated....rising up from the depths of present day absorption to the surface...percolating upwards towards my heart, head and soul!
I had thought these were no longer pertinent; no longer applicable. I had shunned the very existence of these moments and memories. Why? Well, I told myself, 'they serve no purpose but to lure me away from today...and to wonder...ponder..muse and, perhaps (and most potentially disasterous)...beckon me from the 'here and now' to the 'the 'there and then.'
Almost like an addict; I avoided these sirens....turned away....denied, decried and slammed that door shut!
But, today...I decided to DANCE!! I mean, really dance...feet pounding the floor, arms flying in the air, spinning, turning, singing along and out loud...allowing the feelings; the very essence of 'then' to flood and drown out the 'now...' if only for a little while.
My friend, Jim, is not avoiding the pull from his past. No! He is walking in another era much of the time; our shared long ago. He is reminding me that there is so much beauty there...and it isn't a sin to visit now and again.
We found Merlin on Youtube....I had often wondered about them...Merlin; an incredible magical musical tour. The cream of the crop. Musical virtuosos; each in his own right, who found oneanother years ago, a combination from which mood and mind altering creativity emerged. I hadn't heard the music in decades. (When you listen to the video; you'll understand).
I COULD NOT believe it! He quickly added the site to my favorites as I searched for the speakers for my computer. In with the USB (am I dating myself?)...'ditto' the power source...lime green in lime green ... and, "OH MY GOD!"
Heaven, I'm in Heaven!
And here is why:
Rock yourself to bliss!! Just let it rip! Let yourself feel free, moved by the gleeful, amazing compositions. This was a time when it was 'ok' to discover, delight, be caught in surprise and humbled by the experience.....
If even for a little while; I'm going to let these magical souls wash over me...take me away...melt the coldness and warm my soul.