- Death & Loss of Life
How to let go?
Emotional pain involved by loss price it costs
Recently lost my best friend, father to our daughters the 1st man I fell in love with. We were on a break at the time of his passing, didnt stop us from seeing eachother everyday as I said he was my best friend. I just heard the news, looking back at it now he could have suggested go to sleep..lol..i dont really know however its what i did put myself directly to bed. it was as though my life with him continued on in my dreams only sub-conciously mixing in with living while sleeping..hope that made sense. The last dream though i will never forget i was so happy through it all even though the feeling in it was not the same as any of my other dreams with him. The look on his face was sad everytime i looked in his eyes. We ended up back at my house i was sitting on my bed talking to a friend with no actual noise coming out of my mouth he sat at a chair in front of a table. I looked up we made eye contact hanging up the phone i became so overwelhmed with sad emotion, heavy depressing. Hit with a ton of bricks in my own dreams couldnt breath. I knew in that moment i had to let him go the consequence if i didnt was not something i wanted for him. He never said one word i felt everything he was telling me. I did thats how my dream of him ended. i have experinced a couple times flashes of him laughing and smiling mostly laughing at us, meaning someone we both knew and myself were his entertainment.
Not a day goes bye that i dont burst into tears thinking about him.However i also have been reassured that he is happy, he feels no pain. Always looking out for everyone he loves with the same heart of gold he had before he past. The hardest part now is getting stuck in the between which is what i call the time it will be til we or me that is gets to see eachother again. Time heals all wounds. I hope this has helped even one person it helped me when i wrote it