Feeling Lost And Empty After An Alcoholic Stops Drinking Alcohol
MY STORY OF JUST HOW I FELT AFTER SURRENDERING TO MY DEMONS
Here is feeling lost and empty after an alcoholic stops drinking alcohol and my story and thoughts on just how I got through the torture.
I call this torture because alcohol was my life, my best friend, and something I thought I could never live without.
When I finally decided to stop drinking alcohol, just about three years ago, I felt lost and empty. When the start date of my sobriety came, I felt like I was losing everything in my life, but the fact is, I would of lost everything in my life if I didn't do something about my addiction to alcohol.
This life change was going to take some getting used to that was sure, but I had it in my mind that I have had enough and it was time to change my life around for the better, and that is exactly what I did and nothing and no one would change my mind to getting and staying sober. It was the best thing I could of ever done in my entire life and i am proud of myself as many others are. It makes you feel great that you can beat something that you have struggled with for a good part of your life.
I never realize when I stopped drinking alcohol that my life would be so different and enjoyable. See, I didn't think by quitting drinking would make life happier. I thought that anyone that didn't drink was a square and a boring person. Man was I ever wrong.
When I stopped drinking the first week or two I was a nervous wreck, shaky and didn't know what to even do with my hands because I was so used to having a beer in them all the time.
I had that lost and empty feeling in me because, a huge part of my life was missing and a part I depended on to give me that all mighty feeling of the buzz, that I might add, made me feel like crap the next morning, but that feeling never stopped me from not drinking the following day. I guess nothing would make anyone stop drinking alcohol unless that person was just sick of the life they have and said to them self, "enough is enough, I can't take this anymore."
That is what I said almost three years ago on October 27, 2009. I look forward to that day each year to pat myself on the back saying, "I have made it one more day and one more year clean and sober."
LIVING WITHOUT ALCOHOL
THE LINGERING DEMONS
I can say that even though I stopped drinking alcohol and living a life of sobriety the demons still are lingering in my body just waiting for me to screw up and take that one sip of alcohol that would send me in to a relapse for sure. I have learned to know my body better than ever since I have become sober.
I know for a fact, if I let the demons tell me what to do, such as, just have one drink, it won't hurt, I would be doomed. You have to be stronger than your addiction in order to beat it forever. Willpower, determination and the desire to get and stay sober is the key to my success of living a life of sobriety.
Don't feel lost or empty when you stop drinking alcohol. Be happy that you have beat your inner demons, and remember you are now in control of your body and mind and not the demons.
I know it is hard to leave something behind that has been a huge part of your life, but it is so possible, as you see what I have done.
Many people think that when they quit drinking alcohol the people they used to party with will think you are not the person you were before, and believe me, I have gone through that. These drinking buddies are not true friends because if they were they would be so supportive of you stopping drinking, and instead they look down on you that you have taken that first step to sobriety and they are just jealous they don't have the guts or the willpower to do what you have just done.
They want all their drinking buddies to go down with the ship all together. This is only my own opinion and what has happened in my life. I lost many so called friends when I stopped drinking alcohol. They are all out of my life and I truly think they are afraid to be around me, for they may think I will preach to them. and that would not be the case at all.
I will indeed mention to them that any of them can quit drinking like I did if they wish to live a long and happy life, but I will not push sobriety down their throat that is for sure. As you all know, you must want to change your life for you and on your own terms and not be forced into getting sober. It will not work that way, I know, I have been that route before and failed because I simply was NOT READY to be clean and sober.
The only lost and empty feeling you will have is not to have your crutch and your stomach will be empty of the poison will call alcohol. It too will pass and you will get over it as I did. Not a loss at all for me. I am enjoying my life now being clean and sober and will continue until my last breath and you and everyone else can do the same thing if you truly love and care about yourself that much.
Think about it and you might just enjoy this beautiful life we all call the life of sobriety!
MY eBOOK AND MY LIFE OF ALCOHOL ADDICTION
- My Life Of Alcohol Addiction: Peter Mark Bruno: Amazon.com: Kindle Store
My Life Of Alcohol Addiction: Peter Mark Bruno: Amazon.com: Kindle Store