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The Story Of Zoe Jane

Updated on February 15, 2014
I am Zoe
I am Zoe


I am

Zoe - Zoe-ee- from the Greek meaning - life

Jane - J (A) - ne - from the Hebrew - meaning - God is gracious

My last name - from the heavenly - meaning - Appointed by the God of the universe, that my life be held in reserve, inseparable from the lives of Alison and Jeffery, who by Gods divine authority, were Pre-selected and made ready by His immeasurable love, until this day, that they and they alone, should receive me unto themselves as their daughter.-

I am Zoe Jane. I am life given by a gracious God and in surrender to His infinite wisdom and His perfect plan for my life, I take you, Alison and Jeffery, to be my mommy and daddy.

In such surrender, I fix my footprint upon your lives as a testament and seal, thereby, executing my predestined claim upon you both. God has ordained that it be so, I am yours today and even unto forever.

I am Zoe Jane and that is all that I know of me. Grandpa will write the rest of the story and color my beginning with what he writes.

There are moments in our lives which come to forever alter who we are and where we go. They are moments that define us, even to ourselves. They ask of us, in a single moment to answer without the luxury of thinking. In those moments, we are introduced to ourselves.

Almost 3 years ago, such a moment came to call upon my life. I received a call at 9:00 in the morning and a social worker from Tacoma Wa. informed me, that my great niece had given birth to a little girl and left custody of the child to my wife and I. At age 64, I do not think or process information as well I did in younger years, but, the implications of fatherhood came to bear upon my senses with the swiftness and acuity that would well, conceal my age. The ensuing pause, left the caller to ask if I was still there. I could not really tell him where I was. I was somewhere in the future, examining the implications of fatherhood at my age. I was trying to process words competing with images of a life suddenly not mine. Images, flashing by with the speed of light and yet, doing so in a single moment that did not move. It simply held me there, frozen, stationary, suspended in "the twilight zone".

"yes, I'm here."

He went on to tell me that the little girl would go to child protective services at 5:00 o'clock, that her mother was, for reasons that do not matter, unable to keep or provide for her. I was informed that the baby was healthy and bi-racial. I was told to bring a car seat, blankets and identification. I was told he needed an answer immediately! I was confronted with an 8 hour window to decide about becoming a father, explaining to my wife that she was about to become a mother, confronted with finding a car seat, finding a dog sitter, changing my appointments for the day and driving 300 miles by 5:00 o"clock.

"Yes I said, we will be there." I had made a decision; In less than a minute, but why I made the decision, is the story of Zoe Jane and who she is today.

Let me visit, for a moment, how an invisible plan unfolded in the lives of others to complete Zoe's coming.

My oldest daughter Ali, and her husband Jeff, had been trying to have a baby but the years refused their prayers. They were going through the expense and disappointments of failed in vitro and moving on to consider the further expense of remaining options.

The previous day, my wife was visiting with my sister, Zoe's Great Grandmother in her office. Something she had never done before. During their visit, my sister received a call informing her that her granddaughter was about to give birth and that she would not be keeping the baby. The following hour gave birth to frenzied chatter, which revolved around how the two of them might persuade me to consider going to get the baby. At the heart of their conspiracy was the thought that perhaps, Jeff and Ali might consider adoption. The craftiness employed by women to bring persuasion upon their husbands requires more thinking than emotion and as yet, these two conspirators had not shed the jubilation of their cascading emotions; after all, they had just become mothers and it would require a bit more time before any thinking dare intrude upon the snactity of holy motherhood. Their delay gave way to the call, which demanded an answer to a question already planted in the soil of conspiracy.

In that one minute, I was spared the burden of thinking. The conspiracy being nurtured in both my wife and sister was seeded somewhere deep inside of me and its growing was independent of all my sense and reason. I saw pictures being imprinted in my mind, played on a screen within my heart. We would get the baby, Ali and Jeff would adopt the baby and none of the million unanswered questions could alter the reality of something that I knew for certain and yet, I could not explain to anyone else how such certainty came to reside in me.

I rushed back into the house and shouted instructions to my wife. At that moment, I did not stop to question her instant compliance. In 42 years of marriage it remains the only demand I have ever uttered which was free of the requisite explanation my wife would usually insist upon.

As we prepared to leave, I made a call to Ali in Chicago. " Hi honey, I need you to listen very carefully. Mom and I are leaving for Tacoma to pick up a baby born last night to your 2nd cousin. She can not keep the baby. She has left custody to mom and I. I wanted to let you know, that if you and Jeff are interested in adoption, this might be the perfect opportunity. Why don't you talk and get back to me. The baby is healthy and bi racial. I have to go." The empty pause which followed, prompted the customary, "hello, are you still there?" Ali's heart had been prepared with the speed of light, held by a moment that would not move and from that moment, she simply looked upon the blooming of a flower already pre planted in her heart.

Like her mother, however, she too was formulating the conspiracy which would bring persuasion to bear upon another unsuspecting husband. It was a hopeless cause for Jeff. His heart had been pre prepared. Like the rest of us, he was simply a vessel sailing under a wind that had already decided his course.

We returned home with 1 day old Zoe Jane, but, the house that was a home had been converted into a nursery, thanks to Auntie Em and friends. We kept Zoe for a month, awaiting Ali, Jeff and and all the appropriate consents necessary for them to take her home to Chicago. During that time Grandma was mommy and it was evident, all too soon, that her heart might break in too many pieces when letting Zoe go. Again, the splendor of a greater plan unfolded in a heart already prepared to let her go and she lay the crown of mommy at her daughters feet. She wears today the glorious crown, bathed in the heart of her own surrender and illuminated by a smile that whispers, " I am Zoe's Grandmother."

The name Zoe was suggested during our road trip to Tacoma, via a barrage of cell phone conversations with Auntie Em. Or was it really? After naming her, we looked at the meaning of her name and saw that Auntie Em was simply another vessel powered by a wind commissioned to bring her home.

Others will read and never see the genesis of her coming. They will read of her journey and fail to see a conspiracy woven together in higher places. It doesn't matter, We can see His fingerprints all about her. We heard the whisper that went before her, softly calling in every one of us. What else does one say to heaven? "Yes".

And this is them - my mommy and daddy
And this is them - my mommy and daddy
This is me with my happy face!
This is me with my happy face!

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      Sreerag 2 years ago

      Seriously Stacee Beautiful! You are soooo talented and Zoe is so lucky to have you in her life, not only dmunoecting her life, but pouring into, and blessing it as well!

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      Kostya 2 years ago

      Oh.my.gosh. Just when I think your pictures canont GET more brilliant, you go and produce something like THIS?!?!?!?!?!?!? AMAZING!!!! I love them so much! I canont stop looking at the closed-eyed laugh .SOOOOOO cute!!!

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      arb 4 years ago from oregon

      Hello Theresa. I so apologize for being absent. Upon our return from Ceci's my daughters mother in law arrived for two weeks and 4 days later my mother for two weeks. A lot of get togethers and I have squeezed in some golf as we have finally received a dose of spring. Zoe will be 2 years old in 3 weeks and I would like to write a sequel. Her two year impact on the family and as a record of (with the first write) a history of her coming and early childhood. If I can remain faithful I would do her first 10 years and then print it all together and give it to her. Miss you greatly and I would commit to more but leaving for Southern Cal in 10 days for another weeks. This trip is a vacation though. Talk soon and God Bless!

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      arb 4 years ago from oregon

      Hello Krisl! Thanks so much for reading, for your prayers and for the kind comment. We will celebrate Zoe's 2 year birthdate next month and she is the families blessing. Beautiful, smart and a mind of her own. I hope to write a sequel for her birthday and record her last two years.

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      Theresa Ast 4 years ago from Atlanta, Georgia

      Alan - I have read this wonderful story on three separate occasions and like Nellieanna and others, wept happy tears while reading it. The first two times I was called away and never wrote anything.

      Such a beautiful and timely miracle. God is a God of provision and protection, and great joy and when our hearts move swiftly to obey and fulfill His promptings, the joy is all the greater.

      It strikes me that the many months gestation oeiod before you wrote

      this was both necessary and beneficial. A more prefect testament to mercy and gratitude and love and family could not have been written. Blessings. Theresa

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      KrisL 4 years ago from S. Florida

      I cried. Zoe has got to be the cutest baby I have ever seen.

      I'm praying right now for all of you, expecially Zoe's parents and grandparents, and her birth mother, who I hope will be able to turn her life around become someone Zoe can be proud to meet someday.

      Voted "awesome" and shared.

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      arb 4 years ago from oregon

      Hello Paula. Thank you for so gracious a comment. As heartwarming as the story may be, her unfolding story upon our lives defies description. She is truly a light that cast a shadow even to the sun.

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      Paula 4 years ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

      arb.....this is surely the most heartwarming and glorious story I've read in a very long time.......I smiled, I cried, I sighed. What a little darling, your Angel Zoe Jane is....and what a blessing she has received in all of you....A miracle...........This lifted me up!....UP+++

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      arb 4 years ago from oregon

      Lil Ms KnowitAll, So thankful for your read and the kind comment.

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      Lil Ms KnowItAll 4 years ago

      Such a beautiful tale of how a baby was united with her God Given mom, dad, grammy & papa =)....She's looks so sweet and beautiful, thank you for sharing this journey to Love with us. I got goosebumps when I read this story and teary eyed too. You guys are blessed to have such a little gem on your hands.

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      Thank you Justsilvie, it is a story that just keeps getting better!

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      Justsilvie 5 years ago

      A beautiful story with a lovely happy ending. Thank you for sharing it.

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      It has been written, framed and hung upon her wall. Thanks for reading this Jaye.

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      Jaye Denman 5 years ago from Deep South, USA

      The adorable photo of Zoe Jane with the promise of her story (and what a marvelous story it is, too!) on your Chapter 16 of The Journey sent me here to find it. I'm so glad I read the narrative of the amazing event that brought your family this delightful, precious little girl.

      Her love (and happy face) brighten the hearts of, not only her pre-selected parents, but an entire family! I think you should print this hub and frame it for Zoe to have when she's older, so she will have her story (from Grandpa) as evidence of how cherished she is by so many--from the very beginning of her life. (I have a feeling she will be shown this in every way possible as she grows up, but a girl likes to have it in writing, too.)

      Thanks for sharing "The Story of Zoe Jane."

      Jaye

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      QudsiaP1 5 years ago

      Such a darling!!

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      Thank you one more time lisa. Wow! 3 back to back visits. I hope your not sleep hub hopping

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      lisa 5 years ago

      wow! totally awesome story!

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      Hello Adrienne, What a lovely surprise and thank you for a very gracious comment. I pray His blessings rain upon you and all of yours.

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      Adrienne Smith 5 years ago

      I worked with Jeff at Coors and I am so happy to see he and his beautiful family so blessed with an amazing little girl. May God watch over your family always!

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      Nellieanna Hay 5 years ago from TEXAS

      Smiles. . . .

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      Well butterfly, you happened into my garden as I was tip toeing through yours so i will simply return and finish what I was doing.

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      Nellieanna Hay 5 years ago from TEXAS

      This is W-I-E-R-D. My comment hadn't posted after enough time had passed for it to have down so. So I reposted it. Result? Another dulplication. I will just tiptoe out quietly, hoping this one stands alone, so you'll know that wasn't some deliberate foolishness.

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      Nellieanna Hay 5 years ago from TEXAS

      hahahaha!

      (Those aren't identical duplicates! Mine were! Whole different thing!) hahahaha!

      Thank you for deleting mine! Please leave yours. ;-)

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      Nellieanna Hay 5 years ago from TEXAS

      hahahaha!

      (Those aren't identical duplicates! Mine were! Whole different thing!) hahahaha!

      Thank you for deleting mine. Please leave yours. :-)

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      Yes Dear! (:

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      Yes dear!(:

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      Nellieanna Hay 5 years ago from TEXAS

      ohgoodgrief. It's a dumb dupliication - you'd be doing me a favor. :-)

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      I could never delete one of your post. I print them out and frame them.(:

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      Nellieanna Hay 5 years ago from TEXAS

      First - please delete the duplicate of my post which got posted. Today I'm tangling with either HP or my computer as I don't see that my comments have posted or then find they double-dipped. I'd appreciate it.

      I can imagine your innards chuckling, though it seems clear that you prefer to be reassuring.

      Yes I do have many stories of my wonderful progeny. I'd love to be able to assert that they value my poetry. Maybe posthumously. I'm still reveling in their appreciating ME. :-) It's a bumpy story in itself and is in many of my poems, actually.

      Thank you - -

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      Hello cat, It is, at all times, about His grace. I am so happy to learn of your adopted treasure and how this read must have warmed your day. I pray His love rain upon your family in ways unimagined. Be well my friend.

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      Hello butterfy! You are right; Many have come to meet Zoe and many who relate to trials of adoption and invitro. I have never written anything on hub before that garnished so many reads in a single day and it is just continuing.

      I've quietly pretended to be maneuvered for many years. Her illusion of success brings a chuckle to my innards! My, Nellieanna, you must have stories galore in great grandchildren, grandchildren and children. I think of the poems that you will leave to them. A treasure they will never spend. I hope that they read even now and that you are revealed all the more to each of them. I will return as promised to your beautiful work of this morning.

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      Catherine Tally 5 years ago from Los Angeles

      Arb, Your story made me weep happy tears of joy! I am always greatly moved by God's grace and how He orchestrates things in our lives. Your swift move into action to take this baby without hesitation, the "feminine conspiracy", and the way this special child has filled your family's hearts, hopes, and dreams is a testament to your faith and its fulfillment. I'm so happy for all of you! I consider my own adoption and the arrival of my own miracle baby against all odds to be my greatest blessings, so this really hits home. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story of Zoe Jane.

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      Nellieanna Hay 5 years ago from TEXAS

      Your 11 months of gestation produced a wondrous story of the lives it shares with us ,- to admire, appreciate and love. I suspect Zoe Jane has many Hubber adoptive parents from having met her here. (She writes well, too for such a little person!) Thank you, Alan.

      BTW - With each reading, I burst into raucous laughter, which merely enhances the joyous tears when reading your account telling of/ about the 'conspiracy" maneuvers of the gals to be sure of agreement from among the husbands, whose parts in it were so vital, and without which - from the 5 o'clock initial deadline - Zoe might be in some unknown place, certainly not the joyful home and family that are now hers.

      Aren't you glad ya'll are well-enough 'trained' to be maneuvered without needing a bunch of cerebral deliberation time in order to respond and fulfill your parts in such a plan? I'm sure Zoe is - or will be when she's old enough to know what a loving conspiracy brought her into your family fold. Without the wonderful hearts involved, no one would have fulfilled his or her vital part in it. It's totally inspiring. I simply had to flutter back & absorb it again. Still some moisture in my eyes, but more transparent.

      And what a darling little doll Zoe is - and with beautiful parents! They all bring a joy to my eyes! :-)

      I started to tell you about my own 3 biracial great grandchildren and the joy they bring; - but I don't want to distract a moment from Zoe's story on here

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      Hi Karen! Miss you all very much. Thanks so much for leaving your visit in the comments. It is our blessing that you have read Zoe's story. Tell Joe hello for me. hope things are well.

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      Karen Johnson 5 years ago

      I've been seeing Ali's pictures on facebook, seeing all the love and devotion, but never understood how Zoe's life came to be connected with you all. Now I know. What a miracle of grace. How wonderful. What a beautiful story you have told today, arb--one that does the miracle justice. Happiness to you all, and especially that precious little girl who has changed all of your lives forever.

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      thanks for visiting lisa and for your gracious comment.

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      lisa 5 years ago

      absolutely stunning, your writing flows like poetry and the story,brought tears to my eyes. thank you for telling it.

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      Thank you for reading Michelle and for leaving a comment. Face book affords us immeasurable blessing, much of which, we will measures many years from now.

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      Michelle 5 years ago

      Alan that is a beautiful true story. I wish I could have met her while she was still here in Bend but fortunately I'm able to see her grow through pictures on facebook.

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      Thank you Jane. I am pleased that it has touched us all. It was too special a story to not be revealed in such a way. God bless.

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      Hello faithful butterfly! A story I've wanted to tell for the past 11 months,but,it required of me something special and regardless of my wanting, I did not know where to begin until today. I am fond of where it went and I am delighted that you have been touched by it. It tells me, that I have told her story as I have wanted.

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      Jane Billingsley 5 years ago

      What a spectacular story on the life of our precious Zoe Jane. Thank you, Alan, for your beautiful tribute to all involved. Needs to be on page one of her scrapbook.

      Love, Nana to Zoe Jane

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      Nellieanna Hay 5 years ago from TEXAS

      oh you've done it again and here am I soaked in tears once again - good tears but from a deep wellsprng

      I've never heard a more beautiful story more beautifully told.

      I can say no more right now

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      arb 5 years ago from oregon

      Thank you Brie! That one whose writing I so admire, should say that it is beautiful, gives wings to what I leave for Zoe. When one wants to write something truly special, you struggle with "is it really special". Thank you for lending a needed affirmation.

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      Brie Hoffman 5 years ago from Manhattan

      What a beautiful story!