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The Holidays (Without the ones you love)

Updated on September 1, 2011

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The Holiday Season is upon us once again. For many parents like myself the "Holidays" are mixed with sadness. For us, we have lost children to death or imprisonment. For some unfortunately "both." To lose a child suddenly either way is devastating. I lost my child to imprisonment seven years ago and it has been an uphill battle every since. Like the other parents, I make do during the rest of the year with just a few upsets along the way; but when the Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year trilogy comes about... my heart remains heavy until it is all said and done. It's as if I am waiting to exhale those 62 plus days. Not to ruin the rest of the family Holiday, I go along with the motion. It's an overwhelming experience and it does not get any easier,because it's a loss of life; a waste. You look at families coming together and you wonder what could have been. You grieve. Although, my son is only in prison; he will not be the same. It's somewhat like bringing back the dead...they will not be as they where. It is said that if you bring back the dead, they will return as something dark; not human. Most whom leave those prison walls return as dysfunctional; not able to co-exist among society. When I visit my child in those prison walls, he's always smiling; but his eyes are dark and sad. I know he's full of sadness and remorse for his crime and what he's put the family through; but I also know the darkness in his eyes is from what he's had to endure all these years behind those walls. However, I'm not worried because my son was raised in the church and is no stranger to God. His childhood dream was to become a preacher one day and I know his time in prison is his testimony. We all fall short of the Glory of God and this was the way God spared his life; because he's needed for greater things. I may never celebrate another Holiday with my child and I have accepted that; but it is my prayer that he's released soon enough to celebrate with his sons while they are still young. We have them every weekend and Christmas; but it's sad to see them missing their dad especially this time of the year. Therefore, this is my "Holiday Wish" for all the families that are fortunate enough to have all of your children with you during this special time of the year: " Hold your children, let them know that you are their biggest fan and you love them." God Bless and Season's Greetings to you all.

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When life hands you lemons; make lemonade. Anything stolen isn't as valuable as the things that are paid. Look, leap and love;but above all else give praise to the man above. Silence is golden, silence is kind; it's up to you to read between the lines. When you love, love hard; it's most cherished said, than with a card.

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    • SweetMocha-Monroe profile imageAUTHOR


      7 years ago

      Thank You Jesus, My son has come home and we celebrated our first Holiday "New Years Day 2011". No One Will Never Know How Blessed I Feel Right Now!

    • SweetMocha-Monroe profile imageAUTHOR


      8 years ago

      Thank you for your comment. There is nothing wrong with loving yourself. You have a wonderful spirit. God Bless You.

    • Cleanclover profile image


      8 years ago from Piece of land!

      It might sound strange but i only love myself and my god. He is the provider and i enjoy. That's all i do and miracles do happen in my life. I feel we change with time but we can never fail to exist. This is permanant and this should be every human's core. We simply make relationships so we have something to do on earth. But ultimately the relation with ourselves and with god is the only one that remains till our last breathe.

      Thank you for the hub

    • SweetMocha-Monroe profile imageAUTHOR


      8 years ago

      Thank you so much. I wish you and your family the same. Please give your sister my regards; because the loss of a child is such a excruciating experience. My prayers are with you all this Holiday Season. God Bless.

    • VioletSun profile image


      8 years ago from Oregon/ Name: Marie

      Oh, this made my eyes wet; it is true, Holidays change forever when a son or daughter is no longer with us. No matter how deeply spiritual we may be, the human heart aches for the could have beens, the connection, the tangible touch. I wish for your son to find peace within the prision walls, for his spirit to somehow soar, and I wish for you and your loved ones, continuing strength and grace.

    • SweetMocha-Monroe profile imageAUTHOR


      8 years ago

      Thank You So Much.

    • breakfastpop profile image


      8 years ago

      I am so sorry that you and your family have had to endure such pain. I wish you the best, I really do.


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