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Bill Cosby Was My Childhood Idol

Updated on December 9, 2014

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Bill Cosby

I grew up watching Bill Cosby first “Fat Albert” and then the Cosby show and everything in-between. My brother, mother and I would watch or listen to his standup routines we had his records and would listen to them all the time.

I’m deeply saddened by the rumors that he may have drugged & raped at least 13 women. I like most of the world thought Bill Cosby was a good honorable man throughout his life. Bill seemed as if he was a devoted family man and faithful husband to Camille his wife of 50 years.

Love Child

Of course that changed when his affair was discovered when he found out he may have a daughter due to his affair 23 years earlier. Around the same time Bill & Camille’s son Ennis Cosby was slain.

Autumn Jackson, who claims she’s Cosby’s love child and Jose Medina tried to negotiate a $24million payoff, the day of his beloved son’s slaying while changing a flat tire.

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Andrea Constand's Accusations of Rape

I did hear that after Ennis passed away Bill became very different then his normal self when meeting fans. He was no longer the comedian he was the dad stricken with grief it makes you wonder how Camille & Bill survived the loss. I feel their other children gave them the will to keep going on despite the unfathomable loss of their only son.

Imagine my horror finding out that the man I idolized as a child could be a serial rapist as he’s been called in the press by some of his victims.

When Andrea Constand came forward with her story about Bill drugging her and raping her I was horrified. She went away quietly after being paid off by Bill Cosby.

I thought maybe she just wanted money because I would NEVER take money to shut my mouth if that happened to me and that Bill just wanted it to go away due to his grief over his son’s death.

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The Cosby Show

In light of the new allegations I am forced to concede that possibly he is the man they are saying. I have to be honest if it was ANYBODY else other than Bill Cosby I would have been on a witch-hunt with the first women who said he drugged & raped her.

I would have wanted justice for this poor woman from jump but I was swayed by my childhood memories of a man who made me laugh despite always being in the hospital, dealing with pain.

The Cosby Show & the spin off were among my top favorite shows and I never missed an episode, I idolized him wholeheartedly.

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Janice Dickinson Comes Forward

I can only imagine how these women felt being attacked by someone the world loved. Who would believe them? I’m sure that played into the reason they didn’t come forward at the time. Janice Dickinson wrote in her latest book about what she claims happed with Bill Cosby, he came to her hotel room with the premise that he could help her career and who doesn’t trust Bill Cosby? At some point he raped her after drugging her. All the women say that he puts something in their drink and then proceeds to rape them.

Janice has said on Entertainment Tonight that "The next morning I remember waking up with my pajamas off and there was semen in between my legs."

I'm not saying it didn't happen, but I find Barbara Bowman a lot more credible.

Barbara Bowman | Source

Barbara Thought Bill Cosby Was A God

Barbara Bowman was 17-year-old aspiring actress when Bill Cosby took her under his wing. "He went after me in that hotel room like an animal with such force that he couldn't control himself,' she said," in her interview.

"Barbara, now 47, says it's time to end her code of silence" — a silence that at least 13 other victims have followed — spanning three decades.

I Find This Very Hard To Listen To

Andra Constand

I don’t agree with what Andra Constand did getting a pay off because it invalidates that she was drugged & raped by taking the money and the other victims don’t feel they can come forward due to the fact that now no one believes her story and assumes she just wants money.

Obviously there are way more women coming forward which helps Janice, Barbara, Joan & Andrea and the others that haven’t been mentioned.

The statute on rape has long gone by but what about being drugged? What do you do when you have no proof but many women coming forward?

No matter what happens Bill Cosby’s reputation has been tarnished beyond repair. I guess that’s some consolation for those women who are accusing Bill of the unthinkable.

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    • Jo_Goldsmith11 profile image


      4 years ago

      This is written very well here. You were excellent with the details about what we all know at this point. I grew up with Bill Cosby too.

      I didn't want to believe it, especially Janice Dickinson's story. She just seems so *fake* to me. I thought she encouraged the other women to come forward and the six at the one point were just looking for the 15 minutes of fame and a "hand out". Yet, here we are now with over 20 women! My heart breaks for the women who have had to deal with this all these many years. And my heart breaks for all those people who looked up to him, like you, me and so many of color.

      God have mercy on his soul! His poor family/ can they not feel so much pain from what this sick man had done to so many! :(

      I hope you will join with me in keeping Mrs. Cosby and the kids in prayer. And the women who suffered for far too long.

      Shared and voted up! Take care...great job in writing this! :-)

    • TaraLRichardson profile imageAUTHOR

      Tara Richardson 

      4 years ago from New Mexico

      I hear what you're saying Joan and yes that is the scariest part of all that someone could seem so wonderful and be so evil.

      dream on , I think it's because we grew up with him thinking he was one way and now finding out we were duped it's really sad.

      I have heard that at some point in his life he changed and wasn't as cordial to his fans as he once was. If I'm not mistaken it was right after his son past.

      My heart breaks for his wife Camille she's a wonderful woman from all accounts and she stayed with him despite an affair and to find out this now at her age it must be devastating and probably she doesn't want to believe it just like the rest of us.

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      DREAM ON 

      4 years ago

      I always liked Bill Cosby and he was a good part of my childhood growing up. It is sad to see someone use their power and influence over others. I don't want to believe it. It is really hard to believe there is not some truth to so many stories.It makes you wonder if fame and fortune is really worth it.

    • JoanCA profile image


      4 years ago

      I never liked him, even when I was a kid watching the Cosby Show. He seemed arrogant. It's easy for abusers to hide behind a moral persona and celebrity. Their victims are deterred from coming forward because they assume they won't be believed (which is the norm with sexual assault where victims are usually treated like suspects with ulterior motives). TV personality Jimmy Savile was hugely popular in the UK. He got away with more than 500 sexual assaults over a 50 year period mostly on children. Savile could have been stopped decades ago but no one believed accusers when they came forward.

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      Al Wordlaw 

      4 years ago from Chicago

      Now that it is out, I'm sure he feels ashamed and perhaps, regrets what he has done. So, is it time to forgive him, yet?

    • TaraLRichardson profile imageAUTHOR

      Tara Richardson 

      4 years ago from New Mexico

      Me too.. Those poor women :(

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      H C Palting 

      4 years ago from East Coast

      There are too many disconnected persons singing the same tune about him for it to not be true. I find it sad that they felt pressure to hide it for all these years. Bill Cosby's actions and in-actions at this point are particularly telling.

    • Kiss andTales profile image

      Kiss andTales 

      4 years ago

      Wow ! New evidence . Well the truth is he had to be living with this on his conscious ! But maybe not ! Because he just dulled them to repeat the same offense .

      Well as that movie song would sing. Don't do the crime ! If you don't want to do the time, who knows what time will bring out of this situation

      But it is being addressed. And I hope this coming out brings closure mentally to the abused women, they are problerly seeking monetary damages.

    • TaraLRichardson profile imageAUTHOR

      Tara Richardson 

      4 years ago from New Mexico

      I know deep down what the truth is and like you said if he was innocent you would think you would say it. More women have come forward. I know without a doubt they aren't lying. Specially with the new evidence by a completely different man who finally came forward because he felt bad that the women were being treated so cruelly.

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      Kiss andTales 

      4 years ago

      Some times people will keep silent so they will not have to admit they did wrong.

      Having people just guessing .

      But even at the age he is ,it does not matter he is being forced to confront the issues.

      If you are innocent then you will proudly say I am innocent. But how can you say that with the number of witnesses saying similar stories and they do not know each other.

      Interesting how this turns out. Tarah !

    • TaraLRichardson profile imageAUTHOR

      Tara Richardson 

      4 years ago from New Mexico

      He won't comment. I don't know what to think honestly. I find it hard to believe all these women are lying but a few of them sound sketchy at best.

      It just sickens me thinking about it. I wrote the story without prejudice either way. If he didn't do it then I feel so sorry for him and his family and if he did then he needs to pay for what he did years ago.

      I wholeheartedly agree with you KissandTales .. :)

    • peachpurple profile image


      4 years ago from Home Sweet Home

      but he hasn't say anything yet, right? Just denial, no proof yet? I just wish it isn't the truth.

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      Kiss andTales 

      4 years ago

      Well that is sad if these are real aligations , but we should not be shocked

      Because all people have some kind of weakness , some more visible then others ,and money to some persons can buy anthing .regaurdless of who it hurts in the long wrong.

      Well we do know this to be true all things will be revealed though seemed to be hidden ,and all things will be truly be Judged by the surpreme God.

      No matter rather they are rich or poor.


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