The Change that is Most Challenging for me to Accept
Going from 60-70 hour work week to having as much free time as I want
Earlier I wrote an article on change and my acceptance of most changes. One of the changes I didn’t mention that I am trying to get used to is going from a very active 12-13 hour on my feet all day day. And if I wasn’t on my feet all day I was in my office working on my salary, action or business plan. People used to tease me that I needed one of those ticket machines outside my office door for them to take a number. Sometimes it was so bad that I would have to sneak in early to try to get a few things done before there was a barrage of people outside of my door and if I wasn’t out on the selling floor there was always the phone where another Store Manager would be calling me to ask me questions on one thing or another.
This was a typical work day for me as a Store Manager in a big box retailer and I worked 5 to 6 days per week. By the time I would get home at the end of the night or the end of the week I was usually so tapped out that I really just wanted some quite time to just relax before I had to start all over again. That is if I didn’t bring home work to do at home.
When I was first severed from my job I really didn’t notice the dramatic change in my day because I was in the process of healing, grief and humiliation. Now months later I am just now starting to realize how much time I have to do with what I want to do. It is very strange to me. It has been over 25 years since I had the choice of what I got to do during my day.
The next chapter
So now I begin the next chapter of my life and figuring out where that will lead me. I have found that there is so many things that I now am able to do that I haven’t been able to do in so many years. The problem with this is I tend to be a person that is all in or I don’t do it. In the retail world I was taught to do everything as big as possible. Meaning if there was a particular item on sale, my job was to lead my team to ensure that that item was not only inviting to the customer visually but that there was a representation of every size and color and they also needed a plan “B” for when we sold down on that item. How would they ensure that we didn’t miss one sale?
Finding the patience
So I now find myself not having the patience to wait until I have the means to do the things I want. And I feel that I am all over the place. If you follow my writing, have read my bio or know anything about me you probably already know about my passion for photography and writing. While there really is no cost involved in writing there can be in photography. Like I said I am an all in type of person. My camera was a gift from my husband for my birthday. He also bought me two lenses to go with it. In most cases this should be all I need. But in my all in philosophy I want a bigger telephoto lens. I get so frustrated at times when I am out taking photos and I can’t pull my subject in close enough to get the shot I want. I also would like to sell my prints online, at fairs and craft shows. I have seen many people do this and do well at it. Plus this would give me an avenue to be out around people again. But that too takes money. Granted to get a couple of prints enlarged is not much and neither is matting. But if you want to have enough on hand to sell it is an investment. And of course you have to think about fair or booth rental fees and how you are going to display your work.
So I continue to take photos and am currently working on my website to get that up and running. And as I build that hopefully that will start to bring in some income that I can use to reinvest into my stock photos.
One of my other interests is refinishing furniture. I was fortunate enough to stumble upon a couple of early 1900 wooden rockers that I will begin working on this week. Refinishing furniture can be quite an expense too. But for these two rockers I think I will be able to get by with sanding them and re staining them. So there won’t be much cost involved. The problem with this hobby is that everything I refinish I want to keep. So far I paid $50 for each rocker but I think they will be worth so much more when they are finished. That is of course, if I were to sell them.
I also have two dressers that we purchased that I am refinishing for our bedrooms. The one I will have to strip. The other I will just need to give it a good sanding. We paid $48.00 for each dresser from the Habitat for Humanity. They both look pretty old and I would say the one is an antique. And again, I think I could at least double or triple my money again if I were to sell them.
And then there is interior design. I love to paint and redecorate. Last summer my husband and I bought a second home on Lake Huron. This was supposed to be my place to go to get away from it all. We bought it not only because it was on the lake but also because it was just a little over 5 miles to my work. What we didn’t know then was that I would lose my job just 7months later. We have now made the decision to make the Lake home our main home. And though we haven’t made the decision to sell our other home we have decided to close it up for the winter months. We are kind of in a situation of waiting until the economy is better for real estate before we sell. The lake home was built in 1925 so I started this spring with painting my living room. I have plans for our main bath, dining room and master bedroom. But of course this too takes money. I still have the trim to finish on my living room. Plus I need to paint the front, side and garage doors and the trim.
This is one of the changes I am really struggling with embracing. I now have the time to finally do the things I love in life but now I don’t have the income to do them the way I feel I could do them best. While before I had the money to do what I wanted but with the hours I worked and the stress that came with it I never could because I didn’t have the time nor the fortitude to do them.
So now for me it is about finding a balance between my aspirations and supporting those aspirations financially. I have never had the good fortune of patience as a virtue. But I am working on it.