Depression: A Good Day Vs. A Bad Day
What is Depression?
Millions of people all over the world deal with depression every single day, these people come from all walks of life, and they are as ordinary as you or me. And despite what many people seem to think, people with depression don't have to have something wrong in their lives to feel depressed, it is a medical illness, made worse by circumstances, but not necessarily caused by them.
What Does Depression Look Like?
Depression looks like me, it might look like you, it could look like anyone you know. Depression does not discriminate, it doesn't care how much money you have or don't have. It doesn't care if you are a good person and it doesn't care if you can handle it or not, if depression wants you, you don't have a say in the matter.
1 in 4 people deal with a mental health problem in their lifetime, so you could talk to someone every single day and not know that they are dealing with depression (which is a good reason to be nice to everyone!) It could be your best friend, your kids school teacher, even your doctor.
Depression is Inconsistent
Life would also be a little bit easier with depression if things were a little more consistent, but they aren't. There are good days and there are bad days, days where getting out of bed is relatively easy, and other days when you genuinely would rather stop existing than have to face the outside world.
A Good Day
I can't speak for everyone, but in a good day I will feel, content, happy and up for a challenge. I get plenty of work done and am churning out articles, paying attention to detail and finding some good pictures to accompany them. I like editing the pictures, it's fascinating to see what you can do with some free software!
I will be productive, fairly positive and quite cheerful. I will make a nice dinner to a complicated recipe for my family, and maybe even bake a cake. I will go to bed feeling like I had a good day and ready for tomorrow.
A Bad Day
But then tomorrow comes, and tomorrow is a bad day, I wake up and I am still tired, so tired, but I know it won't make the tiredness go away if I go back to sleep. And besides, I can't, I have too much work to do. I sit, staring at a screen, trying to make words come, but it is pointless, and even if I do write something, I'm not happy with it.
My words are stupid, nobody cares about what I have to say, so why am I even bothering to write it? I hate editing pictures, it's time consuming and difficult.
The day is so long and I haven't accomplished much, it's pizza for dinner, I have had time to make something else, I just couldn't face the idea of someone not liking it, especially if I put some effort into it.
I am dreading going to bed, I lay there for ages, just feeling empty. When I finally do get to sleep I will awake up about seven or eight times, most of the time with bad dreams, I have about 30 nightmares a month. I wish I could take real sleeping pills, not this herbal nonsense, but the doctor won't prescribe me any because of my mental health state.
Everyone Has Good Days and Bad Days
Everyone's experience of good and bad days will be different to mine as depression is different for everyone.
I have been dealing with depression for around 17 years now, so I have learned to take advantage of a good day now, I get as much done as I possibly can because I don't know when I will get another one.
Talk to Someone
If you feel that you or someone you know might be depressed, talk to them or seek advice from a medical professional. It will make a huge difference to their lives. Even if you talk to someone and they don't do anything about it, they will at least know that someone cares about them enough to ask how they are and believe me, this can make all the difference.