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The Effects Bi Polar Has Had In My Life

Updated on April 9, 2012

I always knew that there was something different about me. I wasn't able to concentrate, would fidget, had somewhat of a temper and could go from happy to sad in a minutes time. There were times that I would act out, break things and lash out at my family and friends. Sometimes verbally and sometimes physically. I had the bouts of being hyper, staying up for days at a time and when I crashed, the depression would hit.

I was afraid and self consequences about this behavior and tried so hard to be a normal person. Which I now realize isn't possible for someone who has bi polar disorder and isn't medicated properly. When I finally was honest with my doctor, told her everything that was going on she had me talk to a counselor who referred me to a psychiatrist. Once I properly diagnosed and medicated my life has been calmer. There are still moments that I need to do deep breathing exercise, close my eyes, find my happy place and relax. Much calmer than it was though. More smiles than frowns it a good thing!

Bi Polar Disorder is a confusing disease because their symptoms mimic other mental health disorders.There are also various forms of Bi Polar Disorder that have many different symptoms. The primary symptoms are the mood swings, that range from mild to severe.

Mania symptoms indicate high energy, extreme happiness, excitable, irritable, restless, sleeps less, restless mind, thoughts never stopping, increased sex drive and thoughts of greatness, believing in make believe.

Depression symptoms, bouts of sadness, times of anxiety, crying, appetite change resulting in weight gain or loss, excessive sleeping, can't decide, possible thoughts of suicide or death.

Bi Polar Types, There is bi polar I, bi polar II, cyclothymic disorder, mixed bi polar and rapid cycling bi polar.

Bi Polar I, this person has had one or more episodes of an unusual happy mood, behaved erratically causing disruptions in their life.

Bi Polar II, this person has similar symptoms as Bi Polar I except their moods go between high and low over time and they don't reach up full mania level. Their happiness is milder.

Cyclothymia, this person's symptoms are milder than Bi Polar I & Bi Polar II. They don't have full blown bi polar mania.
Mixed Bi Polar, This person experiences both the mania and depression either close together or in rapid cycles.

Rapid Cycling, this person has rapid cycles, causing them to have 4 or more cycles in a year.


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    • meloncauli profile image


      6 years ago from UK

      Really enjoyed reading your hub. Keep writing!

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      Margaret Perrottet 

      6 years ago from San Antonio, FL

      Good hub. It must be such a difficult thing to contend with, and you seem to be doing very well with it. Glad you're having more smiles! It's important for people to realize that the current thinking on bipolar disorder points to a chemical imbalance in the neurotransmitters, and how important it is to get the proper treatment.

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      bipolar mind 

      6 years ago from uk

      Great hub! Really well explained and I can relate to this a lot.

    • Catzgendron profile imageAUTHOR


      6 years ago from North Chelmsford

      Thank You, my faith, family and friends keep me grounded and on the right path.

    • Catzgendron profile imageAUTHOR


      6 years ago from North Chelmsford

      Thank you for your kind comments. This isn't an easy struggle but I am determined to keep the postive attitude and Thank God every day that I succeed.

    • Escobana profile image


      6 years ago from Valencia

      It's beautiful to see how you know how to find your happy place in the middle of Bipolar Disorder.

      It can be quite a challenge to cope with this illness since I know this from first hand.

      Have to follow your positive attitude! Voted up and hit some buttons:-)

    • pinkdaisy profile image


      6 years ago from Canada

      Great Hub! You did a great job of explaining Bipolar disorder. I'm glad things are going well for you :)


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