Fighting through the Pain
About fifteen years ago I was diagnosed Bipolar. I have attempted suicide a few times many years ago. I was from what I have come to understand turned over to doctors probably because I was young and they had a sense of what I had just done. After I was looked at my the first set of doctors and psychologist I was diagnosed and put on medication. Ever since then it has been a fight and learning experience for me with this new condition. About three years ago I was homeless for about a year on the streets in a local city where I live and while out there many issues arose and were address. I finally was stabilized and thought things were going to return back to normal. This is where the story begins...
Fighting through the pain.
I returned home, back on meds and taking them on the intended times and doses which clinically I now deemed stable. Thank God! But there has been a new issue in my life. For over a year now I have been dealing with uncontrollable pain and side affects from this pain. Upset stomach and mood, lack of sleep, pain that causes kicking and screaming. Because of this the police were called once, but had doctors and specialist working on the problem. Now because of the fact that I am bipolar and have recently been in a large amount of trouble not to say past problems and run-ins with the law there is yet another issue that may be at hand. This pain I fear may have started further back then just this past year along with some effects attached to it. I don't know if this is something I need to delve deeper into or just allow it to fix it's self ( I hope), but the issue occurs with the being bipolar and what the problem may truly be.
Coming to Grips
I have been through it all with my current Health Situation, thinking it was over and feeling that it would never end. I am clueless to where or when this will truly be over, but I am hoping soon I can get on with my life and away from this place. I have many doctors by the way searching for an answer, but again we have found nothing and are at the end of the medical path. One thing I do have to say is whatever the problems is do whatever you can to stop it and don't quit like I have thought of doing many times till you can't go anymore. Hoping for a sweet road home.