- Death & Loss of Life
A walk for a cause
Out of the Darkness walk
Out of the Darkness
I always feel a need to challenge myself for good reason and to push my physical and mental limits of endurance to some degree. I always hoped it would have been in running a marathon as I was a runner one time in my life, a very long time ago. As I get older and experience life on more realistic terms I have to allow for compromise and pursue challenges that are more within my physical capabilities.
Sometimes we feel we have a need or that we are drawn to accomplishing something that is worthwhile and has meaning to us. We are looking for a challenge that will make us feel we are doing something noble that is very important and has a positive influence that will enable us to give back in some way. I feel this way about the Out of the Darkness walk that is taking place in New York City on Saturday, June 4th through Sunday, June 5th, 2011 which is an event that will bring many together to walk in unison, in numbers and for a cause that is centered around giving a face and a real understanding of depression which ultimately can lead to suicide. It is essential to shed light on suicide prevention awareness and bring it front and center and take away the stigma of this very real crisis many face today.
Many of the participants are personally affected in some way by suicide or depression and feel a connection and a bond to the event and wish to share their experiences with others who are going through the same feelings. It is a real emotional event that will have a profound effect on all who participate and it will help all the participants in the healing process as they walk the 18 miles from the evening hours until the early morning and raise funds in the process that goes to the campaign of raising awareness for suicide prevention. It is literally walking out of the darkness which is symbolic and has real meaning to the cause.
I have been touched by many people in my life and I have felt a real sense of loss upon their passing. Words sometimes can not express the true hurt we feel and the void we experience when we lose someone close to us. Everyone goes through it and it is never easy. The pain we feel is magnified when the loss is attributed to suicide. We have a real difficult time coping with it and will feel an overwhelming sense of despair and hopelessness as we try to come to terms with it. There are so many unanswered questions and we all will feel as if we failed in trying to help the person. It is very tragic and all are deeply affected by it.
One of the hardest things we will have to learn to deal with as we encounter life's many challenges is our feelings and emotions. Sometimes we will feel happy and other times we will feel sad and that is a normal part of life. We need to have a healthy balance and must always try to remain positive and focused. Sometimes when we feel prolonged periods of sadness we may start to become despondent, apathetic and show very real signs of depression. Depression is a very serious matter and there are no miracle cures but it is essential that we recognize it and that we seek treatment for it before it becomes debilitating.
When we are feeling depressed we usually do not like to seek the company of others but that is the worst thing we can do is to try and face it alone. We should never feel we are alone when we are dealing with depression. We must try to find someone to talk to and express how we feel so we can try and cope with it. We also need to seek medical help when we feel depressed for an extended period of time. Depression does not discriminate as it affects all of us at different stages in our lives and we must take responsibilty for finding the help we need.
I am doing the walk for many reasons as I feel it is important to participate and to find a way to come to terms with the loss of both my parents who were my heroes. I loved them both so very much and they were truly wonderful to me and they provided me with everything I could ever want in life. I lost my mother to depression and I lost my father to depression and eventually suicide. I was devastated and still feel the sorrow and loss which will never go away. I do have a family of my own and they give me strength and make me realize how special life is and how important it is to be here for our children. My son gives me great joy and I feel my life is so much more fullfilling with him in my life. I just hope I can provide my son with all the support, encouragement and nurturing he needs to find the confidence and self esteem he needs to bring out his best and shine.
I am truly very lucky and I will do my best to be a loving husband and a caring and devoted father. I will try my best to always weather the storms of life and maintain a positive outlook so we can show our son the way that will lead him to finding happiness and meaning in his life.
Edward D. Iannielli III