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Updated on May 10, 2010

Stop. Stop making me think about you. You sat here staring into my eyes. Deeply you stared--looking, searching into my brain with those penetrating blue eyes that made me blush and look away. Did you implant something while you were there staring into my brain? Yes, I think you did. I didn’t look away quickly enough. You held me captive at times with those eyes of yours…icy blue that lingered and locked on mine in a soft but intense way that never quite undressed me yet penetrated me. Lost in your eyes, I couldn’t hear a word you said. My body betrayed me with gut wrenching butterflies and wobbly knees as I tried to stand. I nearly forgot how to speak or form a sentence. Nodding was handy. Damn those eyes.

You are here, and I want to kiss you. I want to kiss you so badly that I hurt, and the yearning is so deep that I feel tears welling up in my eyes, yet when you move to kiss me, I hug you instead. I’m scared. I’m terrified. I’m afraid that the passion will drive me insane or kill me or make me love you. We hug forever, and when you release me, I want more, and I get more. As you kiss my face and run your fingers through my hair, a moan moves through my throat and I want my body to melt into yours, yet I stop. I have to stop, because I don’t want to go insane or die or to love you. It hurts. I know your eyes are going to hurt me.

You called and told me everything wanted to hear. Did your eyes see those things in my brain? We drank coffee and laughed for hours like teenagers. Now it’s over--I have that same butterfly sick feeling in my stomach, because your eyes are still in my mind, and I think about how I almost went insane, almost died, almost fell in love. Take out what you put in my brain. Stop making me think about you.

I hate you. I think about you now and all I can see is how you licked the coffee spoon. You know you did it. I was standing right there. I might be a hillbilly, but even I know you don’t lick a gosh darned coffee spoon. Other people might want to stir their coffee with it! Do you realize from that point on I always gave you your own personal spoon? Let me also tell you that I was two seconds away from pulling a Joan Crawford on your buttocks, but I wasn’t going to beat you half to death with wire hangers, I was going to beat you with every gah dang spoon I had in the kitchen while screaming, “Don’t EVER lick the coffee spoon!” Oh, and I hate the fact that you play the organ.  I’ve stopped thinking about you.

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    • De Greek profile image

      De Greek 7 years ago from UK

      Typical woman. Fickle! :-)))))))

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      Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

      Ha! I know right? :) Now I'm off to work. We might be fickle, but we're hard workers. ;)

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      Feline Prophet 7 years ago from India

      Adultery already? Or are you talking about your newly acquired husband? :D

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      Nellieanna Hay 7 years ago from TEXAS

      What a spoof! Coffee spoon! haha! Well - good to be practical about these things, right? Just traipse off to work and let the passion fizzle. There will always be another cone man at the intersection! And he's probably undressing some other innocent beauty's car with his eyes.

      Good one, Pam! :) I'm rating it UP, of course!

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      Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

      Feline Prophet, never would I commit adultry! I'm just putting some older stuff up while working on part 2 of the most satisfying marriage with the most wonderful man on earth. :D

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      Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

      Nellieanna! What a kindred spirit you must be to understand the logic and practicality of it all. Thanks! ;)

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      BJBenson 7 years ago from USA

      This was truly funny. I will think of you today when I use my spoons and drink my tea. I just thought you were writing about an ex any way.

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      Neil Sperling 7 years ago from Port Dover Ontario Canada

      Geepers - I'm glad I drink my coffee black!

      Look into my eyes!

      Love - Light - Laughter

      Neil

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      Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

      BJBenson, he was so fine until that tragic day...I call it the spoon tragedy of 2/10. ;) lol

      Neil, a man with eyes like yours (I took a look--or tried!)would never disrespect a coffee spoon even if you do take yours black. I just know it. ;)

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      Nancy Hinchliff 7 years ago from Essex Junction, Vermont

      Nice stream of consciousness.........

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      Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

      Thanks alekhouse! Maybe I'll put the other one here. Not sure yet. ;)

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      B.T. Evilpants 7 years ago from Hell, MI

      So good to see you back, Pam! And with style, too!

      Personally, I never lick the coffee spoon. That's just gross. The butter knife, though...That's a whole different story!

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      Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

      B.T., thanks so much! I never took you to be a spoon licker. Nope. Not for a minute. Gosh, I hope your butter knives aren't the serrated type! Although you do seem to be a rather daring jackalope who likes living on the edge. ;)

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      sunflowerbucky 7 years ago from Small Town, USA

      Love it!

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      Petra Vlah 7 years ago from Los Angeles

      It proves my point about you, Pam (please go back and read my response to your comment on my hub). Wheather coffee, spoon or con man, what you have is called talent; with capital T

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      Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

      Thank you both very much! :)

      Petra, you really do humble me. :)

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      Winsome 7 years ago from Southern California by way of Texas

      I can taste the wonderful...Pam I'm so glad you stopped by my hub. I think we are shirt tail cousins in spirit. I just posted a gallery of old stuff too and it led to a kiss where yours left off. Ha ha. =:) Love it.

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      Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

      Thank you Winsome! :) Shirt tail cousins...I love that! I'm really looking forward to reading your other hubs very soon. :)

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      katiem2 7 years ago from I'm outta here

      Pam, Oh how is it that I came to read this....it's fab, I love it and SO appreciate your gift with words and twist after all licking the spoon... Peace :)

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      Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

      Katiem, I appreciate that you came in to read this...thank you! :)

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      skye2day 7 years ago from Rocky Mountains

      Pam What a read. Wow Your creative writing had me sitting on the edge. Captivating. The picture grabs right where it hurts as you said the heart. The good news you got over it?

      Many Blessings. You have a new fan. You can write. I am grateful I landed on your hub. How did I do that? It was no mistake, that is for sure.

      Thank You. Keep On sister.(-:

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      Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

      Skye2day, thank you very much, and I'm grateful you landed here too. :)

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      SilverGenes 7 years ago

      Oh I just love coming in here to read! "Oh, and I hate the fact that you play the organ." - best afterthought EVER!

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      Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

      SilverGenes, I'd have to argue that your "I'm going out for nachos" is the best ever! :) Thank you!

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      Rand Zacharias 7 years ago from Kelowna, British Columbia

      Nice streaming passion, Pam. Did he lick a public coffee spoon, or was it the spoon he was using on the kitchen counter at home?

      Don't answer that--but if I ever catch that yokel licking the butter knife...it's over.

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      Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

      LOL! I hear you randslam, a coffee spoon is one thing, but a butter knife is so far over the line that it's insane! ;) lmao!

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      noorin 7 years ago from Canada

      LOl, was kinda taken by the ending , didn't see it coming ... nice hub =) Rated it up and will be following you Pam. =)

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      Pam Roberson 7 years ago from Virginia

      Thanks noorin! I really appreciate it. :) I have to admit that when I was writing this, I became irritated with the character's pain over this lost (almost) love, so I felt the need to end it and give it a quick turn. lol! ;)

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      skn12 7 years ago from Sambalpur(Orissa)

      Very nice hub.

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      akhimamun 7 years ago from UK

      Beautiful, Pam.

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      parkercoleman 6 years ago

      Hah, this cracked me up. I have quit loving men because they made eating noises, but I never thought about licking the coffee spoon! I have NOT EVER seen anyone do that, and WHY would someone do that? Great work with the ironic twist, Pam.

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      Pam Roberson 6 years ago from Virginia

      parkercoleman, what a wonderful question. It was an action that stunned me and stuck long enough to incorporate into a diddy like this, so it's truly significant! It's right up there with licking the mustard or mayo knife. He must have been the type who did that too. It's a good thing our relationship never made it that far, and thank goodness he stood me up for that dinner date because the eating noises you mention on top of all the spoon and knife licking would have driven me over the edge. That would have been a novel. ;)

      Thanks for coming in to read. :)

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      alexmita 6 years ago from London

      You, are, great!

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      Pam Roberson 6 years ago from Virginia

      You are too kind alex! Thank you. :)

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      saddlerider1 6 years ago

      Ice blue eyes, licking darn spoons and playing an organ will do it all the time to a dude. I hope he was at least wearing his cowboy boots. I don't lick spoons, but I suppose sticking my finger in a peanut jar is just as bad, oops. You put a smile on this Saddle's kisser, loved it. Caressed all your Up buttons:0)

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      Pam Roberson 6 years ago from Virginia

      Now that you mention it saddlerider, cowboy boots might have made everything okay! :) Sticking your finger in a peanut butter jar is cute! Spoon licking when you're not wearing cowboy boots is barbaric. Ugh. Thank you for taking the time to read and for putting a huge smile on my face! :)

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      Amy 6 years ago from Chicago

      It may be typical of a woman to think like this, but men just don't understand it's those little things that make us hate them so easily and forget they exist soon after. Great write, made me chuckle.

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      Pam Roberson 6 years ago from Virginia

      Lol true that! And the strange thing, to me, is that we tend to let those little things slide until the relationship goes very wrong or bad, then licking spoons suddenly becomes intolerable. Thanks for reading this one.

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      Ghost32 5 years ago

      ROFLMAO!

      Okay, my wife (also a Pam) gets her own coffee spoon, and no, neither of us licks it. Me, I'm just too lazy to mess with a spoon and don't take sugar, so: Half & half first, coffee on top, and good to go.

      But...don't believe I've ever SEEN a home, or a restaurant, where you didn't get your own coffee spoon...

      Huh.

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