Forgive Me, For I Know Exactly What I Do
An update on day 2: I've already made a mistake. However, I don't feel guilty and here's why: In my first entry, I explained that I would go Paleo "like," and make swaps that fit me best. Also, I firmly believe that you need to enjoy the the moment when you have it. Here' s my story:
I planned on eating dinner at my parents' house after my hair appointment since they live right in town. When I asked my mother what they were having for dinner, muscles sounded so great!
And they were. My stepfather has always been a great cook, and didn't fail on a dish of muscles and shrimp...over pasta.
I arrived a little later than expected so my family had already eaten, but they were joyously waiting at the table to just sit down, relax, and catch up. At this point, I can't not take the pasta. That would just be plain rude. So I put a tiny scoop in a small bowl and pour on some of the seafood. I see the bread seducing me, but purposely skip it.
When I sit next to my grandmother, she looks at my dish - not with a look of disgust but maybe disbelief? Is that the word I'm looking for?
"That's all you're going to take? That's not going to fill you up. I took a huge thing on my plate and I still wasn't full..."
How do you go about explaining lightly to grammy that you've decided to go "Paleo"? She would have looked at me like I had 9 heads.
"And you didn't take a piece of bread? Oh the bread was so good..."
And my mother in the background: "Oh yes, you need to take a piece of the bread. Ron, wasn't it so good?"
And seriously...I sit there, contemplating what to do. How ridiculous. Because none of them know my "decision" to make Paleolithic choices which just started...this week. So I do what any good daughter would do: I say nothing. I eat more pasta...and the bread.
Yes, Paleo gods...I have sinned. Will I gain two pounds from eating off track last night? I'll know after I weigh myself this afternoon.
My point here is that you need to just enjoy the time you have with your loved ones. When you have it, just embrace it because you don't know how much time you will have the next day. When grandma says eat the pasta and the bread, you eat the pasta and the bread. But then you wake up the next morning and get back on that track you stepped off from to smell the flowers.
*My grandmother is probably the most wonderful woman in the world. I know many might say that about their own, but I truly believe her soul is that of an angel. She is witty, strong hearted, understanding, considerate, wise, and truthful, never spiteful or begrudged. Always a prominent role model for me, she has taught me to love God and that it is okay to make mistakes sometimes. Repent but don't regret because it is unhealthy. Thanks, Grandma, for sharing the pasta and bread with me!