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Advantage of Invisible Thoughts
Sinning Is Being Human
If I am not mistaken, it was Jesus who said something along these lines : "Our conscience makes cowards of most of us." Like anything else in the Bible, it's a subject to interpretation, and to me it means that our unconscious moralistic censorship with its selectively prohibitive nature keeps sabotaging the free flow of our mind's creativity.
In other words we internally keep spying on how "clean" and appropriate is our thinking. Why do we do it? Because we are by nature prone to "sinning", and we have to stop thoughts which might lead us to it.
We are not perfect, and our spontaneous immoral inclinations are a big part of that imperfection. Most of that is unconscious, and even if it reaches our consciousness, we promptly pretend that it's not there. Of course, it takes a lot of sincerity to admit it, but again, how can we admit it if we are not even aware of it.
Visible to Censor - Must Be Visible to Others
Let's face it - what is not ours is sweeter. So, over the course of our early upbringing and young adulthood we instill into our automatic nature this censor, we call it conscience, the job of which is to follow those moral norms.
But it doesn't stay at that, as it spreads its field of action over all our thinking, sorting out that which is "inappropriate". That censor, my friends - if we don't minimize its activity - keeps us at all times in a slight state of guilt.
Moreover, since it represents the "voice of social morality", it gives us a notion that our thoughts are visible to others - just because they are visible to the others' moral standards in our head. You see what I mean - we mix those outside who can see us with "those" inside our head.
You are not aware of it, not until you see a person looking away when she has some negative thoughts about you on her mind. She unconsciously believes that you can detect her thoughts from her eyes.
Jammed Up for Checking
I you have ever crossed a border in your car, you know what the customs checkpoint does to the traffic. The same is true in the traffic of our thoughts. No matter what we are thinking it goes through screening of our sense of the appropriate.
When folks reach a certain advanced age, that unconscious routine is so pronounced that it affects their memory. At the very onset of a thought their overcautious mind has to check it out, interrupting the associative flow from the memory bank.
That's why you hear them repeat themselves, keep saying the same thing in different ways, or they are searching for the right word. Their thinking can't jump out of the groove. We don't want to reach that state, so we might as well do all we can to loosen down that censor - by thinking those invisible thoughts.
Once we get it on our gut level that our thoughts are really invisible and that we have an infinite freedom to think inappropriate thoughts of any kind, we gain a brand new sense of mind's uninhibited fluidity.
So, as you are looking at your fat boss right in the eye, why not imagine him in a polka dot pyjamas. The wave of freedom will follow right after you have realized that no thunderbolts are striking you for having those thoughts.
The simple rule of the thumb would be - as long as we are not acting such inappropriate thoughts out in a hurting way, it doesn't really matter how inappropriate they are. Thinking them helps us to loosen down the stranglehold of that censor that in Jesus's words "makes cowards of all of us".
"They Must See My Fear"
It's all about this learned routine to question the validity of our thoughts and attitudes, out of a fear that "they can see them in us". Look what happens during a stage fright. If we thought that our fear over performance was just our "secret", it wouldn't give us any problem.
But instead, we have that feeling as if they all can see how "unprepared" we feel, it "must be written all over our faces, and we are just embarrassing ourselves there". That exaggerated censorship instantly blocks our thinking process.
Something similar happens while we are applying for a job and we are all tense, thinking that the interviewer sees how we are feeling like losers - so we get so blocked that we suddenly can't remember our own telephone number when asked.
Self-Consciousness and Bloopers
Such episode of trigger-happy censorship, also known as self-consciousness may give us a mind blockage in brief spikes as well. A typical example would be when it turns an otherwise smooth going into a blooper.
For the life in us we can't tell what made us say that. It's like the needle of a turntable jumping to the next song. Of course, those bloopers may be laughable and quite entertaining when seen on TV, but we don't really feel like laughing when it happens to us.
It's much more of an embarrassment experience, as we blurt out something totally irrelevant. It's bound to make even more trigger-happy our inner censor, so that the next time we could "lose the thread of thought" in the middle of telling a joke.
Think Something Inappropriate
All right, so how do we make those imaginary-visible thoughts invisible? We could actually practice something to that effect. The goal would be to convince our unconscious that even those most "inappropriate" thoughts don't get us in any trouble.
Again, of course, as long as we don't act them out. So, even though you consciously know that no one can possibly see what you are thinking, you've got to convince your unconscious that this is so.
You know that your unconscious has - or is a mind of its own, and you need to do it many times before you start feeling that enormous relief and freedom in your mind. Think of something really inappropriate and then notice how nothing other than your irrational guilt happens as a result.
Ugly and Stupid
Pick a person at a job, and while she is telling you something, relax your eyes on her face and think : "You are so stupid and ugly". Then notice how that person is not showing a slightest sign that she saw what you just thought.
Observe your feelings as you first do it, and notice that wave of guilt. "How could I?" Well, ignore it, and do it some time again with someone else. Notice how every time it's more fun and less of a guilt trip.
At one point you are bound to come to this jolly realization that you are actually just playing with your mind, and allowing it to do something out of its routine. Your thoughts will be less and less "visible" by that bunch of moral authorities in your head - even though the conscious-you will be perfectly aware of them, and know that the person is not really "ugly and stupid".
Nothing "Immoral" about It
Now, if you are one of those people with a pronounced sense of "moral principles", you may be concerned about your "personal integrity", or being true to your values. It may be the time to start realizing that nothing creative ever came out of thinking "in accordance with our mental status quo".
We ought to jump out of that groove. And while I am not suggesting that you abandon your moral principles and beliefs by secretly calling people "ugly and stupid" - it's completely innocent in the context of liberating the mind's flow.
We have to be aware "why" we are doing it. Having fun with this practice is a must. The moment we take it seriously, we have slipped back into the judgemental mode of our censor.
For a Free Creative and Improvising Expression
The next time you are watching the TV news, "have the nerve" to think : "There is something funny about this murder". Or see a presidential candidate sitting on the toilet seat and constipating. Or see the Pope in his swimming suit.
Make it as inappropriate as you can, and don't judge it. Just know that it's a "drill" of loosening your censor, and nothing is punishing you for having such thoughts. By practicing these invisible thoughts, we make loose those inner brakes which thwart anything that doesn't belong to our mental status quo.
This way we are opening some new neural pathways in our brain resulting with a new creative and improvising expression. So let's try to remove this unconscious fallacy of "visible thoughts" by practicing the invisible inappropriate ones.