my young momma story
My young parent story
I was 18 when I met my sons father; we met when I subbed in on my old cheerleading team to help teach new comers how to partner stunt. It was less than a year after we met that we bought an apartment together, and only a few short months later we found out we were going to be parents.
I spent 8 months feeling miserable because I would spend the majority of my days throwing up or in bed tired from previous vomiting episode. I went from being on diclection, to metroclopramide, to ondansetron which only worked on the good days, the bad days nothing worked. I remember times where I must have been deliriously dehydrated from hours of vomiting.
My sons father and I struggle with balancing school, and our sons appointments, we struggle financially almost every month, we don't have an apartment, or a house, we have my mom's home. Dont get me wrong, I love my mom, and I love the house, I just feel that it's not mine, and that I could be doing better for everyone, but when I have my career I will be able to be more independent and I know that. I am so grateful to be able to live here and share some of the everyday house responsibilities, and the extra set of eyes sometimes.
We struggle to maintain a relationship that is healthy for the both of us; It's hard to feel a connection when we see eachother so often all the time, some times its 24 hours 7 days a week. And I am the type of person who really treasures alone time, it's almost claustrophobic to be with someone 24 hours 7 days a week.
With being a young mom there has been so many lessons, and having to grow up in so many different ways; I am soon turning 22 and I can't help but feel sometimes that I've missed out on certain things, that my friends are out living lives and traveling, going to parties, and doing what they want to do and I am at home changing diapers. I love my son more than anything, but things would have been a lot easier if I hadn't gotten pregnant; even so, I wouldn't change having him for anything in the world.