AUTHOR LEE DURMAJ CANCER SURVIVOR WITHOUT RADIATION -PART TWO
DECISION MAKING TIME
A Survivor after being diagnosed with Uterus and Ovarian Cancer
It was my decision not to have Chemotherapy or Radiation. [Part2]
I have seen my dear family and friends die from cancer, far too many, believe me. YES I do ask why not me. There is no easy answer, I wish there was. When I was asked to write about this and the choices I made, I didn’t realize how hard it was going to be to put into words what it is that has allowed me to live when others have died. I should not be here, the possibility of three years was all I was given and only if I underwent treatment such as Chemotherapy or radiation. I had five weeks to decide what I was going to do. My decision had to be made by the time I had my post operative visit with my Specialist. It was never going to be an option for me to have any treatment. I had seen too many people die following treatments. My brother had Chemotherapy; I nursed him until his last breath. My friends whose cancer returned with a vengeance after remission, each time worse than before, I watched in horror as they slowly died. Their bodies destroyed.
Please remember these are my thoughts only, medical science will say there is no basis for my decision. I cannot recommend to anyone to choose what I chose. All I am doing is writing what I have been through and what decisions I made when I was diagnosed with cancer.
Just before being discharged my Specialist came to see me to tell me that the large mass that was first detected was only fatty tissue, no cancer cells were found. My lymph glands were all clear, it was decided before the surgery not to remove them because I was a diabetic and my life would not be worth living if they were removed. Providing they were cancer free. Removing them would impair my circulation in my legs. I had already experienced problems with circulation, I use to get blood clots regularly and I also had Deep Vein Thrombosis twice. All this did improve after I had surgery for varicose veins in 1984.
I asked my Specialist if I could have a copy of the pathology report, I needed to read all the results, he agreed. He told me I could ask any questions I needed explanations to. The Oncologist came to visit me the day before my discharge, we had a chat and I told him I was not in favour of any treatments. He insisted I should have what he was suggesting. I am sure he thought my decision not to have treatment was ridiculous to say the least. I kept insisting I was going to be alright, he disagreed strongly, we were going around in circles so in the end I told him to give me his card, write the treatment he was going to do on the back and I will call him if I need him.
To be continued
By Leokadia Durmaj
Copyright © 23rdAugust 2011