For New Moms: Don’t Get Depressed About Low Milk Supply
I am a new mom, and my daughter is only 3 months old now. From the day of my delivery, I planned to breastfeed my child and prayed to do it smoothly. Bad luck came upon me by the time my daughter was 1 month old and my supply went from few drops to nothing. I thought that is it my daughter and I will not be able to bond properly. I was wrong. I did everything possible to increase my supply from drinking milk every now and then while I am lactose intolerant to eating everything that people suggested might increase my supply.
I cried everyday thinking I’m a failure as a mother and what not. Living with a whole bunch of people in one house drove me more crazy and it still does. Because they have to talk about my low milk supply and honestly, it made me want to sleep forever or run away to a far away land where I can just live in peace with my daughter and husband doing things our way.
I talked to my daughter’s pediatrician and he said to use formula. Hands down it helped me a lot. I stopped being depressed all the time but there was always this feeling of regret that I could just give her whatever is coming out of me but that would have starved my child to death. OBVIOUSLY, I DON’T WANT THAT. So, I started giving her formula. I am happy and so is my daughter. Who said I can’t bond with my daughter just because of that? We are so happy right now. I would do anything to kick depression off my vocabulary list when it comes to taking care of my daughter. I want to be happy around her and not scream in pain because I am struggling to get at least two drops of milk to come out using electric pump.
All you mommies who breastfeed or formula feed or do both, it’s your child you do the best you can to raise them. Nobody is perfect. Do what’s best for your child and you. Do not sit in a corner and cry because you could not be like the way you wanted to be as a new mom. Do not forget your health and well-being in the journey of parenthood. Your baby should be your first priority but remember the second is you. You need to be happy and joyful for your child to feel and understand what it means to be happy and joyful.
© 2019 Sayka Shafrin