Bellawriter23, I can't hide my tears. I was told when I was young not to cry or show emotions, that it would make me stronger. What a load of crap! A strong person shows how he feels, and isn't affraid to cry. Children have to know if Mommy or Daddy cry it's ok for them to cry and show how they feel. Hiding your feelings only end up hurting you in the end. Your kids love you and care how you are doing, just as you care for them. Thats part of unconditional love. Hang in there.