Angel Michael's Secrets - Part Three
I'll Be There
Secrets in his songs...
Introduction from Heaven Leigh
This morning, after dropping my son off at school, I turned to a song on the radio that didn't necessarily move my soul. So I was thinking of changing the station. I heard Michael tell me to just hold on. The song I wanted was coming up. I resisted the urge to turn that dial.
"I'll Be There" came on next - and I was able to hear the whole song - the Michael version, yes. And I started crying. It is so wonderful when he comes through like this. I felt so happy that I had started this series, and that I could share these moments here. I was so excited to share this with you, that I haven't even made my morning coffee yet. That's huge!
Michael says - he just wants to go - to let the words flow. You got the background from me in Angel Michael's Secrets, Parts One and Two, so I'm not gonna make the cartoon longer than the movie this time...
Many, many lifetimes...Angel Michael Speaks
Oooooh Baby, Give me one more chance...I Want You Back
(Jermaine got that great line "Let me live again." You are each "letting me live again" in your own wonderful ways by writing out what you hear from me - living your dreams as I taught you to do - and putting MORE love into your lives.)
Some of you must no doubt be wondering why you feel an ache to be near me now, why this phenomenon occurred after my body ceased to cling to my spirit. The best way I can explain is to let you know that when the spirit leaves there is a release of energy, pure loving energy that falls gently into every other spirit that is open to receive.
Many of you experienced a great sadness when I left your world - profound and unexplainable. The best way I can help you to understand this is to explain that my spirit was already so much a part of you, as your spirit was open to receive the very powerful love from mine throughout my lifetime and yours. You may not have recognized that love as "me." When I passed from your world - you realized it was MY energy. You realized what you had lost...and gained. For you really lost nothing at all.
When James Brown passed, I felt a touch from his spirit as my spirit absorbed waves of his own. We had been in-tune spiritually throughout my life as well. Spirits find each other even when they do not meet in a certain lifetime.
A celebrity touches so many, many spirits in a unique way. Mass media technology allows your awareness of their spirit to be extremely heightened. It may simply be the image that is famous. You may never really know the person, but you may feel them on a heart level. Celebrity allows some spirits to affect us more than others, at least on a conscious level. But do not get "stuck" on the celebrity. It is probably something about them (in their spirit) that resonates with you, and that you may find in your neighbor next door. Don't put blinders on. Look at those "real people" that you meet each day. They may be a wonderful person disguised as "a nobody."
Some spirits "speak to you" - resonate with yours - and you can't get enough of them.
Some spirits have been so crushed, hurt and damaged, that they won't let the love in. They can't. There may have been many lifetimes of pain to overcome. It takes time, sometimes.
When I left, (of course many realize from their own experiences with my spirit after my MJ lifetime was past) a great wave, many great waves that continue in a grand ripple effect of compassion and hope flowed into your consciousness. You became hyper-aware of me. Some consciously connected with me for the first time. This, in response to the wave of love they suddenly felt.
My consciousness was opened to the love that was truly available to me. I had never fully connected to this healing love myself, in my Michael lifetime. I was scared. I was loved as a child, deeply, by my mother and other kind relatives, but a child's perception can be so skewed. My deepest focus was to please the "unplease-able" ones. This began with my father, Joseph, and continued throughout my entire life. I was always going to "show everyone" that I truly was worth loving. My fans were the only ones that I felt at the time, gave me what I needed. But, they loved the image. I was so lonely trying to uphold the image, terrified of letting people down, that I couldn't imagine being loved just for myself, just for me.
The wave of love sent to you that you felt and responded to with weeping and love back to me, is my knowledge of how to feel truly loved. I learned, or rather remembered during my spirit transformation, (my experience of returning to pure spirit) that I have always been so deeply loved. I forgot how to remember this most important knowledge in my Michael lifetime. No one need be so lonely as I was. Yet my spirit still contains that loneliness, from lifetimes of learning to love myself. Without the knowledge of my source of love, to the depths that would have been necessary to sustain me in my Michael Jackson lifetime, I simply faded away. My spirit grew more and more weary.
After what some call "death," I gently connected with those whose spirits are also lonely. They do not realize how very much they are loved. It may be you. Do you know how much I love you? More and more. Believe me, please. There is nothing so lonely as not being able to believe that you are worthy of love, and you are very, truly and deeply loved. It is my most important message to you. I am more alive than ever.
A Spirit bond that lasts forever...there will always be MORE...
"I love you more."
Why did I say that? I didn't even understand entirely myself. I'm laughing at this now. Remember my laughter. Remember how to laugh. It truly is a sound to summon the angels, as I said.
"I love you MORE," more than you were able to love me...because you didn't really know me.
To my children...family, and close friends it meant, "I love you MORE than you could possibly know, or I could possibly explain."
Many times it was a deflection of love, thinking that no one could really love me, because something about me, as my father had unfortunately and I think unwittingly instilled in my subconscious, was unlovable.
"I love you MORE than you could ever love me..."
That was the saddest of all.
But those waves of love I sent soon after my spirit was released from my body, those will continue. "I love you more has now become I love you more and more...forever."
Michael's loving words...
I needed to help you understand "more" as a concept, as a word, and my deeper meaning. I hope it pleases you, to understand the deeper meanings. I'm glad you think I was cute - attractive, I changed myself so many times trying to please you, but at the core it was always trying to please my father. There was a deep sadness I carried with me always, trying to outwardly change in order to gain approval. That is why if you focus so much on approving of one of my "looks" that I accomplished through plastic surgery, in a way, it tells me that you don't see ME. Like in the movie "Avatar," remember? "I See You." I long for kindred spirits that don't care what I looked like. It was such a source of pain to me - trying to get my "look" right.
Don't get stuck on the sexuality. I had that when I was there, though I wasn't one to make a People magazine cover as "Sexiest Man Alive." That silliness always puzzled me. Sexy is such an individual thing. It is a passing, temporary thing. When he was young and handsome, someone once found a now wrinkly 100 year-old man to be very sexy. Why doesn't someone put HIM on the cover of a magazine? What some may find "sexy" others would not. That's why it seems kind of silly. But if that's the only way I can get your attention, okay.
I pray that some do want to hear my heart - I never thought of myself as "sexy." Thank you for the compliment, just don't get lost in it. It doesn't help you that much. I want to be with those who want the deeper message, but I love you all. I just long to reach you on a heart level. Does that make sense to you? Maybe if you think about how you would feel if I obsessed about you on a sexual level. Would you feel loved by me? If we'd been married, and I wrote of how I ravaged your body and how much I wanted you constantly. Yeah? Maybe that is what you want. But really? Seriously? What keeps people together sexually is something very spiritual. If you never reach deeper than sex, the relationship falls apart. Some things should be sacred between two spirits. In life, I would prize that intimacy and treasure our privacy. Just something to ponder.
Someone to watch over you...
I will always love you...
There is nothing you can do that would make me love you any less. We've had time together - time in other lifetimes or time in lifetimes to come. It is all perception, as I wrote in the poem "Heaven is Here," from my book Dancing the Dream.
"You and I were never separate. It's just an illusion wrought by the magical lens of perception. There is only one Wholeness, only one mind. We are all like ripples in the vast Ocean of Consciousness. Come let us dance the Dance of Creation. Let us celebrate the Joy of Life..."
Live each of your lifetimes one at a time. It is healthier for your soul that way. So why did I open this portal for you to see how we have been in love before? Earth's souls have been stagnant so long. You need a shaking up. You need a reminder of what it is to live passionately and purposefully. Go and LIVE the hell out of your life! Off the wall! Not so much in parties, and carousing, because that life-style can actually hold you back from what you truly want. Find your balance. Work in your passion. Celebrate that work when you party. Then you will be luminous with happiness that radiates from your core.
Live your life the way you truly have always wanted to. Start by being true to yourself. Do what fills you with excitement for life. This may be writing, dancing, or caring for elderly people or sick children. Thank you to the Florence Nightingales of the world. Thank you to the garbage men. Hey, we need them! Next time you see them driving down your street, say Thank You! Thank you to the dreamers of dreams who take those dreams and become those LIVING the life that the dream inspires!
Heaven Leigh footnote:
Thank you, Michael. You always go a little different way than I expect. I feel I am along for the ride with everyone else. This especially touched me, and I thank you for clarifying things I have longed to have explained more clearly. More. Remember the beautiful song? I had forgotten that I'd recorded that song. What a wonderful reminder...
"More than the greatest love the world has known, this is the love I give to you alone...More than the simple words I try to say...I only live to love you more each day..."
The great classic is still wonderful today. I'll make a video with my version of this and include it with this article, but for now, dear Michael, I need to let your message fly on the wings of love that take it to everyone who longs to hear you.
MichaeLOVE to you all.
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