Was John Lennon Homosexual?
Sounds absurd, I know.
In April 1963, The Beatles had already scored a few #1 hits in England. They still were not known internationally and were more a local phenomenon. Brian Epstein was the Beatles manager and brilliant to convert their raw image into polished images by putting them in suits. Yet, Brian was secretly in love with John from the their first meeting. John was amused by Brian being queer, he toyed with him. There were a few times John would comment on his sexuality. In England, at this time, being queer was a secret thing to avoid getting beat up (which had happened to Brian). Brian, to most savvy men, was obvious queer, although Brian tried his best to conceal it.
Rumors grew like mushrooms when both Brian and John vacationed alone in Spain after the Beatles tour had ended in the end of April. John's son, Julian, had been born only two weeks earlier at Sefton hosptial. John was on tour. When John told Cynthia he was going on this vacation, she could not understand and the two argued. John felt he owed it to Brian.
So, off the two men went to Barcelona. They went to the bullfights, went sightseeing, went night clubbing, then, they rented a car and toured Costa Brava. To John, Brian was their manager and a lonely one, at that, being queer. There was a sympathy of sorts from his point of view. For Brian, he had been trying to John alone, away from Cynthia and the other Beatles. He had a crush on him and secretly hoped to maybe seduce him. John was aware of how Brian felt, but that did not turn him off. He found Brian interesting, for he was living a lie, trying to pretend being straight. John felt sorry for the bloke.
It was at a club, after many glasses of wine, that the two had an honest talk. John asked him, "If you could press a button and be straight, would you do it?" Brian thought and responded, " Strangely, no". Then, John would interview Brian, as if he was a writer, When an attractive man walked by, John would ask Brian what he thought of the guy and if he was attracted to him, if so, why. John later said, "I found this an interesting experience, thinking like a writer".
When the two retired to their single room with two beds, John was quite aware Brian eyed him undress but thought nothing more of it. Brian did his best not to be obvious. John would lie on his bed in his underwear and look at Brian and say, " It's alright, Eppy".
Nothing ever happened. But rumors persisted for years, well into the mid-60's. John accepted Brian for what he was and Brian, despite his feelings for John, knew John was straight and they could only be friends.
Brian committed suicide in 1967.