I beat the bullies and won.
I was bullied from the age of 4 until I was 19. I was "different" and they did not like that. I knew I didn't "fit in" to their little cliques, and part of me didn't particularly want to, until I grew up a little. I reached 11 and went to secondary school and it got worse. The bullying became mental, emotional and at times physical.
I didn't tell my family until I was 15. Things just got too much and after another huge argument with my parents, it just came out. My parents did everything they could for me, but it was really too late to make a real difference. I believed I was worthless. I was moved to a different tutor group and things did improve a little.
I decided to go to College to study Nursery Nursing. I was hoping College would be a new start, people who wanted to learn as opposed to people who really didn't care. For a while, I was OK. But things soon started falling on top of me again because I expected to be bullied. I managed to complete my Nursery Nursing course and then went into administration, as my confidence was at rock bottom.
I moved out of the town after that, to a nearby City. I found myself an adorable man, we are now engaged to be married next year. I feel happy, peaceful and secure now. Where once I searched for an answer in everything, not confident enough in myself to sit quietly and let things happen, I now feel peace in my own company.
And now? When I go back to my hometown, I still see some of the people who use to bully me so mercilessly. I never talk about those days to them, but I have received apologies from them about the way they behaved towards me. I take the apologies with a smile, say "We've all moved on, now, I think," and that's that. I used to think that I would never be able to forgive these people, but I was wrong. It's possible to forgive anyone anything, when you learn how to forgive yourself.