Beating The Odds, My Genesis
Genesis means The coming into being of something. Origin. Beginning.
The name of the First book of The Bible, or Pentateuch.
The truth of this definition is that a Genesis happens every day, all the time. I hope that you will see this Hub as a new beginning for you. A Genesis of your self, a new beginning on the way you perceive the most published, most translated and most purchased book ever written.
What you learn in church and from preachers and from people of various religious backgrounds is just an interpretation, their own take, on that book.
This is mine.
Doctors Couldn't Help Me
In August of 1995 I was in a car accident, on my way to work. I refused to go to the hospital, I had to get to my job, and did. Anyone who has ever been in an accident will tell you, Go. The injuries can take up to three days for you to notice just how badly you are hurt.
My son was just seven months old. I didn't know that within three days I would no longer be able to pick him up, or that within three months I would not be able to sleep due to the pain. They called it traumatic bursitis. The word "Traumatic" I took to mean temporary. It isn't temporary. Time does nothing to heal this wound.
I would lay down to sleep at night and awaken suddenly, I felt as if I had been set on fire. Tears streaming down my cheeks, tears I had shed while still asleep. My arms sticking straight out in front of me like a zombie in the movies, frozen in the air, I could not put them down.
My final visit with the final neurologist assigned by the insurance company went something like this.
"And why are you here again, you know nothing can be done."
"My family doctor gave me a prescription for ORUVAIL and he said if it worked then that means something can be done." It had worked, which meant a shot in my shoulder would relieve my pain, probably for a year, possibly longer.
The Dr wrote something down on his paper, came and poked my hands with sharp instruments and getting no response said. "You have reached maximum improvement, there is nothing anyone can do."
I asked if he had said that to others, nothing can be done... Suffer? Obviously he did.
I said, "What are you? How dare you. You do not know how lucky you are." ( I think he said pardon under his breath) "You are so lucky that God never blessed me with a gun, because you do not deserve to be practicing medicine. I'd shoot you where you stand and then blow my own brains out. The pain is worse than the bullet could ever be. I can't tie my shoes, I can't hold my child!"
The insurance company said that my own physician had prescribed me ELAVIL. That I was suffering from a mental illness that made me "need" attention.
Physician heal thyself. (Quack)
Okay, this is where we get all Biblical right? No, not exactly. This is one of the reasons I started writing again. I had an epiphany and had to go to the book and look it up and YES, there it was. It had been there my whole life, and I had read the words and like everyone else either bought the concept or thought it was perhaps worded wrong, or that days were not the same length.... All those explanations you get from Pastors and from Laymen and from Deacons who they themselves are not sure if they believe what they read.
I believed it, even defended it. But then I didn't really know why it was in there. I didn't know why everyone said Genesis Chapter Two is different than chapter one. I looked on Chapter two as a recap... That's not what it is. Chapter two is the beginning of the history of Jesus' ancestors dating back to the Garden of Eden.
Or is it?
Maybe this is really not about a garden at all. Maybe it is about a peaceful place where all is good, or at least satisfactory. Full stomachs all around. No fighting, no strife, poverty, disease. No slavery or prejudice. No pain... Utopia. Heaven. It would be a bit fitting don't you think, as the Bible ends with a new heaven and a new earth. If we know where we came from, then we know where we are going. But if it is all utopian, it is finished. No one creates when everything is perfect already.
So if the garden is a feeling of peace and union with God that is lost through disobedience then it becomes a different story from chapter one as that is about creation... Maybe.
What Can we do
Genesis as a Blueprint
I believe Chapter one is a blueprint, for us as humans, and our lives. Let me first state, I would not have figured it out if not for two books. Practical Kabbalah and The Zohar.
Although they do not say it directly they tell us a couple of things. First the meanings of the letters of the Hebrew alphabet, and second that the words are not always what they seem, but sometimes more.
The Zohar says that the first time we read we see the words. The second the sentence. The third time perhaps we understand a chapter, and the fourth we find we understand nothing. But now we may begin to study, because we do not understand. What is the point of studying something you already know?
In the Zohar, they first study the scrolls letter by letter (Each letter has it's own meaning.)
The Kabbalah says that the letters were created by Adam as he spoke. He found his mouth formed certain sounds and assigned a symbol to each sound and a meaning to each sound and the Hebrew alphabet was born.
My favorite concept, one I think I have always known is "The spoken word is a powerful thing." I was a very quiet child, not talkative. I wonder often if that is because I was the youngest,, or because I knew words were powerful when spoken. I was afraid that my anger could do harm, physical harm, if I let it be spoken, so I would bite my wrist when I was angry, rather than let the words out.
This comes into play now as the first letter of the alphabet is "Aleph" Aleph means God ( I am the Alpha and the Omega). The second letter is "Beth" Meaning house. The "Alphabet" from which all our spoken words and written words are made, most literally means, House of God.
I imagine we would be more careful what we say? Try harder not to hurt each other with words, maybe.
I chose not to accept those defeatist words. I chose to educate myself on acupressure, and massage therapy, hydrotherapy. I learned to treat myself, and even treated others who could get no relief.
So now, with new found knowledge we step forward into Genesis 1:1-1:3
"In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth. And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters. And said, Let there be light; and there was light."
Every time I think back to how my life was, such a mess of pain and fear, such a dark place to be. Of course nothing could get better without "shedding some light" on the subject. I had to enlighten myself. I had to find my own way, out of that awful darkness.
The truth is I believe this is just one of the many messages contained in this first chapter. "God saw the light and it was good, and God divided the light from the darkness, And God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night."
There is light and darkness in all of us. We have our ups and our downs. The media and pharmaceutical companies try to give us more reasons to think there is something wrong with us when they find a cure for something that we never even knew we had.
Often times these people and companies are diagnosing patients with two different disorders that have the same symptoms. Calling fibromyalgia a mental illness is my favorite. Imagine you are in pain, but you have not been beaten, or taken a fall. You tell the Dr your pain is so intense that you can get no rest... Well, of course it is all in your head.
I want to awaken your spirit. Even if it takes a verbal assault on those you may deem trustworthy.
So, separate the light from the darkness. The Zohar says that when Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit that they saw they were naked, not because they saw each others flesh. The Zohar says that we are clothed with our days, in the spirit form. They had many good days before the fall. When they ate the fruit, all those stored up good days that were clothing their spirits, those beautiful garments of lovely days were gone. The Zohar says that is when God gave us skin, to clothe our spirits with. Now here we must store up days to clothe our spirits with when our skin is gone. Picture the most beautiful day,a perfect day, as the garment you wear.
But you see, here we are told a day is the evening and the morning. While we want our days to shine like the sun, there is night also in a day. It is our job to make the most of our day, and our night. This does not mean wallow in your sadness, and pain; your darkness. Nor does it mean to let your dark side out. It means take control of the day. Do not give in to darkness, but do not curse the darkness, learn from it.
Where there is light there will be darkness, where there is joy, there will be sorrow. We cannot possibly know what is right if we do not know what is wrong.
In China they call it Yin and Yang.
So let there be light in your life, in your relationships, in your studies and in your writing. Darkness too, for who can appreciate light more, than one who has just come through a long dark night. And isn't it better, when darkness is all around us, to know there will be light again, that we are not alone, and that all of us slip and fall down some times. Let us pick each other up. Share some light.
Summing it All Up
In the beginning, God. Means from the very first moment think of God. He/She has many names in many different cultures, and in many different religions, but even agnostics acknowledge this "Higher Being". Political correctness mandates I call him "Your Higher Power". Sorry, as much as I want this message out there, any reader will just have to suffer my calling our creator God. Call this entity whatever you wish, in the beginning of your day, He is there. In any endeavor which involves breathing, He is there. When you create, or build, He is there.
Second is acknowledging your muddled mass, your void, in need of "work". As said before, if it is perfect it doesn't need creativity.
Third is letting in the Light, separating your "enlightened" part, from the "unenlightened" part, and understanding that these parts are present in all of us. They go by many names, too. Some Doctor's are trying to medicate you out of your growth by telling you that it is bad to be comprised of more than one part. Medication has it's place, but only so long as education is also taking place. If Doctor's insist that there is a need for it, also do your research and see what alternatives exist. There are always alternatives, massage therapy for instance is very good for many forms of depression.
Finally, never should the darkness be considered to be the end of the day. The Bible says "The evening and the morning was the first day." Light follows darkness, not the other way around. If it is night, then day IS coming. Don't let yourself be trapped by thoughts that it cannot get better. Don't let people tell you that either. And if a Doctor tells you that, go to another Doctor.
Be Better! You can, don't let anyone tell you that you can't be better.
I wish that Doctor who said I had reached maximum improvement could see me now. Oh I forgive him for his ignorance of the truth, and for his lies about me. Maybe he really didn't "know" I could get better. Maybe he was one of those obstacles in life that makes you "go a different way" or maybe he was a quack. Whatever he was, without that, I wouldn't be here to tell you. I was hit by a truck, in March of 2007. The Doctor who did the two surgeries on my leg was amazed to see me back at work in just 19 weeks. He said my recovery was unbelievable.
Yes, you can beat the odds. I lose track when I count back, how many times have I beaten the odds? I don't know. I do know, that I beat the odds every time so far, and every time, I started back at Genesis, even when I didn't know what it all meant.