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The DNA test.......

Updated on February 20, 2013
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After all this time

The long and short of it

Well, thank God (seriously, thank God) that the DNA test I was waiting for, proved to be what my siblings and I have thought all along, he IS my father and they are my siblings! I'm proud to be the owner of four shiny, new siblings and a wonderful step-mother:)

I cannot tell you or begin to explain the feelings I'm having today. I only found out yesterday afternoon. I called the new mother-in-law and all of my siblings. They are all as happy and overjoyed as I am. But I must say, the difference between knowing something in your heart, really feeling it, and seeing proof on paper, are two very different things. All five of us kids thought we were so tough because we already "knew" we were related. Now that the test results are in, everybody was happy but also emotional, as you could expect. But in a good way. They all made me feel so loved and wanted, it's one of the best feelings I've ever had the fortune to receive in my lifetime!

As I said, it's hard to explain the true feelings i'm feeling today. Yesterday after I read the results, I was in a daze and was not quite sure how to deal with anything. My mind was so jumbled I couldn't think anymore. Believe that! For four weeks prior, my ex and I have been dealing with some issues and we've been becoming more at peace every day. We've been spending our days until he gets into drug treatment, trying to stay sober by driving around and enjoying all the beautiful and majestic wildlife that Minnesota has to offer. We've been talking about our marriage, our kids, our lives in general, etc. And neither of us ever have a problem talking, trust me. But as soon as I received this news, even though I expected it, I was in a zone. As you can imagine, there are many thoughts that would be associated with an issue like this. Although I've dealt with the guilt and resenting my mother for not allowing my father to know about me, there are other things that I haven't been able to deal with, not knowing the truth for sure. Now that I know, I'm feeling these odd feelings. Hard to explain I guess, but I'm a little lackadaisacal still at this point. Will I wake up from a good dream and return to my usual nightmare? No, dreams do come true.

I'm so excited and mesmerized by these details and facts that I really don't know what else to say here. I have so much more that I want to write about, but I can't. I have too many other jumbled thoughts going on to make much sense right now, but I'll be here soon to catch up with everyone.

I love you all for your support! Thank you so much!

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    • MissJamieD profile imageAUTHOR

      MissJamieD 

      9 years ago from Minnes-O-ta

      Feline--Thank you sweetie. Of course there's always more to everyone's life story, but you're right, it's monumental and spectacular too:) thanks hon

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      Feline Prophet 

      9 years ago

      I picked this hub at random from your list MissJamie and I realise there's probably more to this story...but I'm so glad for you. I'm sure this has been a monumental event for you and I wish you all the best! :)

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      missjamied 

      9 years ago

      benji--we did celebrate well, trust me. They are as happy as I am:) Hugs honey.

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      Benji Mester 

      9 years ago from San Diego, California

      Very cool. Congratulations! I can't even imagine what that would be like. I hope you guys celebrated well :)

    • MissJamieD profile imageAUTHOR

      MissJamieD 

      9 years ago from Minnes-O-ta

      thanks Mindless! I have faith that you're right:) Thanks so much. Hugs

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      TheMindlessBrute 

      9 years ago from Orlando,Florida

      Your dreams have only just begun.I am glad to hear about your great news!Thank you for sharing.

    • MissJamieD profile imageAUTHOR

      MissJamieD 

      9 years ago from Minnes-O-ta

      James--yes, it's been an amazing year for me! Thank you so much, I'm happier than I think I've ever been. Hugs

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      James A Watkins 

      9 years ago from Chicago

      Jamie, it looks like your news is all good these days. What a change from last month! I am happy for you. God Bless You!

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      MissJamieD 

      9 years ago from Minnes-O-ta

      Toad--your picture is hideous. Thanks for the support sweetie. Miss ya. Hugs

      Nazi--Thank you so much, I'm the happiest girl on the planet. hugs

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      nazishnasim 

      9 years ago

      Hey Jamie,

      Didn't know about the story but glad to know that it's a happy ending ! *cheers* :D

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      goldentoad 

      9 years ago from Free and running....

      cool news Jamie!

    • MissJamieD profile imageAUTHOR

      MissJamieD 

      9 years ago from Minnes-O-ta

      Paper--lol...thank you hon. But yes I'm still freaking out:) it's a good thing. Hugs

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      Paper Moon 

      9 years ago from In the clouds

      True life stories rock. With your head a buz and sleeping pills, we would expect retarded replies, but I don't see any. :)

    • MissJamieD profile imageAUTHOR

      MissJamieD 

      9 years ago from Minnes-O-ta

      Sorry if my reply sounds retarded...I took two sleeping pills before bed last night and couldn't even see straight when I was writing these...but thank you and I meant everything I said....all of you, thank you a million times! I love HP and all of my friends, life wouldn't be as happy without you!

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      MissJamieD 

      9 years ago from Minnes-O-ta

      Birte--thank you. I do deserve the happiness of what has come. I'ts been a long, hard time coming, to know who my father is and it has physically and mentally changed me for good. it's most amazing feeling. there's much more to the story but you can read my older hubs on the same subject or wait for the new that will come in a few days. Nice to see you Birte.

      To the rest of you--Thank you so much for your support and advice through my last few months of dealing with this subject has been I've been in a dazed state of mind, seriously. I will write more interesting hubs to come, but these are just my true-life stories as they're being played out. Thanks so much for all of your support. thank you!

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      Paper Moon 

      9 years ago from In the clouds

      This must be so wonderful for you. I am happy for you. A whole new world opened up, no wonder your mind was in a zone.

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      Randy Behavior 

      9 years ago from Near the Ocean

      I don't know your back story, but it sounds like this news is happy news..... so high five!

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      advisor4qb 

      9 years ago from On New Footing

      YAY!

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      fortunerep 

      9 years ago from North Carolina

      This is a new starting point for you, I am experiencing the same thing. Life is too short for rage and anger. We have to sometimes condition ourselves to be happy for fear it will go away. Hang in there and enjoy your family. That is really all we have. You are in my prayers.

      dori

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      Ivorwen 

      9 years ago from Hither and Yonder

      I am so happy for you.

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      BirteEdwards 

      9 years ago

      This is truly great news. You being in a maze or haze or daze is only natural.

      LIfe is funny, when we start to take the right steps and begin living in our hearts and in our truth, one good thing after another comes along. I believe this is what is happening in your life. You got yourself out of a bad situation, you started writing and other things, you looked for people that are importants to you, all of this comes from the heart. You deserve your new true family.

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