Shh! I Think I Miss You
I lie in bed and toss and turn. My baby is fighting his sleep, and all I can think about is you.
I hate to admit it but I miss you. The thoughts of you make me happy. Sure we visit once in awhile but this baby is keeping me from you. I pretend I do not want you when I am with my husband. But, no matter what we do. I desire you even more.
Why can't you have me? Every time we get a small little chance, something goes wrong. My 3 year old tells on me when I start to lean on you or my son will scream when I fall deeper into your spell. How does he know when to wake and cry?
I do not think I can hide this any longer. Not from my husband and not to anyone else. You make me a better person, you honestly do. Do believe my children and my husband would be happier if you and I had more time together. Can you not see that I love you.
Oh precious sleep. I desperately need you more than ever.