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Can Being Alone Literally Break Your Heart?

Updated on April 09, 2015
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Theresa writes on the topic of health at times to share what she has learned here and there in life. She is a breast cancer survivor.

The presence of animals can ease the loneliness in some.
The presence of animals can ease the loneliness in some. | Source

Merriam-Webster's Definition


Lonely:

“Being without company; cut off from other; not frequented by human beings, sad from being alone; producing a feeling of bleakness or desolation.


We were coming back to the US on a ship, and there was a drill, and I did not look too happy.  My brother was only 6 months old.  My dad was happy then.
We were coming back to the US on a ship, and there was a drill, and I did not look too happy. My brother was only 6 months old. My dad was happy then. | Source

Wikipedia, the Free Encyclopedia Definitions


Loneliness:

Is a complex and usually unpleasant emotional response to isolation. Loneliness typically includes anxious feelings about a lack of connectedness or community with other beings, both in the present and extending in the future. As such, loneliness can be felt even while surrounded by other people. The causes of loneliness are varied and include social, mental, emotional, and spiritual factors.


Cardiovascular disease:

Is a class of diseases that involve the heart or blood vessels (arteries, capillaries and veins).


Resources: en.wikipedia.org; Bradford Health Systems

Social Isolation


I will be the first to admit that I love being alone at times with my own thoughts and just spending time doing what it is I love to do all by myself. All of us need that special, quiet and reflective time alone.


However, there is a big difference in being alone with one’s own thoughts and social isolation, which leads to loneliness.


When I think of social isolation, well, my dad comes to mind after he returned from the wars. He not only suffered, but we, his family suffered too, in silence, which led to pretty much our whole family living in almost complete isolation. He suffered from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), and used alcohol to cope. PTSD was not talked about back then, as it is in today's world, and really he was left to fight his demons on his own.


The effects of social isolation are very harmful to the heart. Researchers have found that feeling alone may hurt the heart, even more than being alone. This hub will only address the effects of loneliness as relates solely to heart health, being February is HEART Month.


Chronic loneliness is a very serious life-threatening condition, especially for those who hide their loneliness from the outside world, and studies have shown it to also be associated with increased risk of cardiovascular disease and stroke. Boy, does this fact hit home with me, especially, being the oldest of three siblings, I remembered being too ashamed and feeling that our family was so different than all other families, that I really isolated myself from the world during this time because I never really knew when my dad was going to be on one of his bad spells of drinking (his way of coping with PTSD and his demons).


My dad died of a stroke way back in 1989. My mother lived to be 84.

Me with my dad.
Me with my dad. | Source
Me and my dad sitting on a bench in Germany.
Me and my dad sitting on a bench in Germany. | Source
Tombstones at Arlington National Cemetery, July 2006.jpg  Author: S. Chua
Tombstones at Arlington National Cemetery, July 2006.jpg Author: S. Chua | Source
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I surely did not understand his condition at the time, i.e., the disease of addiction, and our family never hearing of PTSD, as they do nowadays. Well, if they did, our family never knew of such. I remember just tuning everything out and focusing on being the best student in school, with the best grades ever, to try to hide the issue (the untrue issue) that there was not one thing wrong with my family. I learned much later that when one person in the family has the disease of addiction, then the whole family is actually sick.


I did not learn of such until my very own son, at an early age, did receive the help he needed through Bradford Health Systems, where, we, as the family were informed of this terrible disease and its toll it takes on each family member. We learned that each family member takes on a different role in order to cope, and the oldest sibling (me) would take on the role, that there was not one thing at all wrong with our family.


I remember thinking, when the Bradford's staff was talking about the whole family being sick, of my youth with my dad, and how I would put on, that there is nothing wrong with our family. That is the very thing the professionals at Bradford were saying. I then, understood myself a lot better after that fact was revealed to me. They explained each role each family member takes on, and I can see how it applied to my brother, the second child, and my two sisters. We each really did take on different roles in coping with being apart of this horrible disease of addiction.

Happy Times

Me and my Dad.  Happy Times.
Me and my Dad. Happy Times. | Source
My Dad's grave at Ft. Benning, Georgia
My Dad's grave at Ft. Benning, Georgia | Source

They said that the first child (me), is one who is an over-achiever, and will go out of his or her way to make sure that the world sees there is not one thing abnormal about their family, by such over-achieving. I was the one who made the National Honor Society in school. I was the one who all the teachers would say great things about later to my other siblings, much to my surprise for I always considered myself to be an introvert. Back then, they did not call it being an introvert, but just being shy. At the time, I did not know it, but they all thought I was just book smart and kept to myself due to wanting to study, study study. Actually, that was a great escape for me, reading and studying. At the young age of 25, I was placed on high blood pressure medicine, as is most of my family.


I remember not ever inviting any of my friends over for fear of my dad possibly having a PTSD episode.


My brother, who is just one year younger than I, is so very brilliant and a Planetary Geologist today. We thought back in high school he was going to drop out, but I believe it was due to our environment and he being so bored with his high IQ.


Our sweet mother, was far ahead of her time, and well-educated, and contributed much to who we are today. I praise Him for blessing us with the sweetest, strongest and most courageous woman I have ever known to this date.


According to Bradford, each child played a different role, the younger ones, being more rebellious and such.

Loneliness

Thoma Loneliness.jpg 1880 Hans Thomas (1839-1924) CC-PD-Mark
Thoma Loneliness.jpg 1880 Hans Thomas (1839-1924) CC-PD-Mark | Source
Dad and Mom during their happy years.
Dad and Mom during their happy years. | Source


Our mother's strength and wisdom, still provides a great backbone to this day, as I remembering her understanding our dad's sickness, where we would just continue to ask ourselves the question of, why us? Why cannot we be like other families, not knowing other families were suffering with the same disease, taking its toll. My dad had heart disease, high blood pressure, hardening of the arteries and whatever else, you name it. And I believe it was due to his self-isolation from the world after his retirement from serving his country. He was never truly the same after returning from the wars.


I remember my mother reading to me from Psalms. Throughout my childhood, I could feel the presence of the Lord, which comforted me greatly and gave me much peace.


Speaking for myself, and all my other siblings, we turned out great. It wasn't until the age of 30, that the Lord revealed to me that I was not living as He created me to be, and that I had a voice. He did not create me to be isolated from the world, and once I realized that, I became the person I am today. Now, I am truly free to be me and I have found my voice, speaking what He would have me to say . . . in other words, living the life He had planned for me all along. Those who know me now, have a very hard time believing I was ever an introvert or very shy.


Surprisingly, even though depression and anxiety can have a negative impact on one’s heart, loneliness appears to be especially deadly!


When one feels that one has no one to turn to and no one who understands (hence, loneliness), then it becomes a form of stress. If such stress becomes chronic, it can damage one’s blood vessels and heart. I know the loneliness my dad felt, and I believe it ultimately led to his death at age 62.


The reason the heart is damaged so much by this, is that lonely people have much higher levels of a hormone called cortisol. This hormone is released in response to stress. Back in the early 1990s, Swedish researchers studied approximately 1,300 patients, who were about to undergo heart bypass surgery. What they found was disturbing---those patients who said they were lonely were 2.5 times more likely to die within 30 days after having their surgery.


When one remains in a stressful state, the cardiovascular system is harmed. Such stress, as is produced by loneliness, makes it difficult for blood to move through the arteries, which over time can contribute to hardening of the arteries and heart disease.


Limiting loneliness is oh so critical, especially if one is at risk for heart disease. Please consider seeking the help of a mental health professional, who can assess your stress level, if you or a loved one has a heart condition. Or better than that, call upon the Great Physician, as I do, as He really does hear!


One never knows what others are going through, and unless they step out in faith and belong to a group, to share and discuss such issues, praying for each other and seeking wise counsel, in other words breaking that cycle of isolation, they may never truly be set free from those chains that bind.


Life is way too short to live in such isolation, when He created us to be connected to human contact, but make sure it is good company you are keeping!

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Alternative Approaches


One of my favorite alternative approaches:

Another great treatment for loneliness is pet therapy or animal-assisted therapy. It seems that, as studies have shown, and evidence provided by volunteer and community organizations, that the presence of animals can ease the feelings of loneliness in some.


We all love our pets and the unconditional love they provide!


Reference: Behavioral Health Systems, Inc.


Treatments and Prevention


There are so much varied and effective treatments for loneliness or social isolation, but I have my preferred treatment, and that is through the help of the Great Physician and the Great Counselor, the Lord God.


What the real deal for me, personally, is having that intimate personal relationship with the Lord God, in whom I place my full hope, faith and trust.


I know without a doubt, if God had not restored me, I may not be here this day.

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Remember is it impossible to be miserable at the same time one is LAUGHING.


Remember you are ALIVE, and it is something to be thankful for everyday, so please do not take it for granted!


Remember to be a part of something, a group, and you will realize you are a part of something GREATER THAN YOURSELF!


Remember to always to be THANKFUL for the wonderful things already in your life.


Remember to LOVE, enough said!

Psalm 25: 16-21 (NIV)


"Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. Relieve the troubles of my heart and free me from my anguish. Look on my affliction and my distress and take away all my sins. See how numerous are my enemies and how fiercely they hate me! Guard my life and rescue me; do not let me be put to shame, for I take refuge in you. May integrity and uprightness protect me, because my hope, LORD, is in you."

Disclaimer

Persons with health concerns should discuss them with a health care professional or doctor. This article is not intended for medical advice but merely information and background.

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      A great message, Faith. I know I love my alone time, but too much of it is not good for me. Bev is the same way, and we respect each other's need to be alone and balance it with our need for togetherness. It seems to work for us. :)

      blessings always,

      bill

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Bill,

      Yes, that type of alone time is healthy no doubt, but that social isolation is what really does the damage. I know you have your lovely Bev and many friends, so you are good to go indeed!

      Thanks for the great comment.

      Blessings, Faith Reaper

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      lovedoctor926 4 years ago

      A very good hub. Great prevention tips and approach. I love my alone time too. Beautiful song & powerful message in the video. God Bless You.

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      wetnosedogs 4 years ago from Alabama

      I didn't realize that loneliness can cause heart problems.

      We need to uplift the hearts, so people don't feel lonely.

      Great hub.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Marlene (lovedoctor),

      So glad to see you stopping by to read. Thanks so much for the great comments. Yes, I love my alone time very much. However, when it turns to isolation, it is time to get some help before one gets physically ill.

      I appreciate you.

      God bless you too. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Wetnose,

      Glad for your visit. Yes, I was surprised to find out just how much damage loneliness can do to one's heart. My favorite treatment for prevention is using pet therapy, which I know you know all about with your sweet dogs and how much unconditional love they provide.

      Thanks so much for the great comments. Yes, let's uplift the hearts of many.

      God bless. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      Love is the special word.. LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!..

      I know people can get lonely.. but the first thing to do.. Is put God first.. our Lord and Savior..

      and if you like to write.THEN W RITE WRITE WRITE.. it is great therapy.. find a group to meet with is a great idea.. Take dance lessons.. you will have a ball. find a good church to have good fellowship.. Especially those that love to eat.. LOl

      walk every day.. feel good about your self.. GOD made us we are special.. work out and get involved in the community help out at the food bank.. I found out a long time ago.. if you take your eyes off your self and put them on the Lord God and helping others that are in need.. before you know it you will not be lonely.

      I know what I speak of.. I have been in that position

      God bless you my friend

      Sharing

      Debbie

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      deergha 4 years ago from ...... a place beyond now and beyond here !!!

      Very profound topic to be be specific. In present position the loneliness is the cause of of many wrong things around the society at large and you have pointed it out so nicely here. Even for me....my 'me time' is very much important to be happy and positive in life to go ahead and face the world as it unfold in front of me. But it's a mater of fact that many people in general are just not so comfortable to be alone and they tend to escape loneliness to be even among wrong company. Being lonely is being with own selves and which if one is comfortable then its quite clear that the person can be happy in right company sure in long run. May be, but its totally my individual perspective about the whole topic. Thanks for sharing this one and I am sure sharing this across the board. Votes +++++++++

      God bless you always.....my dear sweet friend

      deergha

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      Ryem 4 years ago from Maryland

      Wow, I've never thought of loneliness to be so harmful. I get people literally are dying of broken hearts. Thank you for sharing this Faith.

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      Bill Blackburn 4 years ago from Twentynine Palms, California

      This was awesome! There is a book titled "The Hidden Messages in Water"by Masauru Emoto. Dr. Emoto discovered that crystals formed in frozen water reveal certain changes when specific, concentrated thoughts are directed toward them. His book illustrates what happened when the crystals were exposed to a variety of test scenario's e.g., love vs. hate, but what's interesting is that in this test, the test subjects that were completely ignored eventually developed into something that looked similar to a cancer cell, as opposed to those exposed to positive influences which formed into near perfect crystals. Considering that the human body is composed of approximatley 75% water, his discoveries affirm or support what you're saying about lonelines and the impact it has on ones health. Great Hub!

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      Cynthia B Turner 4 years ago from Georgia

      This is so very true, loneliness is a deadly affliction. Humans are social beings and we need others in our lives. It is very sad when you see someone unable to reach out and connect with another. Unfortunately, lonely people are all around us. Voted up.

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      Karen Silverman 4 years ago

      amazing, dear Faith - every word clearly came from your heart - and touched a chord in mine!

      i have been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder - and also enjoy a lot of time alone...

      rarely have i felt lonely - but not never, and - it is just a horrid feeling, almost frightening - clearly harmful - just as you describe!

      i adore my Tiger-dog, who i've been lucky to serve for 13 years now...lol..

      and - i adore my closest friends - who understand..

      sharing forwardxx

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      Mary Craig 4 years ago from New York

      You have chosen a subject that is not normally associated with loneliness but is oh so true. How wonderful it is you have chosen to write about the heart during Heart Month. Your faith and insights will, hopefully, lead many to stop and take a second look at their lives.

      The song was incredible. I'd never heard it before but love it.

      Faith, you are a light in the darkness...one we can follow on this arduous path.

      Voted up, useful, awesome, and interesting. Oh, and shared.

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      Maria Jordan 4 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

      Oh Faith,

      Your writing is snowballing in a most positive way...this is a beautiful accompaniment to your recently published poem on loving our hearts, as well as a perfect partner to this month's Perspective theme of Loneliness. I will be linking this to my hub later today and thank you for linking MickeySr's Introductory hub as well.

      I appreciate the valuable information you have provided as a most

      powerful example of the mind- body connection. You have given meaningful strategies to cope as well and wonderful references, links.

      The picture of the girl with her dog; the inspirational quote from Maya

      Angelou; the gorgeous song and to finish with Psalm 25...

      Girlfriend, I welcome your Perspective "any time"! Voted UP and UABI.

      Have a peaceful and beautiful Sunday. Love, Maria

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Wow Debbie!

      What awesome comments here my sweet friend! And with those very comments, you have added greatly to the subject of this hub and have provided most excellent remedies to fighting against loneliness. In fact, your suggestions to fighting loneliness (in my mind), as opposed to those in studies, are even much better, i.e., taking our eyes off of ourselves and looking up to Him first, getting involved in helping others (which also takes our eyes off of ourselves, and in doing so, you realize, hey, my life is pretty good when your eyes are open to the problems of others) . . . In other words, as you have stated, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE is truly the answer, and to find what you are passionate about in this life, i.e., WRITE, WRITE, WRITE, if that is the case, which we have no doubt it is your passion, and we are all so very blessed by your presence here in HP Town.

      I appreciate the share, and thank you my dear friend.

      God bless you always, In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi my dear friend deergha,

      Wow, your perspective on loneliness adds much insight to the very subject of this hub! Yes, just because one loves his or her alone time, certainly does not mean, they are suffering from loneliness, for, as you stated, you are in good company. There is even a great quote on that very statement you have written here, and I believe I read it in one of the "Perspectives" authors' hub. You make another very valid point, when you wrote that those attempting to escape loneliness choose the wrong company!

      I do so appreciate your contribution here to this very serious issue of true loneliness, and so I thank you very much.

      God bless you too. In His Love Always, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Ryem,

      So glad for your visit here! Yes, who would have thought . . . I mean we all know about cancer and other such illnesses can surely be deadly, but loneliness - an eye-opener for me too.

      I appreciate you taking the time to read and comment.

      God bless. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hello web923!

      Nice to meet you, and thanks for reading. How very fascinating to say the least is Dr. Emoto's findings, of which he discusses in his book. Yes, in my research, I found that loneliness also can be contributed to many other maladies, such as cancer and the like. I chose to focus on the heart, as February is HEART Month. I am so thrilled you have chosen to read, and better yet, I am so very thankful that you have shared such interesting findings with us all!!!

      I thank you, again, for the awesome comment. You are always welcome in my corner of HP Town.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      Martie Coetser 4 years ago from South Africa

      Faith, this is a superb hub about loneliness. You have given the essential facts and the best advice. And every word so true.

      I was extremely lonely for the better part of my life, but always managed to treat myself effectively - by doing what was good for me - achieving goals, keeping myself very busy with projects to the benefit of the community, writing myself out of my miserable circumstances, focusing on others instead of myself....

      I will never again be lonely in my life! Because I've learned the hard way that loneliness, too, is a choice - a kind of suicide in slow-motion. I will not allow myself ever again to disconnect from people. But at the same time I will never again allow myself to connect to people who are not able to love me just as much as they love themselves. I do prefer loneliness above being connected to the wrong person/people.

      Voted up and awesome. I am linking this hub to mine about loneliness.

      Faith, you are awesome!

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      Carol 4 years ago from Greenwood, B.C., Canada

      I think one of my main obstacles is the fact that I beat myself up for wanting to be alone instead of waltzing to my own tune. I love solitude. Not total solitude mind you. I do like having people in the back ground but I'm totally comfortable with my own thoughts and actions. In a social world, I'm a bit anti-social I guess - but with a good spin to it.

      Thanks for this hub. I enjoyed it.

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      Jaye Denman 4 years ago from Deep South, USA

      Faith....People who are alone and fail to reach out to others are most at risk for that harmful type of loneliness. While I've always enjoyed periods of solitude, I also learned many years ago the power of a "support group" made up of family and friends. Everyone needs someone to laugh with, to hug, to confide in...even if it's only for a few minutes out of a day.

      I love the photo you included of the woman hugging a dog. Dogs give you attention and unconditional love, asking little in return but food and belly rubs. Anyone who lives alone should have a pet to love.

      I also believe that laughter is a better preventive than any medication. You can't laugh and be sad at the same time. Laughter releases endorphins, the neurotransmitters that create feelings of well-being. When I curl up on the sofa with my dog's head on my knee and watch a funny movie or read a humorous book that makes me laugh out loud, all's right with my world.

      Voted Up++++ and shared

      Jaye

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Cyndi,

      So nice to meet you, and I am glad you stopped by to read! I appreciate your comment and, yes, sadly there are far too many lonely people out there, who just need that human touch. I see them all the time too, and I just know, and so I just try to give them a nice smile in the elevator or give them a nice little compliment. One never knows by just doing that little thing, how far reaching it can be in that person's life, to just be acknowledged by someone.

      I appreciate the vote up and your visit here this day.

      Love and blessings, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Dearest Leslie (ImKarn),

      Thank you, lovely one, for sharing here and, yes, it is no doubt one bit such a very horrid feeling. My heart truly aches for anyone experiencing such a horrid feeling, especially you, my friend whom I do so adore.

      I know the love of your precious Tiger-dog is true, and so very therapeutic. What a wonderful blessing it is to have such friends who understand and, to top that off, to have the unconditional love you receive from Tiger-dog!

      I do so cherish my alone time, and there is not one thing in this world wrong with that, just as you do too, as we are both in very good company, if I may say so!

      I appreciate the share.

      Love you girl. Hugs, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Mary (Till),

      Always lovely to see you stopping by to read! Yes, that is true, it is certainly not a subject that is normally associated with loneliness. I was surprised myself. I only chose to focus on the effects that loneliness has on the heart, as February is HEART Month, but in my research, the effects of loneliness are far-reaching as to all sorts of maladies, and serious health issues. So, loneliness can truly be deadly!

      My prayer is that if just one person is helped in the least bit by this hub and bringing awareness to this serious health issue, then it was worth writing.

      When God places something on my heart (no pun), then I just go with it, and who knows?

      I am so very humbled by your lovely words to me, my friend with the beautiful heart!

      I appreciate the vote up and share.

      God bless. In His Love Always, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Dearest Maria,

      Thank you so much for the positive reinforcement here. I appreciate you linking this hub, and I am so humbled that you would do so. Oh, a light bulb came on just now (lol), and I would love to link the hubs on Loneliness by the authors in the "Perspectives" series here too. Each one is amazing.

      I do so love that photo of the girl with her dog, and I even thought about flipping the hub around with that photo at the beginning. Pets are great therapy for those who are lonely. I have seen animals being used in nursing facilities, and the resulting benefits are amazing. It is that great unconditional love, and we humans can learn a lot from our pets!

      I really love that song too, as it is so very powerful.

      Thank you for always being an amazing friend, who never stops encouraging others. You are a blessing to me, and I do so cherish your friendship.

      Hope you have a lovely Sunday afternoon too.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Martie,

      Thanks so much for your encouraging words as to my hub here.

      Here, you have written an excellent description . . . "a kind of suicide in slow -motion." Wow, that certainly hammers it in, as well as it being a choice.

      Great point too, about the importance of being connected to the right people, and I believe that is key in the prevention of loneliness. One can be connected to a lot of people, but if they are wrong for one's health, then it is much better, as you say to be alone, and be in great company! That is exactly what I have been reading on this subject, as I, too, do love my alone time, which we all need no doubt, but when we do connect, it must be with healthy-minded persons.

      As that old saying goes, and it seems to be true, "Misery loves company." Have you noticed that miserable people, seem to be drawn to each other, which they are sure to remain miserable.

      I am so humbled that you want to link my hub, and I would love to link your wonder "Perspective" on Loneliness to mine too.

      I appreciate the vote up and link.

      Thank you so much, awesome Martie.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hello onegreenparachute,

      So nice to meet you. I am glad you stopped by to read. I appreciate your refreshingly honest comments here. I really do so love my alone time too, as you do, and we all really do need it. Just knowing, you do have people in the background is good, as when you do feel the need to connect, they are there.

      I like that, " a bit anti-social . . . but with a good spin to it!"

      I am glad you enjoyed this hub. Thanks so much for taking the time to read here and leaving great comments.

      You are welcome anytime here in my corner of HP Town.

      Hope you are having a great Sunday,

      Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hello Jaye Wisdom,

      So nice to meet you! Thank you for reading and I appreciate your great comments which add greatly to the subject of this hub. Yes, having a great "support group" made up of family and friends is critical, even, as you have stated, if only for a few minutes a day.

      I do so love that photo of the girl hugging her dog too, and I love knowing you have your sweet dog to sit there with you on the sofa to provide that unconditional love. I love how you added to that about the belly rubs and food, how cute.

      I love laughing too, and you made a great point as to the releasing of the oh so important endorphins. I am constantly laughing at myself. LOL

      It really does sound like all is right in your world! You have placed a big smile on my face this day by sharing here in your comments.

      I appreciate the vote up and share.

      You are welcome to stop by anytime in my corner of HP Town too.

      Hope you are enjoying your Sunday, with your dog's head on your knee with that good book, or whatever gets those good endorphins going,

      Faith Reaper

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      Jackie Lynnley 4 years ago from The Beautiful South

      I read this yesterday Faith and left a message (well thought I did) and I am just getting into a bad habit of going up to vote or maybe share before I push the comment button then forgetting; therefore not leaving the message. Sorry about that dear friend. I thought this a very good write and I have been victim to it myself in life but now God is my love and number one and He never hurts us in love or ever leaves us. I am going to put more of yours in mine soon as I catch up with myself a little. God bless you and all your beautiful stories.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Oh Dearest Jackie,

      Don't even worry about anything dear friend. You have so very much going on right now, so please just step back and take care of yourself and please know I am praying for you and your friend. You are in good hands, as He loves you dearly, as you do Him. He is number One, and He will never forsake us and His love is truly unending. I am claiming all of His promises in Jeremiah 29:11 for you and your friend.

      God bless you sweet friend. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Jackie Lynnley 4 years ago from The Beautiful South

      Thank you so much...we can really put our faith in His word no matter what we feel. I am trying to make more time for that now, but I had a picture I did for everyone for V day but never got the poem done but I will send it to you first chance I get and hope to get out over 1200 pictures free for everyone here. It is my sincerest wish so I hope it will be soon.

      God bless and I thank Him for sending you here!

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Oh my goodness, dearest Jackie,

      Yes, me too, as all we really need to do is to put Him first and everything else will fall right into place, and we can rest then, knowing we have placed our hope, trust and faith in Him.

      You are so sweet, to even think of such, but we can love each other every day of the year just by praying, encouraging and being there for one another, and those are the best gifts ever. Please Jackie, slow everything down and put that aside for now and just take care of yourself and rest in Him, sweetest friend.

      Love is unconditional and all know you have a loving and generous heart already, and please know how much you are loved.

      I praise Him for you too.

      Hugs, Faith Reaper

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      ignugent17 4 years ago

      This is really a great help for all people Faith. We all need to be with others. We sometimes need to be alone just to think. But we need to have a social life.

      Thank you for your insightful hub. :-)

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      ignugent17 4 years ago

      This is really a great help for all people Faith. We all need to be with others. We sometimes need to be alone just to think. But we need to have a social life.

      Thank you for your insightful hub. :-)

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi ignugent,

      So glad to see you here this day! Thanks so much for the great comments to add to this hub.

      God bless, Faith Reaper

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      Patricia Scott 4 years ago from sunny Florida

      Well done, Faith

      And thank you for publishing it as you do..how thoughtful that was.

      Loneliness can literally destroy a life emotionally and physically. We all need to make that effort to reach out and fill the lonely hours for someone who is in need of our touch, our words, our caring. It sometimes means we have to go out of our way but the pay off is huge.

      thanks for addressing this so well...

      Sending you Angels, my sister in Christ...:) ps

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi dearest friend PS,

      Thanks so much for leaving great comments as you always do, which add so much to the very subject of this hub! You are blessed with such a loving spirit and a lovely family, who you love so much, I cannot imagine you are ever lonely. Yes, it does mean that . . . we must sometimes go out of our way, and as you state, and the pay off is huge no doubt! Beautifully said my dear.

      God bless, and sending Angels right back to you and your precious family, Faith Reaper

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      Vickiw 4 years ago

      Hello Faith Reaper, really appreciated this Hub. It seems we have a lot in common, and I will follow your Hubs with interest. To be alone and not be lonely is a really difficult goal for some to achieve. Loneliness is a killer, no doubt about it.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Vickiw,

      So great to have you for a visit here! Thanks so much for the follow, and for leaving great comments which add much to the subject of this hub.

      God bless, Faith Reaper

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      Jo Alexis-Hagues 4 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

      Faith, another great write, the mind does indeed affect the body, loneliness is not only sad, it can destroy a person in so many ways!..and there are so many lonely people out there, I hope some of them will read this. Well done.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Jo (tobusiness),

      Thanks so much for stopping by to read. I appreciate the wonderful comments here to add to the subject of this hub. Yes, nothing wrong with being alone, until we become isolated from the world, then it can harm us.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hey friends,

      I am going to rewrite this hub, as to more my usual writing style, as I am not a doctor or psychologist. Hope all understand. I appreciate each and every comment left here. When I republish it, and you would like for me to remove your comment, I will understand of course. I appreciate all of your continued encouragement and support. I just feel I am moving away from my norm.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      Vinaya Ghimire 4 years ago from Nepal

      Faith,

      Loneliness can usher you into abject isolation, but it can also be very uplifting. Actually, loneliness is just a perception, we can be alone in crowd, and we can be in a crowd while in solitude.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Vinaya,

      Thanks so much for your visit this day, as well as your insight to loneliness, which adds much to the subject of this hub.

      I was in the middle up loading more personal photos to this hub, when you made your comment, I believe.

      God bless, Faith Reaper

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      Maria Jordan 4 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

      Dear Faith,

      I would not only like to keep my first comment, I would love to add that you have greatly enhanced what was already an excellent piece of writing.

      Your family photos and additional information of your family, especially your dear Father ties in beautifully with the sound bones of the content of your question's answer.

      I think the two dog photographs are special and really appreciate the Bible with the pages turned into a heart...how beautiful.

      I am ever proud to link this to my February Loneliness Perspective.

      Have a peaceful and lovely day. Hugs, Maria

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Dearest Maria,

      Thank you so much for leaving another lovely comment after the changes I made to my initial publication of this hub. You are truly a wonderful and understanding friend, and I appreciate you so much.

      Have a lovey Sunday too, and thanks for linking again.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      lovedoctor926 4 years ago

      Hi Faith, this is a very good hub. Just like you, I also enjoy being alone in my own thoughts. It's so peaceful and serene. Listening to soundscape tunes for meditation, smooth jazz and even remixes can restore balance and well-being. Thanks for pointing out the difference between feeling lonely and being alone. It's not good to isolate yourself from others nor from the world just like it's not good to stay stuck at home all the time either because as you probably already know it can make you prone to depression. I can understand why the feelings of loneliness can break your heart. Everyone wants to feel loved and accepted by others. At some point in my life, I felt lonely and pretty much socially rejected by some people. I gave all my worries and problems to God and I believe he healed me from the pangs of loneliness. I am a much happier and content person now. Voted up useful & beautiful & sharing my friend. hugs xxxx

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Marlene (lovedoctor),

      So glad for your visit here this day. I appreciate your great comments and sharing of your personal experiences with loneliness. Yes, there is a huge difference from having our alone time to complete social isolation, which can actually be deadly, as studies have shown. It can literally harm your heart. Being February is HEART Month, I thought I would write this to go along with my poem I did for HEART Month. I know the isolation my dad experienced was the cause to a great extent of his heart problems. He died way back in 1989; however, my mother lived to be 84. You are such a great person with a wonderful personality, I cannot imagine you being socially rejected by anybody.

      I am so glad for your happiness now. Praise Him!

      Thank you so much for the vote up and share.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      alocsin 4 years ago from Orange County, CA

      When I first moved to California, I didn't know anyone and felt lonely all the time. Volunteering for community groups helped dispel that bad feeling and started developing my network of friends. Voting this Up and Useful.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi alocsin,

      Thanks for the visit here. I appreciate your wonderful comments, which add much to the subject of this hub. I am so glad you got out and volunteered in community groups and are no longer have that lonely feeling. That is the key, keeping oneself from being socially isolated.

      Thanks for the vote up.

      God bless, Faith Reaper

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      Paul Bisquera 4 years ago from Los Angeles

      I loved your article Faith Reaper. Loneliness is something I've overlooked and can be disheartening for many people. Thanks for pointing that out and I'll be more mindful about this subject from now on.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hello Paul,

      Thanks so much for stopping by to read and leaving great comments here. I appreciate your kind words.

      God bless. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Rosemary Amrhein 4 years ago from Boston, MA

      Hi FaithReaper,

      Some people would welcome hardening of the arteries especially if they feel there's no light at the end of the tunnel. Let us pray for those people! Great hub, good insights.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Blondey,

      Yes, as there is surely a light at the end of that tunnel, and I know Him well. I know you do as well, with your lovely poetry to glorify Him.

      I appreciate the kind words.

      God bless. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      jaydene 4 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

      Thank you so much for sharing this story. I also have been affected with ptsd, and I understand the sorrow, and complications it produces. I felt what you said in every word. I am also joyed to hear of how you overcame., and kept your Faith strong.

      Thank you so much for this.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi jaydene,

      I am so sorry you have been affected with ptsd. Thank you for sharing in your comment here. I am praying for you now. Yes, I have been set free from it all, but as a child hearing of my dad suffering with ptsd and his isolation from the world as a result, is something I will never forget and have written about in a poem, "A Soldier's Child." It caused me to isolate myself from the world during my youth. I was blessed with a lovely mother, who was so very strong and wise and our strength. I remember being comforted by her when she read to me from Psalms.

      God bless you. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      IAmForbidden 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up.

      Loneliness is such a bitter pill.. and sometimes it can lead to depression.. i got the chance to experience this thing, its a sad story though..

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi spy,

      Thanks for stopping by to read. Yes, loneliness can very well lead to depression as well as a lot of other ailments. I choose to stick to the problems it causes to one's heart, as February is HEART Month.

      I am so sorry you had to experience such dear friend. I hope you are over the loneliness and depression.

      Hugs, Faith Reaper

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      Girish puri 4 years ago from NCR , INDIA

      Faith, I agree, what you said in your beautiful hub, loneliness can be fatal and i would like to add, do fall in love, not necessarily with a person, it may be an idea, motive, anything, but this would become the reason for you to enjoy and live, awesome hub, God bless.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi my dear friend girishpuri,

      It is always such a blessing when you visit! Yes, we must love at all times. Thanks for the wonderful comments and useful advice about how to avoid loneliness and that isolation that can lead to loneliness, which is so very harmful!!!

      God bless you. Hugs and much love, Faith Reaper

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      Audrey Howitt 4 years ago from California

      Being alone and in emotional pain is such a difficult place to be--Emotional pain, is often just not talked about much and we think of it in shameful terms--and yet, if we can't connect around it, it can destroy us--This was a thought provoking hub Faith---

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hello Audrey,

      So nice to see you stopping by this day to read. I appreciate your great comments, which really do add so much to the subject of this hub.

      Thanks for the kind words.

      Have a lovely Sunday.

      Blessings, Faith Reaper

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      Mary Hyatt 4 years ago from Florida

      I was raised an only child and as such, I found my own entertainment, just playing with my dog in the woods when I wasn't working in the fields. I have never known the feeling of loneliness. I do enjoy being alone at times, but I can understand why being really lonely could cause stress which would in turn, cause heart problems (plus many more).

      Great Hub. I voted this UP, and will share.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Mary,

      Thanks so much for sharing about yourself, and it is so lovely of you to do so. From your comment, you did not experience such loneliness as you kept yourself doing the things you loved and worked very hard, so no time to become lonely, even though at times you may have been alone, and that is the difference!

      I appreciate your great comment, which does add much to the content of this hub. Thank you for the vote up and share. You're the best!

      Have a lovely Sunday evening.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      truthfornow 4 years ago from New Orleans, LA

      Interesting to learn a little bit about the health impacts of loneliness. Pets do help ease loneliness. People can feel alone even if they are among a while bunch of people. It is about our emotional attachment to others and how connected we feel to others.

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      Mona Sabalones Gonzalez 4 years ago from Philippines

      I love the tone you use in sharing your life story and the way you found faith because of the unstated difficulties of your father's life. I love the way in the end you say faith is the first and foremost thing that gets you through. It must have been very hard for many of the men who went through Vietnam and other wars. This is the first time I realized that PTSD can last for many, many years. Thank you for sharing.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi truthfornow,

      So glad for your visit here this evening! Yes, pets are the best in giving of that unconditional love no doubt, which we all need. I know I have felt very much alone in a room full of people with whom I feel disconnected. Thanks so much for the wonderful comment and stopping by to read.

      God bless. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hello grand old lady,

      So nice to meet you and thank you so much for stopping by to read. I appreciate your comments. Yes, PTSD well very can last a lifetime, if untreated, as in the case with my father. It is very sad and difficult to watch, especially as a child. Yes, indeed my faith has grown so strong just by the very trials and tribulations in my life, and those trials have made me into the person I am today, combined with my strong faith. I appreciate you mentioning the faith aspect here in your comment.

      God bless. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Rosemary Amrhein 4 years ago from Boston, MA

      Thanks, just sent you a message :)

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi blondey,

      Okay dear one. I appreciate it.

      God bless you. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Janis Leslie Evans 4 years ago from Washington, DC

      Faith Reaper,

      This is such a beautiful, personal sharing, like a memoir. It's a good balance of medical information and spiritual awareness of God as our ultimate healer. Thank you for this take on addressing lonliness. Up and beautiful.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Dearest janshares,

      So glad for your visit here this day! Wow, thanks so much for the great comment. I appreciate the kind and lovely words here, as well as the vote up.

      God bless you. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Suzette Walker suzettetaos 4 years ago from Taos, NM

      Faith: A stunningly beautiful article! I am so sorry for how your father suffered. That is so sad that he didn't understand nor did you children as to the real problem there. Your mom was a God-send and thank goodness for her. It is so sad when people keep things locked inside themselves and won't or can't share their feelings. We all do the best we can. Being a teacher I was always into emoting and communicating. I do feel sorry for those that have problems communicating. Thank you for sharing such a personal story with us. Beautiful photos to accompany this article!

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Dearest Suzette,

      Thank you so much for your understanding and lovely comments here. I appreciate you making your rounds here this day on my hubs!

      Yes, it is painful for a child and for the one suffering, when back then, our family did not know of such or what treatment was available. Plus, just a lack of understanding of the root of the problem too.

      You're so right about my mother being a God-send!!! I praise Him for her, as she was the sweetest mother to me on this planet anyone could have been blessed to have as a mother.

      I can tell that you are one who knows how to communicate and understand these types of issues. One can tell how beautiful one is by their heart, and your heart is very beautiful.

      I appreciate your kind words here all around.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      Devika Primić 4 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

      Looking back you would think only if there was something to help your dad, and of misunderstanding of the problem. You have shared your true feelings here. Thanks for opening up. I appreciate you writing and sharing such a hub.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi DDE,

      Thank you so much for leaving such lovely heartfelt comments here. I appreciate you.

      God bless. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Cynthia Calhoun 4 years ago from Western NC

      What a story! You know, I think we introverts have to naturally guard against loneliness. I prefer working at home, doing art, writing and the like. I grew up in a family of extroverts and there was a lot of tension sometimes: I was misunderstood and taken for being snooty and it so wasn't that. I just wanted to study, read, write and do art - even back then. Thanks for sharing your story, though - your parents seem like they really were wonderful people, even despite PTSD on your dad's part. That's such a tough thing to deal with. Hugs to you!

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi cclitgirl,

      Thanks so much for stopping by to read and leaving such lovely and kind comments here. Yes, one can be misunderstood no doubt! My mother was an angel right here on this earth, and my dad just never received the help he needed it seems, which is so sad, as he really did suffer, as did we all.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      Jackie Lynnley 3 years ago from The Beautiful South

      Still working on photos hours everyday, my free folder is nearing 2000! Up and sharing.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Wow, Jackie, slow down!!! That is amazing. I love your photography. Thanks for sharing some of it here with us. You have a gift no doubt!

      Thanks for the vote up and share.

      God bless. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Sheila Brown 3 years ago from Southern Oklahoma

      Dear Faith Reaper, I know the lonliness you speak of. I was an only child with both parents being alcoholics. My dad was in WWII and the Korean war and suffered some injuries that he really never recovered from. I know he was in pain all the time and he drank to chase away the pain, probably both physical and mental. My mother drank to cope with him. I was always told never to speak of things that happened at home. I'm sure my friends all knew, but it was never talked about. My friends parents would rarely let them come to my house, but luckily I was always welcome at theirs. It does help to talk about it, it's almost like letting steam out of a boiling pot. I'm sorry you had to go through this in your childhood. Just know that there are many others out there and you are always welcome "at my house"! Bless you my friend! :)

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Thank you for sharing your story too dear sg!

      Yes, I have no doubt that there are many out there with similar stories. War is terrible for not only the one who experienced it but for the families too sometimes.

      It was as you say back then, that no one would talk about it, as they do know, to get counseling or whatever kind of help they needed, and drinking was normally the means of coping for sure.

      Thankfully, me too . . . I was welcome. You are always welcome at my home too dearest friend.

      God bless you. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Nithya Venkat 3 years ago from Dubai

      Faith Reaper thank you for sharing your story. You are brave and strong. Your voice is heard through your writings. As you say being in communication with HIM really helps us to get out of our shell and be the real person that we actually are. Great write and voted up.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Vellur,

      I am so glad for your visit here this day. Thank you so much for your very lovely and kind words here.

      Yes, He desires for us to be the person He created us to be and sometimes we get caught up in our environment and start thinking or believing false things or just do not believe the truth about ourselves.

      Once in that intimate relationship with Him, He can reveal a lot.

      I appreciate the vote up.

      God bless you. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      stars439 3 years ago from Louisiana, The Magnolia and Pelican State.

      Happy Mother's Day cherished Heart. You, and you're family have been threw a lot. You're father was very brave, and very special. You're family was wonderful. You are precious dear heart, and you glow with a magnificence that everyone can see so easily. My father was a World War 2 disabled vet, and at times he would get very drunk too. But no matter how wars effected our fathers, they were magnificent like many other great dad's that loved their families, but the memories of war are hard to forget. God Bless You, and you're mom, and dad who are in Heaven. You will never be alone because they will always be part of you in you're heart.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Aw, thank you so much stars for such heartfelt comments. You're the best! I appreciate you so much.

      Yes, our veterans deserve much respect for what they had to endure for freedom's sake no doubt!!!

      God bless you and your precious family always, Faith Reaper

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      Sparklea 3 years ago from Upstate New York

      Faith, this hub is off the charts! I can't imagine how long it took you to put this very profound information together. Voted up, useful and awesome! The picture at the beginning, the woman with the dog, wiped me out. Not to mention the song video.

      You have done a great service here, and MANY will benefit from your personal story and tremendous advice and suggestions.

      The pictures of you and your family are phenomenal, and your mother is so beautiful...like you. You SO resemble her. THANK YOU FAITH!

      Blessings, Sparklea

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Dearest Sparklea!

      Aw, thank you so much sweet friend for such a wonderful visit from you this day! I am so sorry to just now be getting to this, as we have our grands up and have been out all day.

      I always receive a blessing when you come for a visit with your generous and thoughtful comments.

      I appreciate your kind comments towards my family too. My mother, as I have stated many times here on HP, was the sweetest person I've ever known in my entire life. She went on to her true home this past Christmas. We were able to celebrate her 84th birthday with her on December 16th and then four days later she went home to the Lord.

      Hugs and blessings,

      Faith Reaper

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      Sparklea 3 years ago from Upstate New York

      Faith, I also was blown away by the stories and pictures of your dad. I could SO feel your heart and your emotion throughout.

      I remember your mom passing away. At the time, I was so sick in the hospital (admitted for the 3rd time on December 17 until Christmas Eve) from complications of having 80 percent of my colon removed in November. I was so weak then that I could hardly text and I was too exhausted to sit at the computer.

      But I DO remember her passing and I hope I sent you a condolence.

      That being said, it is devastating to lose our parents.

      The third time, just before being taken back to the hospital, my husband and daughter were in the kitchen getting my belongings ready...I was laying in bed, so weak and nauseous...and I could hear my daughter SOBBING for me in the kitchen. I was too weak to get out of bed and comfort her! I felt her love and it broke my heart.

      In Paris, while having lunch, I was so animated that God got us there, and I grinned and said to my daughter, SO GLAD TO BE ALIVE...then I told her that, on Christmas Eve, as weak as I was, my wonderful husband bundled me up, put my boots on, and took me for a ride to look at the Christmas lights and that was a big highlight of my Christmas.

      Suddenly, while talking, I looked at her and she burst into tears. When you see your grown child weeping for you, even 8 months later, it is overwhelming to feel such love and adoration. So, all this being said, I guess I'm just saying, to be loved by your children that way is one of the greatest gifts of all.

      Your mom and dad were blessed to have you and your genuine love, up to the end of their lives. YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY with the grandkids!

      Love Sparklea :)

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      Frank Atanacio 3 years ago

      wow Faith this hit its target in so many different levels.. you even had great hubs back when I didn't know you :)

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Sparklea,

      I am so sorry sweetie, I missed your wonderful comment here from four weeks ago!!! Wow, please forgive me. I will need to go back and check all of my hubs to make sure I haven't missed any, as I make it a point to comment on each and every comment left.

      Thank you for leaving such heartfelt comments here. I remember you going through such an ordeal sweet friend, and I was praying so hard for you, for I know it was a long health issue with much suffering to endure.

      I was so thrilled when I found out that you were able to go to Paris with your loving daughter. What a blessing. God is so good.

      Back in November and December of last year was when my mother's health was starting to make a turn for the worse. I wrote about my trip to see her across state lines on the Veterans Day holiday where angels intervened and then in a Christmas spreading hublove article where right in the middle of that time she went on to her new home to be with the Lord. So, Christmas will not seem the same without seeing her, but I know I will get to see her soon.

      It is difficult to lose a parent, but I praise God for Him blessing me with the sweetest mother on the planet, as I always would say and for her to live to be 84, just four days after we celebrated her birthday all together. And I know that was a blessing from the Lord too. My dad died a long time ago from a stroke.

      I see that Frank commented below, which I noticed this morning, and then saw your comment here. Again, I apologize.

      God bless you. In His Love Always, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Frank,

      Always great when you stop by to read! Glad you dug this one up from six months ago. Thank you so much for the nice compliment. Well, I have been on HP for 17 months now and, to me, some of my best hubs are the ones I had written initially when I joined, or they have the most meaning to me.

      I think you knew of me six months ago, and this one may have just slipped by you, but I am glad you found it now.

      Have a great weekend.

      Hugs, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Oh, PS, Frank,

      Speaking of reading older writes, the other night I went back and looked up some of your older work and commented and shre. They were awesome.

      Hugs, Faith Reaper

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      Sparklea 3 years ago from Upstate New York

      Faith, no problem! I have discovered a hub where there were FOUR comments made MONTHS ago, and I must not have been notified, or something, for I DO try to respond also. I get behind but I always do reply. You are so kind, and I know there is not one speck of inconsiderateness (is there such a word:)? in your heart. God bless, Sparklea :)

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      You are so kind, Sparklea, and if it is not a word, we will say it is now : )

      Hugs, Faith Reaper

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      Jackie Lynnley 3 years ago from The Beautiful South

      Just stopped by to share, you and your dad have the very same smile. So cute.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Thank you Jackie... you are most kind. I am wondering what was up with my hair and I see that was back in the day before they invented pampers lol : )

      Hugs

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Okay now, maybe the browser won't freeze up after I reply and lose it all again....lol...

      Loneliness from social isolation is worse than feeling alone in a group. I've been isolated from social relationships, to a degree. I had people around, but none I could call friends

      I have high blood pressure as well, but I believe it is from a combination of family history, stress, and a need for more exercise (which I've been rectifying).

      Last, I think it makes sense to be an introvert and still be unshy and open to others. I am the same way. There are times, Ive been more introverted than other times, but I woyld not co sider myself without some extroverted qualities, depending upon the venue. HP is a happy medium, though - alone time and still able to reach out to others. ;-)

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      lovedoctor926 3 years ago

      Faith, you were such a cute baby. I love the picture of the dog too. Thank you for sharing this wonderful story. I've read about PTSD and how people use alcohol to cope with their demons. I agree that any time a person suffers from a health condition, it starts to take a toll on their family as well. My escape is reading, working out at the gym, relaxing in the sauna and working on crossword puzzles. Don't worry my family is dysfunctional too. Lol. I love my alone time, I don't have to worry about having to come home and cook and the best part I don't have to report to anyone so being single and w/o kids allows me that freedom. On the other hand, I have also felt the pangs of loneliness and is not a good feeling, but God is the only one who can fill that void. It's good to hear that your husband is making a speedy recovery. hehehe. don't get rid of the recliner.. they're comfortable. I'll tell you one thing, I bought a Queen sized Serta Beauty Rest about three yrs ago & it was the best investment that I've ever made. I don't know what it is about this mattress, but when I'm typing from my laptop I fall asleep. It's good to know that you were in the Honor roll as well as the National Honor Society. I also had very high marks in school, but usually A's and B's. Have a good night & a wonderful week ahead. Don't work too hard:) I'm thinking of the fine men in your city. lol

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi there, you again, dearest Shan,

      LOL, I have been experiencing the same...trying to do all from a phone, and sometimes things go wrong! Well, I am glad you did not give up on commenting here.

      Thank you so much for sharing here and I feel like we are very much alike in many ways as you have described. Yes, I was so shy growing up and then it wasn't until way later in life that the Lord revealed to me just who I was in His eyes, and that I had a voice and have no reason to feel inhibited about things. The people who know me now, when I tell them how very shy and introverted I used to be, are truly are shocked. LOL So, no shutting me up now. However, as you state, I am both at times and in certain settings, which there is nothing wrong with that, as you state, a happy medium.

      Yes, loneliness from social isolation is such a painful and terrible thing to have to endure. Most likely, all of us have experienced the other of being in a room and still feeling unconnected, just knowing, as you state here, not really true friends.

      Well, sweetie, I am glad all of this makes sense and, yes, alone time is oh so good! : )

      Hugs to you and yours this day and I am truly blessed you stopped by for a visit here this night.

      God bless, Faith Reaper

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Yes, having experienced both, I would say the later kind is easier to deal with and to shake off. But, that's the beauty of a relationship with God. He never fails to be there.

      So, happy to have a chance to get to know you.

      People like you are true blessings. I am grateful for your thoughts and prayers. I am convincwd the prayers of others are part of the reasons I am feeling so much better than even a week ago. That peace that passes understanding- it's amazing! How I wish so many others can find it, too. It's like the calm after the storm while perhaps it's just a lull.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Marlene (lovedoctor),

      Thank you so much for your kind comments here. Yes, that PTSD is really pure suffering and back in the day, people did not even talk about such, or did not know what to call it, as they do this day. People are more open to it for, sadly, so many young men in our military today are really suffering tremendously with PTSD and now, in this time, the world is more aware of such and they can get help.

      It was so common back then, for veterans coming home from war to just not speak about what they went through and keep their pain internalized and there was no one to really help them (except God), so they thought. Nowadays, all is seen in front of the whole world and at least they speak about PTSD and seek treatment for such.

      However, no matter what, it does have it affects on the entire family for sure. Yes, God can surely heal in all areas, as I have truly experienced such and have been set free from all chains that bind.

      hehehe well, I guess we will keep the recliner or maybe need a new one in its place. Well, of course, one needs her beauty rest and that Serta Beauty Rest mattress sounds like heaven. Yes, I think I hid in those books back then, and that is the only reason for the good grades, just for being so very shy! LOL Well, I do not get out into the actual city much, just drive to work and then head back to the small town life. Sadly, the city in which I work now has really gotten so dangerous and that is why we moved way out, just for peace and serenity. It is worth it to me.

      Our pastor gave a really good sermon this day and it covered a lot, but he did touch on the fact that in our relationships, we truly need to be selfless and he made a profound statement, at least to me, that what he had prayed about wanting in a wife (he has a lovely wife and four children), but before meeting her, he has this list of all he wanted in a wife (he is funny at times, but genuine) and the most important thing at the top of the list was that he wanted someone who was more in love with God than with him! Wow, and he went on to explain that when that is the case, God is front and center, all relationships are better all around, it just has a ripple effect. I think they just went live on podcast or something with the sermons, but I'll have to check.

      Always so nice when you stop by for a visit and chat about life : )

      Hugs and love to you and I hope you have a really great week,

      Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Aw, Shan, those are such beautiful comments you have shared here. I am so glad you have visited here this night, as I have truly received a blessing. You have a precious heart and love for God. Makes me smile!

      I am so happy, too, to get to know you. Thank you for saying such. Oh, I have not one bit of doubt that prayers are powerful and effective and I am so glad you are feeling that sweetest peace, His peace, that peace that truly surpasses all understanding. It is all of that sweetie.

      Hugs and love to you and yours for continued peace in these storms in life,

      Faith Reaper

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      Yves 3 years ago

      This article struck home for me - because of my dear mother who died at the age of 60. She had lived, for many years, with high blood pressure, a bad heart, and diabetes. I saw through your story and the song you shared how my mother had lived with loneliness and isolation for too many years, and how, ultimately, this affected her health. However, due to her sad life, she had compassion in spades, and she was always available to lend a helping hand - even for strangers. She never spoke of her feelings, so I didn't know what was going on. Sadly, I now see quite clearly that her heart was broken, and thus, she died.

      I feel badly for your father, who I am sure was only trying to survive as best he knew how. I admire that you had nothing but kind words to say about both of your parents, even though you also suffered greatly due to isolation. You have done well for yourself, never giving up hope, and finding strength in the Creator.

      God bless.

      (Up & beautiful)

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hello savvydating,

      So nice to meet you! Thank you for leaving such profound comments here. Aw, God bless you sweetie, and am so very sorry about your mother. Living a life of loneliness and isolation is so very devastating on one's heart. I am glad you shared that she was still able to help others through her sadness.

      Yes, back then, if they knew of PTSD, then they surely did not know how to cope with such, and it was never talked about as they do today. Really sad, but with God, He can make us brand new, and our hearts can actually be healed and changed forever.

      Thank you for your kindness in your commenting and, yes, I remember the Lord with me at all times growing up, I could feel His presence always. Then after leaving home, of course, I had to do my own thing, as we do, but now I am so glad to have that true and intimate relationship with my Lord God. It is so freeing to have such great peace that only He can provide and then we are able to be just exactly who it is He planned for us to be in this life.

      Thank you for your visit here this night and sharing, for I did receive a blessing and I do so appreciate the votes up.

      God bless you too,

      Faith Reaper

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Faith Reaper, in the past I've had similar living situations. One time in particular I was pregnant and had two other toddlers. The company around was not that in which I'd keep. Drugs and poor living choices and isolation in an emotional sense from my husband. Now is not much different in some respects. There are drugs and crazy things hsppening around here. There is tension between myself and my spouse, and anger in my children. It's not easy. But school.has started and the behavior is starting to get back under control. They are no longer so bored, restless, and isolated.

      There are more living this way than I would've expected. A nice couple beside us and a family on the other side with four adults and two toddlers and an infant. These people will sit together outside and sometimes we join them. My son has his first best griend with the two-year-old.

      I share because there is laughter and joy and I love that. You can't beat that! I find it so eady to rely on humor even through hard times. Though an overall positive attitude can be hard to maintain in certain situations, I truly believe quality of life is in a person's attitude, therefore I know there is always joy to be found, even if it wanes for awhile.

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      FlourishAnyway 3 years ago from USA

      There is so much psychological research to support your perspective -- social support is enormously important to well-being as well as physical health. I appreciated learning more about your family history and upbringing. Thanks for sharing.

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      Rosemary Amrhein 3 years ago from Boston, MA

      Faith, you are SOOO right - I solation leads to lonliness and lonliness kills! I realize this clearly and I believe now, that I need my time with people and also my time apart- a healthy balance!

      God bless, miss you

      Rose :)

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Dear Shan,

      I am so glad to know that you have found laughter through the many trials of this life sweetie. You are such a strong and wise person and please never give of hope for a brighter tomorrow, for I know you already know to claim His promises in Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans for hope and a future."

      We truly are to live in this very day and look for that which you have done, and finding laughter. How beautiful. What a profound thing... for you are living to do just that and that will get you through. I know you also already know that we are not to worry about tomorrow, for this day has enough troubles.

      I do know that those who are stuck in the past, who have not been set free, can develop deep depression. Then those who worry about the future, have great anxiety.

      God bless you for living in this present day and searching for something and finding laughter! Wow, now that is a testimony right there sweetie.

      I will step up my prayers for you and your precious family; however, I can already tell you are all going to be just fine.

      Hugs and much love to you and yours,

      Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi FlorishAnyway,

      I do so appreciate your visit to my hubs this night! Thank you so much for leaving an insightful comment to add much to the subject of this hub.

      I am glad you appreciated my sharing here in this hub and I thank you for reading me.

      Blessings, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Rose (Blondey),

      So great to see you here this night! I have missed you too, as well as your wonderful poetry. Thank you so much for adding your insight here as to isolation and just how deadly it is for sure!

      Yes, a good balance is healthy.

      I will have to see if I have missed some of your amazing poetry.

      God bless you too, Faith Reaper

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      lovedoctor926 3 years ago

      Dear Faith,

      Hope everything is well with you & yours. Sorry for the late response. I tried to reply to this comment a few minutes ago and it suddenly disappeared from my screen. This has happened to me before.

      You're a very intelligent woman, no doubt. You also have a heart of steel. You have been through so many challenges and you're still standing strong.

      I think you did the right thing by moving out. It's better to be safe than sorry. Wow, that was a good sermon. The pastor is funny, but God heard his prayers. Not only did he find a good wife, but also want who loves the Lord more than him. Nice song by the way. Just wrote the Psalm25 scripture down to meditate. I just noticed that I had left you a comment 6 months ago. lol. have a good night my friend. Hugs, Doc

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      lovedoctor926 3 years ago

      but also one I meant not want.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Doc,

      Oh, you never have to worry about responding late, as I am just now able to get on here this day so late too, you know, life .... : )

      That happens to me all the time too, about the comment disappearing, but I found out that really it is not, sometimes, if you actually clicked saved, it will show up. Just go back out and click on the hub again, and it should show up... these things are tricky sometimes.

      Aw, thank you sweetie. Yes, I love that song and that scripture too and so glad you are meditating on it.

      Yes, this hub was shared by my friend and now a lot more comments are coming in, and you are welcome however many times : ) I do that a lot too, read something more than once. I cannot believe I wrote this six months ago, where does the time go? Here it is September!

      I knew what you meant sweetie.

      Have a lovely night too.

      Hugs, Faith Reaper

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      Devika Primić 3 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

      Incredible indeed you have faced up to many challenges and still going good. You are greater than yourself and so wonderful at heart.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Devika,

      I am so sorry that I just came across this comment! Thank you so much for reading and I appreciate your kind comment as always.

      God bless,

      Faith Reaper

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      CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

      Very interesting Faith.

      I just watched a medical show on heart disease that's caused by a broken heart. I worked in estates for many years and would often witness the death of a second spouse closely after the first. It was eerie, but apparently there is a real explanation for it. Broken-Heart Syndrome or disease, causes the heart to become enlarged from an emotional condition of grieving. It can lead to a heart attack if not caught.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Crafty,

      Thank you for digging this one up and reading. Wow, thank your for you insightful comment which adds much to this subject of this hub!

      I have seen that happen before in lifetime marriages when one spouse dies, the other spouse dies within a short time afterwards. My dad died long ago, and my mother lived to be 84, just four days after we celebrated her birthday last Christmas (2012). So, in her case, she lived 20-something years longer than he did, but of course, his health was so bad.

      Hugs,

      Faith Reaper

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      Joanna Chandler 2 years ago from On planet Earth

      Very interesting hub Faith , thanks for taking us to that private side of your life. I am sorry to hear about your dad's condition but i guess that is what war do to a man after he have fought . You know i often think of wars I've just read and watch documentaries etc it is truly something horrible to witness. Indeed you will suffer after its over it affects people's mental, physical and psychological psyche.

      Recently was my country's independence August 31st and they were letting out shots from the canon it was so loud and scary that some people was in take off mode. I was wondering how on earth did people survived the wars because they were hearing this all day, with sirens, bombs, explosions etc. I believe back then after the war psychiatrists made lots of money. People seriously could not have been normal.

      So i understand your dad's situation though i did not know him personally. You pictures are cute when you were small and i am glad you still have memories to look back to even though your daddy is gone. What's up with your facial in the first pic lol, what were you crying for lol.

      Have a wonderful day :)

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Yes, Jo, soldiers suffer much and long, even when there are no outside wounds or scars, and those who suffer from PTSD due to their minds being battled-scarred truly suffer. I tried to comment back on my short lunch break, but I messed up my comments trying to comment via my phone. Whew, glad to be home to relax a bit after a hard and long work day.

      God bless all of our soldiers.

      Peace and love to all

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      John Hansen 2 years ago from Queensland Australia

      What a beautiful hub Faith. PTSD is an ever increasing problem with our ex service men and women, as is addiction to alcohol and the like as a result. This is a very touching story of your own family's personal experience and the effect of loneliness. Voted up and sharing as well as placing a link on my "loneliness" hub.

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Wow, John, you did find it!

      Thank you so much for your kind comments here. Yes, PTSD just was not heard of back then and the vets just were left alone to suffer with their demons and they did not talk about it either like they do today. I am so glad for the Wounded Warrior Project they have and others like it to help our young soldiers returning from war nowadays.

      Yes, it was difficult to watch someone suffering growing up, but we all turned out well. My dad would have a lot of good months and kind of go on spells with the bad days.

      Oh, wow, John, you are so kind to link this one to your hub on loneliness! I would love to link your hub here too, if that is okay.

      I appreciate the vote up and sharing.

      Bless you

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      jaydene 2 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

      Hi, I just wanted to say that I am having a deep problem with loneliness

      that and depression. I moved five months ago and i have no friends here. and the Loneliness is affecting me to the point of my feeling ill. I am also single. My biggest part of the day is doing a few things so i can get my mind off of it. so far it only two hours in the day that are manageable.

      yes i can see why it would cause early death.

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Oh, I am so sorry, dear Jaydene, that you are suffering from loneliness!

      Please seek help, as I am no professional. I can understand moving to a new place and not having friends. I hope you have a pet and, if not, please see about getting one if you are able to do so. Also, it is important no matter how you are feeling to get out and maybe explore a bit of your new surroundings. Plus, I am sure there are plenty of groups to join in whatever area of interests you have, painting, book club, exercising with others (very good to release the good hormones), riding bikes, going to the park or museum, just go to places where there are people.

      You certainly are so young not to get out and about and be around others and I am sure once you do so, you would make new friends quickly.

      I do not know what spiritual beliefs you have, but if there is a women's group at a local church or a prayer group, that would be a good start.

      Plus the city in which you moved, may actually have a newcomers' club. I know when I am down and out, if I volunteer somewhere and help others, I always come back feeling 100% better. It is funny how that works, for we go out weeping but come back rejoicing.

      I linked Jodah's hub here and he has some advice in his hub if you want to read it.

      I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

      Hugs and peace

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      jaydene 2 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

      Thank you for the response, those are a lot of good ideas. I do whatever i can to break that desolate feeling. i really have to push, as i have no energy. tomorrow i am going to make some calls, to see what it is i go to and get myself out.

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      I am glad you are going to make some calls. Can you call a family member or an old friend maybe? Yes, having no energy is a sign of depression and you can be treated for that for sure. Right now, you can maybe find a funny movie or read something funny. If you are living in a well-populated area, which it looks like you are, I am sure if you get out a little more, you will soon find new friends. Hey, maybe there are some hubbers who always are from British Columbia and you can have a meet up. I have heard of hubbers who live in the same area, meeting to have lunch or whatever and they have such a great time. Just a thought.

      Hugs

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      Moral Man 2 years ago

      Im a lonely, mentally ill, mentally disabled, depressed man with OCD and who suffers from nightmares. Im physically ugly and can't get a girlfriend. My life has gotten worse with the deaths and losses of each loved one. I have lost beloved pets and beloved family members.

      In 1988 I lost a beloved dog from old age. She was a small mixed breed. I was too young at the time to be able to take good care of her. Her death was painful for me.

      In 1993, 1994, and 1995, I lost several small pet lizards to disease. I lost a Bibron's Gecko, a Tokay Gecko, and three Green Anoles. The Green Anoles were friendly and loveable for a Reptile.

      In 1996 I lost a pet Budgerigar when I left him outside unsupervised in the yard. A cat must have sneaked up on him and carried him away when my back was turned.

      In December 2007, at Christmas time, my pet Cockatiel died suddenly. There was external bleeding from his beak, eyes, and head. I suspect the cause was an aneurysm, one of the cruelest, most painful, and most lethal diseases.

      Since 2008, I have been feeding the wild Pigeons outside my yard, and some of them have become tame enough to perch on me. They are pets to an extent. I named one of them Cher Ami. She had distinct coloration and was one of the tamer individuals. In 2011, I discovered her body in a nearby parking lot. I didn't want her to get run over by cars and I feared that someone would just throw her in a garbage can. So I decided to bring her to my yard where I buried her in a hole. It was another horrible experience for me.

      Currently I have two more small pet birds, a Diamond Dove from Australia, and a White winged Parakeet native to South America. Fortunately they're both still young and healthy but they will age and die too someday. I wont get any other pets after they are gone because the loss and grief is too great. How much more loss and grief can I take?

      My poor father died in 2011 after a long history of health problems. Dengue fever from a mosquito bite, kidney stone, heart attacks and anginas, toothache, hernia, stroke, and heart failure.

      My poor beloved mother died recently of a stroke in February 2015. She had another stroke six years ago and suffered from migraine headache since 1986 or 1987. That's 27 or 28 years of immense suffering. Nature is cruel, ruthless, merciless. I love my mother more than anyone else. She was a kindhearted loving person. My heart is broken, Im intensely sad and intensely angry. Im angry at disease. Disease is a crime. If we don't find cures to these horrible diseases soon, then happiness in this world isn't going to be worth a can of beans. Diseases ruin and destroy lives and snatches away our loved ones. My life is a hell and live in mental torment. Im all alone in the house and the void is painful. Its deprivation and privation to have to live without your loved ones. I fear that I will never see them again.

      While Im Christian, my faith has weakened, and diseases are one of the biggest reasons why. It just doesn't make sense for a loving God to allow such horrors as heart disease, stroke, aneurysm, malaria, cancer, ebola,etc. Good people and good innocent animals are often the victims of diseases. Its cruel and unfair.

      I fear that there is no afterlife for our pets. Even if there is an afterlife for our pets, it maybe on a different plane of existence or in a different location than for humans. I have to have my beloved pets and my belover family together with me in the same place in the next life. My fear is that either my pets will be missing in the afterlife or my family will be missing in the afterlife, and in the worst case scenario, both my pets and my family will be missing in the afterlife. I also fear that I will end up in hell to be physically tortured forever. Remember that Christian Fundamentalists believe that billions of people are ending up in hell for one reason or another. Mary Baxter, Bill Wiese, David J. Stewart, and Terry Watkins describe the tortures in hell as having fire, worms, a sewer like stench, giant spiders and giant snakes, suffocation or inability to breathe, being mutilated and sliced by demons, and being buried alive inside a claustrophobic, coffin like environment. Imagine being buried alive forever inside a closed coffin and burning in fire at the same time. This is monstrous, sadistic, inhuman, unimaginable cruelty, torture, and horror infinitely vastly worse than any horror movie. Im going to end up in a mental hospital from fear.

      My life is mental torment. I live in endless fear.

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      Vickiw 2 years ago

      Jaydene - my dear friend Faith Reaper, and another, Marcoujor asked for me to respond here. I also live in British Columbia, on the Sunshine Coast. We moved here about 2 years ago, and it was a shock to really realise the stress of moving from a familiar environment and my friends, community activities. I have suffered several major losses in life, one being the sudden death of my husband, many years ago, and I've never forgotten the incredible loneliness, being in a new country, no family, no one to talk about my loss.

      I vowed at that time to do something for others who might feel the same sense of loneliness.

      I led a very popular bereavement group in my last community. When I had to leave there and move here, I started an on line bog about losses and continuing to live afterwards. Faith Reaper is so correct when she says how it affects your health. I had severe, life threatening problems after that move. It was as though my body just said, "that's enough"!

      But I'm now very happy here, and have maintained contact with previous friends. I have also published a book, called Safe Harbor. It has had several write ups. It is a workbook on the steps you can take to overcome the loneliness you're presently feeling. It is available to subscribers as a free download pdf. I also publish twice a week on many aspects of loss, even funny thoughts. It's not doom and gloom.

      I believe HP will forgive me this once on self promotion, as this is not meant in any way for that, but I feel your cry for help. Please, if you wish, feel free to contact me at my website, www.warnerwords.weebly.com. It's also on my profile here.

      All the very best wishes to you, my friend, and I'm a hugger, so sending you a big one.

      Thanks for letting me hog your space, Faith. Hugs to you and Mar too.

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      Vickiw 2 years ago

      Moral Man

      I feel so sorry for all your life losses. Please do yourself a very big favor and know that it's time for you to seek professional help, starting with a physician, who can refer you appropriately. There are some times when just too much in the way of loss will not be solved on your own.

      It would be useful if you could take a copy of your comment with you. It sometimes makes its easier to talk to your physician. I've done that before!

      Work proactively with this, and best wishes to you!

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      Maria Jordan 2 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

      Dear Theresa,

      Thanks so much for asking me to visit this post again. The beauty of our community is that we are all here to support each other with our writing - and at times, the writing brings out universal feelings such as grief, loss, despair and depression.

      I'm honored that our colleague and friend, Vicki Warner, has also stopped by and totally agree with her comments to both jaydene and Moral Man.

      At times, just bouncing our issues off objective and caring people can steer us in the direction of the local support and help we need.

      I am also wishing you both all the best in the times to come. Hi to Faith and Vicki too...a peaceful day to all, Maria

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      Moral Man 2 years ago

      Thank you for those kind words. I have been seeing therapists for the last 26 years and Im on medication for the last 24 years. OCD, depression, mental illness, incompetence, heart disease, and stroke run in my family genes. Nature is cruel beyond what we can imagine. Nature is monumentally, unimaginably, immeasurably cruel, as are human beings. Diseases, loneliness, depression, mental torment, mass starvation, crimes, wars, genocides, alienation, pollution, grievous accidents, birth defects, miscarriages continue to torment and kill day after day,year after year, decade after decade, century after century. All of history is a horror movie and horror novel ruled by the Devil. Life on earth can only exist through predation, diseases, disasters, starvation, and death. Its a cruel, coldblooded system, and its immoral, amoral, Devilish and Satanic.

      Im looking for quality mental hospitals. The quality ones are unaffordable while the ones which are free are disgusting, neglected, misrun, mismanaged. My sister and her family are supporting me. If I didn't have them I couldn't survive. They cannot take the place of my mother. My mother loved me unconditionally despite my flaws and disabilities. My mother had a kind heart which is rare in this world. Im not even interested anymore in getting a girlfriend. I just want my mother. My family and my pets come first. The loss of my beloved mother has been the most painful. I have a love and bond with my mother that's unbreakable. I think its inexecusable to have her suffer and die from a cruel, horrible disease and to have her snatched away from me. Disease is an inexecusable evil. Disease is a crime. Im now a lost soul. I have to live the rest of my life without my beloved mother. Theres a horrible sunken feeling in my heart. Nothing hurts me more and nothing angers me more and nothing offends me more than when a good person suffers and dies and when a good, innocent animal suffers and dies. Theres no way a loving, merciful God can be in total charge of this world. The Devil is just as much in control of this world as God. Why does it seem like the Devil is winning?

      Intense grief and sadness is my life. I feel I have been born into a horrible world without my consent. The world is a hellhole and horror movie.

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Dear Moral Man,

      I see that my good friends Vicki and Maria have been standing in the gap for me while I was away at work in the city this day. I have an hour commute each way during the week. I just arrived home and read your comments.

      I am so sorry about your great losses, especially that of your beloved mother. I, too, lost my mother in 2012, just five days before Christmas. She was the sweetest, most loving and kind person I have ever known on this earth, so I can understand. I feel blessed that I had such a mother in this life for I know many do not. I, too, have lost many beloved pets over my lifetime, and it is so very hard as they give us that unconditional love. You mentioned that our pets may not be in Heaven, but I believe they will be there for we already know there are animals in Heaven as it is told in God's Word. I even wrote a hub about whether or not we will see our beloved pets in Heaven. I don't know, but I just believe that we will.

      I am sorry you are suffering so and having to endure such loss. I think Vicki and Maria have given some great advice here, and I agree that you should take a copy of your comments here to your physician.

      Peace and much love to you,

      Theresa aka Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Dearest Vicki,

      I do so appreciate you stepping in and providing such great advice and insight based on your personal experiences and knowledge. I do hope that Jaydene and Moral Man will seek professional help and follow your advice.

      You're the best!

      Peace and blessings always

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Hi my sweetest friend, Maria,

      Thank you for checking in here. Yes, it is a wonderful and supportive community filled with love and compassion. I totally agree with Vicki's comments to both Jaydene and Moral Man.

      Peace and much love to all

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      Missy Smith 19 months ago from Florida

      As I pass by comments on this hub, I can tell you have touched a lot of people with your words, as you have me.

      To read it and look at your pictures of your dad, I know this had to be somewhat of a difficult story to write. However, in another way, I bet it was freeing and comforting to you to share it with others.

      Your dad looked so happy when he was with you, and I feel his family were his happiness, even though things can happen to us in life that unfortunately steals that happiness.

      You did an awesome job explaining PTSD, and the effects it has on the person who has it. It was also important that you made it aware that the whole family will suffer from this type of disease.

      Everything in this article was heartfelt and very beneficial to ones who may not know much about PTSD. You are very talented Faith Reaper. :)

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      Faith Reaper 19 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Missy, I'm on lunch break and saw this pop in my phone. I know ...I am so surprised at the response to this hub, epecially being that I almost deleted this hub! I can't believe I did not link my related poem about being a soldier's child; will correct that when I arrive home this evening. Yes, that photo of him smiling is good for me to have to know he was happy then. PTSD certainly affects the whole family. I wish they had known more back then like they do now. Thank you so much for reading and leaving a most generous comment. You are so kind. Blessings

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      Missy Smith 19 months ago from Florida

      I'm glad you didn't delete it, and I'll be waiting to read your poem. :)

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      Faith Reaper 19 months ago from southern USA

      Thank you, Missy. Oh, I just have to move the poem under related hubs as it is already published. I am on my phone now waiting at the pedicure place ...

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      Faith Reaper 19 months ago from southern USA

      I moved my groups around and it is showing up now in my More in this Series hubs, Missy.

      Blessings

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