A Personal, New Moment
I know, I know, there wasn't too much stock to be putting in the End of the World to begin with. But I just had that tiny little inkling that maybe - just maybe, the Mayans were right.
I planned my work schedule the following day and week, created social plans, and bought groceries like I would any other day, but all the while I kept having the nagging thought of "what should I stock up on - just in case?"
What I'm Thankful For
I know this is something that is traditionally spoken about during Thanksgiving, but why not ponder it when You reach the end of the world, and survive it?
I am thankful for...
- My upbringing. I was lucky enough to be raised in a liberal environment which didn't feel the need to train me by any specific religious or political stand points, but to encourage my learning and thinking for myself. I had two parents which came from similar, yet completely different backgrounds. This allowed me to gain a more wordly view of my world and the public world, being half raised in the UK and half raised in the US.
My upbringing has allowed me to explore and pursue my creative side, and has supported my creative endeavors.
My mother has been extremely supportive in everything I do. She has instilled trust enough in me to believe that I don't go into my decisions lightly, and I truly am doing what I think is best for me, when I make big decisions.
- I"m grateful for the work knowledge I have acquired. I don't just mean the skills I have learned during my employment that one might go to school for, but the deeper learning. I currently work as a Direct Support Professional, working with adults with developmental disabilities. I went into this work because I was having troubles finding a job, and I had a friend in the field. It was only meant to be temporary, just until I was able to find something else. That was nearly three and a half years ago. I am trained to respond to emergent situations - as much as I can without having any form of medical education (though I have obtained through my employment my Registered Nursing Assist certification, and can now give injections in my state).
However, the things I have learned include patients, understanding, problem solving on a deeper level. I have learned not just to solve the apparent problem, but how to look at the under lying issues which might go deeper than just a few layers. I have learned things about myself, about the way people function - every one. I have learned new gifts of communication, and I have learned different means of communication.
There have been a great many lessons which I have learned, which I cannot express in words, but can only hope that every one gets the same opportunities to learn these lessons that I have. And not all opportunities have to be negative, mind you.
- I am thankful for the evolution of my writing. When I left high school, though I didn't want to be restricted by formats, I was very stuck in my own way of writing and unwilling to break away from it. I stayed with this for many years, until one day I decided I needed to get my writing seen, and to do that I might have to come up with many different styles to appease a variety of people. Since then I have begun writing articles, writing the same story but told in a completely different manner, opened myself up to different genres of literature so that I might expand. I am grateful for these opportunities to grow in my writing.
Goals to Meet in the Future
Every one has goals. But I feel like I should have a more rounded set of goals, given that it is the beginning of a New Era. I have had the first third of my life - hopefully quarter! - and now it is time to set the goals for the next section of my timeline.
- Finish the Trilogy I have been working on. So far, I have completed the first book, and am half way through the second one. But each of them have taken at least five years each to get as far as I have, and I would hope I could complete the series by the time I am 30 (that's four years!). Along the lines of writing, I also hope to have completed another novel I have been working on for far too long as it is, and complete a couple other ideas as well.
- I hope to expand the company I have been adopted into, make it something to be proud of, not that it isn't already. I have been adopted into a video production company, Think Piece Productions. It has been a learning experience, as I have gone into it not knowing anything about video productions, but more along the lines of advertisement. However, withing a few short months I have learned about filming and video editing, screen plays and more. In this company's first year, it has become known between British Columbia and Seattle, and even a select few have been involved as far south as Portland, and the company has hardly touched into debt. I hope to be with this company for a while, and to see it's fullest potential.
- Always continue learning. I have an on-going fear that I will forget to continue on with this project. It is sometimes so easy to just get lulled into the monotony of every day life, and turn on the TV for mindless entertainment, instead of looking for it in books. I am worried that I will be too tired to read in general, and that it will become a lost habit.
- Back pack through Asia. I have a goal to wander through China, India, Vietnam, and Thailand. I would make it a spiritual journey, a time of self reflection as well as a means of learning about the world. I hold travelling as a high priority in regards to my personal evolution.
- Always be kind. I feel as though as I grow older, I become less understanding and more cranky. I worry that I am not the kind person I was once told I am, and that I am more one-sided in my sights. I hope to be able to recapture my ability to be fair to each side of an argument, even if it means I lose a dispute or not.
- Volunteer my time. I feel like it is so easy to get lost in life that I do forget to do the good I once wanted to do in the world. I want to be a part of a garbage pick-up crew, arrange an environmental or human rights rally - do something to get involved and do some good in the world. I want to do as Gandhi advised, to be the change I wish to see in the world. And what's more, I want to encourage others to do the same.
- I wish to lead a more healthy life style. I"m fairly healthy as it is, but I would like to be more physically active, have a more regular sleep schedule (which may not be possible with both my current work and working for Think Piece Productions), and eating healthier foods - especially juicing more. This also includes doing yoga, meditation, and spiritual practices which allows me more inner understanding of myself and my perception of the Universe.
- Do things which get me out of my realm of comfort. This is how one grows as an individual. That is my greatest goal of all.