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A Cocktail of Mental Illnesses: Can Quickly Spell out Disaster / My own Personal Experiences

Updated on April 16, 2012

A Cocktail of Mental Illnesses

By Monica Ortega

Bipolar is just one of three mental illnesses that I experience on a daily basis. I guess you could say that I have a cocktail of mental illnesses that I deal with consistently looking for the positive or even just a break. Unfortunately, my moods are very lonely and pessimistic. I deal with the more Bipolar Depressive Disorder lows, Dissociative Identity Disorder, and (PTSD) Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. It is and can be a very dangerous state of mind.

I have been hospitalized more times than I would like to admit, especially when you can't even count on your fingers and toe's or your families fingers and toe's, for that matter, (lots of laughs). In all seriousness it really isn't funny. Having a cocktail of mental illnesses is just so devastating. Having a past like mine can be triggered by anything I see, do and hear sending flashbacks of the utmost unwanted feelings, thought's and emotions that can so easily leave me spinning downward. Causing overwhelming, filled with fear and panic, confusion, leaving me with what I think in my mind is the solution to those feelings.

In all honesty it's sad...because those feelings usually leave me with a warped sense of invincibility and major compulsive dangerous behaviors that have in many times nearly resulted in taking my own life. That is a very scary place to be in when you are not in your right mind. I have to admit it, but many of those times was because I failed to continue to take my medications. Now, I know that I am speaking to many of you out there right now. You take them for awhile, then you wake up one day and say "hey, I feel really good today"....Then a few days go by...Then you realize that you are falling apart again. Why? Because after a little bit you were thinking that you could handle life's situations all by yourself. Even for myself. Sometimes it is hard to admit that I have a problem that require medication's to help me feel as normal as possible. Having a cocktail of mental illnesses is hard enough, having one mental illness is hard enough. It is truly 99.9% safe and accurate to say that most people with a major mental illness will and may need a medication to help cope and help the brain run as it should.

This is not true for everyone, because it depends on the person as, 'I said, in another article it can and may be a biological and Internal illness. For other's it can just be an every other day misfortune, leaving them with temporary emotional hardships that as time goes on they were able to deal with the unfortunate situation and move on. On the other hand I know that I am in it for life, the long haul. That is why I write my articles, because I am truly deep down inside me a true fighter, and quitting is not an option. You fight for your life as if you were fighting for the life of a loved one and you never back down or give up. by Monica Ortega


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    monicaortegamon 5 years ago from Ontario, california

    Thank you so much it brings me so much joy to hear the sincerity of one's heart. That is a true response of relating and being open to the world around us. Monica :)

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    Slaven Cvijetic 5 years ago from Switzerland, Zurich

    Your hub toched me, really. I know how hard this must be for you. I know someone who also had a hard mental disorder, but nonetheless, she could make it, only with her unending will to change and become better. Today, she lives a normal life and I wish you the best in future!

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    monicaortegamon 5 years ago from Ontario, california

    Thank you, I just really hope that my articles are touching people. I just want to be able to share with the world that people with disabilities do have talents and remarkable minds that we can all share with everyone around them. :)

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    meloncauli 5 years ago from UK

    I think it's great that you share your experience Monica. Keep writing. Voted up.