A Journey...In my life.
Why does no one listen?
For a long time my parents have been asking me questions and when I reply no one listens. Same things with peers or even sometimes help. Since I was young I have been feeling lonely, left out, or unwanted by the people I love the most. Not to long ago I was sent on a journey to find home. Innocent or guilty. During the begining of the epic event in my life I told myself I would answer the questions I have been asking for so long and fix what was wrong in my life. Whatever it was or who ever. I wasn't sure where to begin or what path I need to take to find what I was looking for, but I am learning what I wanted to know...it's been two almost three years. Like I said no one is listening.
Questions and Problems
As you may have read on another hub I have lived in one place for a long period of time now, not usual. I have gone through growing up and now am at a point of putting what I have learned to the test. I took the friends that left me behind and left me out and put out of my life for good. Yes, I tried rekindling an old flame, but found out that it is better left untouched. Also, I have had a problem with feeling alone with my sibilings when they are right next to me and been working on correctting that in me, them, or all of us. I know were grown ups, but I am big on being a close family. Then there is one of the biggest topics in my life (also family), but not totally. This person has for me caused alot of tension by what she does, who she is, and what she says. I won't name names, but I am hoping that with some work I can fix or find what the problem that has been keeping us away from feeling like family, since she is so hell bent on being close. My mother and father and sibilings have their own opinions and ways of handling this person in their life. Lastly, is my parents and feeling that when giving a right or good answer to their questions it is pushed aside or not fully listened to. Currently also working on :)
Resolving my questions and ending my Journey.
Things may take some more time to come to a final conclusion with this. Speaking with a counsler and mandatorily took a very helpful class ( Anger Management). Three cheers... Graduation. That means, given normal or slightly unnormal anger envoking problems, I handle myself well. I used to set things to the side thinking not that I don't care, but that they will solve by themselves or in time. But, those to feet out my parents door and a frustrated " I'm through", Senting me packing and out to find the truth in my life. Not everything comes in a instant or through a few sessions with a professional, it takes time.