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My Life of Depression and Bipolar

Updated on March 9, 2016

Before treatments holding my first born baby girl

This Is Me Now After Treatment for depression and bipolar disorder

My Life

Hi, I am a mother living with depression and bipolar disorder. I am writing this hub mainly as a way to get some things off of my mind that spin in my head constantly on a daily basis. You see I was diagnosed with depression when I was 21 years old right after I gave birth to my first daughter. At first, everyone thought it was postpartum depression because I was a young mother and plus I was newly married. But that actually was not the case you see I was not in a good relationship with my daughters father and I only married him cause I thought I was supposed to. My diagnosis was a major downfall for me I knew there had to be something wrong with me because I was always sad even when I held my baby which I adored to no end. So, they, at first, treated me for postpartum depression and I took my medicine like I was supposed to until one day my husband decided that he didn't think I needed it any longer and tossed it out. I went back to being just all around unreachable. I wouldn't talk to anyone. I had no friends and with where I was living, I had no family other than my husbands family. I had two more kids and stayed with him another 5 years before we divorced and I moved back home to my moms. Which was the best decision I could have made. My mom got me in to see the necessary doctors and got me put back on my depression medicines and see by then I was considered suicidal cause I had tried to kill myself a couple times. They later added diagnoses of Bipolar Disorder and gave me medicines for it as well. It has been an amazingly hard adjustment throughout the years for me and an amazingly hard roller coaster not only for my parents, but more so for my kids who have had to bare witness to all of y breakdowns and the attempted suicides that have happened throughout the years, but I can honestly say I am in a much better place now than I have ever been before and it is all thanks to my determination and faith that I was not gonna let anything tear me down.

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    • Victoria Watts profile imageAUTHOR

      Vic Watts 

      2 years ago from Metter, Ga

      Denise,

      Thanks! I feel that it is necessary to let others know what it is like to go through certain situations and if my stories can help others than I will gladly share them with the world so that they can.

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      Denise W Anderson 

      2 years ago from Bismarck, North Dakota

      Thank you for sharing your story with us. It is good to know that even professionals can make mistakes, and that we would do well to keep trying to get the help we need when something doesn't work out for us the way we think that it should. I am glad that you are in a better place now.

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