My Love Charm Collage
The Collage That Materialized My Wish
Every now and then everybody wishes for something; these wishes could be objects, people or relationships, and important incidents that seem impossible in a certain time. When these wishes become dominating thoughts that develop into desire, the mind takes over; it starts to surmise on the wistful thinking and the question; "what if I could...?" which triggers the mind to see some possibilities through imagination, observation on his environment and the media; then the mind plans based on its observations and perceptions.
My mind did just that; In September, 2010 while I was living alone in my apartment and teaching at the same time, I suddenly felt lonely which made me say to myself "I wish I had a new husband to love me and care for me and vice versa..." This was also in the second death anniversary of my fiancée. It was just a wish but as the days gone by, such wish was nagging me like it had a life of its own. Then one day while I was sorting out the projects of my students in my bedroom, I noticed the bright red, wide board; it looked so attractive like it was urging me to do something about it and display it somewhere so I picked it and stare at it like something within me was asking what I can do to it.
I sat down, took a pair of scissors and started cutting it with the resulting big heart shape. Without much thinking, I took my big picture from my file and pasted it in the centre of the heart. While observing it, I noticed that something was missing so I sorted back my files of pictures and magazines when I saw the picture of Richard Gere that matched the size of my picture so I cut it and pasted it beside my picture and labelled it Richard Gere as opposed to my Jenny under my picture.
I decorated the poster some more and posted it on the wall inside my bedroom; it was placed right beside my dressing table so that I noticed it every morning when I get ready to work. I liked the poster and it made me smile and murmur some crazy loving words to myself every time I happened to glance at it.
When the clock struck 12:00 midnight on February 14, 2011, Greg just arrived in the airport at NAIA, Manila, Philippines, and we had our first hugs.
In retrospect, I noticed that the red heart symbolizes Valentine's Day for me; and some coincidences such as, the fiancée that I was really waiting to come in April, 2011 was named Rick but Greg, who was not my fiancée came on the day of the heart...Greg is double "g", Gere is double "e" such coincidences in the names, heat, and in fact a lot more that I had not mentioned here. Coincidences or is my psyche responsible to this? I am now creating collages that could trigger coincidences for the things I wish for. Such coincidence!