Yes, but it wasn't until years later I recognized how inappropriate it was. I was 15 and it was my mom's funeral. I was to live with my aunt, uncle and two cousins. My cousin, Bob, was 13 and we sat together and poked, prodded, and snickered through the service.
I did it because I was very aware that all eyes were on me that day to see how I would survive the loss (only child, dad already dead). And I was going to show everyone I was okay. I survived okay but am really ashamed at how I acted that day.