Can I really quit smoking? Can you?
Okay...here it goes this time I'm quitting for good? Yup I did it I made the ultimate new years resolution...I planned on quitting smoking. I dumped the ashtray, washed the curtains and planned to start fresh, clean smoke free. This year I plan on showing my kids I can do anything. I can quit!? I mean yeah. I CAN QUIT? So now your asking...so did I quit?
I'm trying...Yup I said t out loud, I'm a puss***...First day one puff...next day no problem. A little crusty...frustrated no big deal. I'm good I can do it..Day three, stuck in traffic then lost in an unknown city....screaming inside practically sobbing like a child...I broke down and bought a small pack...Inhaled without regret, coughed and hacked with great comfort...The guilt hit me later when I got home...I gave half the pack away and kept some just in case...Yeah just in case I find my self going crazy and ready to rip the head off any pleasant or none pleasant person who tends to even glance in my direction....I mean just in case right?
What is wrong with me I can quit?
So now that you know I'm a crazy person with serious tobacco addiction issues...I must confess I had two yesterday and one this morning....My quest although worthy is failing..But still I will keep trying because not only is this my resolution fr a new better me ...it's better for my health and better for my kids....but still it's hard, really hard.
So if your trying to quit to...your not alone...I'm not alone but when I'm craving one leave m the hell alone...LOLOL...
I just wanted to vent, something I rarely do....so please new quitters and old leave me a comment...I want to quit...I want to quit....
I WANT TO QUIT.............................I can do it..I hope! Can you..