New Kids on The Block - My Childhood Obsession
I had a tough childhood.
Ah, memories from childhood. Some were good, a lot were bad, but those times made me who I am today. For that, I have to be grateful. I'm 6 feet tall. So what? Well, I'm a woman. Now that I've reached my 30's, being tall isn't such a bad thing. As a child, it was a nightmare. I was made fun of on a daily basis at school. The most common "nickname" the other kids had for me was "Jolly Green Giant." Not very original, but it was enough to make me cry.
Like other children that are bullied or picked on, I had to find an escape. My escape was staring at the gorgeous hunks of a band called New Kids on The Block. They were my Beatles. I adored them.
They loved me! (in my head)
New Kids on the Block were my escape and my obsession. As a 12-year-old girl, I imagined that they loved me as much as I loved them. This was particularly true for Donnie. He was my imaginary boyfriend. Sometimes Jordan and I would hang out too. I guess there was a love triangle happening there.
I had every album of theirs. I listened to them over and over until I knew every single lyric. I didn't listen to the radio back then. It was all New Kids on the Block all the time. That's it! I also had those huge buttons. Remember those? I had one for each member of the band as well as some of the entire group. I don't think there was a button out there that I didn't have. I slept with them every night. Well, I rested my head on my New Kids pillow. I had a few of those. Anything that came out with their name or picture on it, I had to have it.
What about posters? Oh my... if only I had a digital camera back then so I could share a picture of my bedroom. It was literally ridiculous. Not one millimeter of wall or ceiling was visible in my bedroom. The walls and ceiling were covered from top to bottom with New Kids posters. Those boys were my wallpaper. On a side note, here's a gross true story. Have you ever seen what people around here call "thousand-leggers"? I guess they're a type of centipede that we find in our homes around here. At least those with a dingy, damp basement. Anyway, whenever I'd have one in my room, I could hear it crawling around under the posters, but I could never find it. Gross, huh?
Don't forget the dolls! I had all of the New Kids dolls. Some of them even went on dates with Barbie in her pink sports car.
Because I loved the guys so much and they loved me back unconditionally (in my head), I had a sense of belonging that I didn't have in the real world. I didn't have many friends. I was a nerd. Hey, I'm not afraid to admit that and I'm even less fearful of sharing with the world that I am currently a nerd. Now, I'm just the cool computer nerdette type. Donnie and Jordan were in love with me and fighting over me and I felt like I was on top of the world. I even wrote some stories about our torrid love affairs. (I was over 18 in my stories, though.)
In middle school, the boys helped me out of a lot of sticky situations. If I was being bullied or had to do something nerve-racking like give an oral speech, I would think about the New Kids. I'd think about them cheering me on and telling me how awesome I was. Strange, but it really helped! It honestly helped me get through some tough situations.
By now you're all certainly clicking on any link in the immediate area of your mouse just to escape my insanity. (Try to hit one of the AdSense links so I make some money). Don't worry, it won't rub off on you. :) I'm now a 30 something woman with tons of friends (a heck of a lot on Facebook, too!). I no longer feel as insecure as I did back then. I don't need imaginary friendships and imaginary love to get me through the day. I have everything I need in my friends and children. I still think back on those days and the love that Donnie and I shared, but it's over. I, however, will never forget New Kids on The Block and what they did for me.
Who was your favorite New Kid?
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