Could a Concussion Have Triggered My Bipolar Disorder
I wasn't always like this. At one time in my life I was the happy go lucky kind. I saw the good in everything and everyone. Everything had a silver lining. I was not this shell of a person I have become. I was always walking around with a smile on my face and I rarely felt depressed and hardly ever felt anxious. I had friends, an awesome boyfriend who I later married and a great job with awesome co-workers that were more family than co-employees to me. I woke up every morning with a purpose and most of all I laughed! I had a great life! One that anyone would be happy with. I loved to read, go for walks, go out for drinks with my friends and boyfriend, go to movies and loved to cook. It was a passion of mine.
Somewhere along the way I lost my ability to enjoy any of these things. I have become the total opposite of the person I once was. The doctors claimed that high stress could trigger the bipolar disorder and that could be the reason I didn't have any of the characteristics of the disorder until later in life. I could never really quite pinpoint a time when it happened because it all seemed so gradual. I didn't even notice the changes in me. Then today I read a fantastic article on here about TBI Traumatic Brain Injury and how it can change a persons personality. All of a sudden it hit me like a brick! Back in my happier days while going into work, it was a particularly nasty day, snow and sleet covered the parking lot and made the floors wet as fellow employees tracked it in with them. I was running late and rushing through the building. I opened the heavy wooden door and slid on a slick patch of tile and fell hard cracking my head open on the door. I sat on the floor dazed and confused not able to move or even comprehend what happened. Blood started pouring down my face and a horrified co worker ran and called 911. I can remember feeling like I was going to faint and had a horrible time answering the paramedics questions. My head hurt like it never had before and they took me to the hospital for a cat scan and 12 stitches. They said that I sustained a sever concussion and sent me home. I lay in bed for 4 days unable to move. My head pounded and I was just so tired and felt like I was pinned down to the bed. The ringing in my ears was terribly irritating and I could barely focus on anything. Even when I returned to work on day 5 I still felt terrible and very confused. My thoughts were cloudy and I had a really hard time concentrating. Thinking back now I remember a friend of mine that was also a co-worker mentioned to me that I didn't seem myself lately. That I hardly smiled anymore and that I seemed to be short tempered lately. I hadn't noticed and dismissed it. Now looking back I can't help but think that my bipolar disorder started after the fall. This new discovery does not change anything. It is what it is, but I finally have answers to questions that have been bothering me for years. Now I wonder how many other sufferers out there might have experienced a similar incident and if it caused their bipolar to bloom as mine has. I know there is no way back to my true self, but at least knowing why it happened brings me peace.
Concussion and Mild Traumatic Brain Injury
Post Concussion Syndrome
Definition of Concussion
Traumatic Brain Injury
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