"Geez, You're Kind of Old Now!"
As I am finishing up one chapter of my life and starting a new one a lot of things come rushing to my mind and plague my thoughts. There is a scene in the movie Step Brothers that describes it perfectly. Brennan, played by Will Ferrell, is sitting in the therapist chair asking the most basic of questions. One of the questions was, “What do I wear when there is inclimite weather outside?” I found this quite funny, but realized that I would ask those same questions if I did not want to look helpless. Questions like that are the things that keep me up at night. Speaking of being up all night.
I am no stranger to being up at night. I have dealt with insomnia symptoms for more than four years but it does not hurt me. I just don’t need as much as sleep as everyone else. There is a downside to it though. No naps, ever, no caffeine past 4 p.m., no T.V. when I’m lying in bed to unwind. If I am going to sleep, I am going to sleep. On the other hand, I have a lot of time that most people don’t have during the day. A lot of time to think, exercise, and get stuff done.
I used to get upset when I would wake up before my alarm after only a few hours of sleep, even mad sometimes. I did not understand how all of these people were sleeping for hours and hours when I could barely get 5 on a good night. It took a little while to stop getting like that. Instead, now when I wake up I see opportunity. I see a headstart that most people don’t get. I get that very rare 75 degree weather in July because its 6 a.m. when I get up to run. I can cook breakfast instead of going to Micky D’s because I’m running late. What I have learned is that some people will think you are weird or crazy. Understandable for sure and I don’t blame you, but I think you’re weird too.
Now that you know all of that useless information I will return to my topic. How do you grow up? Is there a course for that? Does God wake you up one day and say “ Today is the Day!” If so I am still waiting on that day. My grandpa told me that he was 70 years old and still did not know what he wanted to do with his life. I guess I have a little more time. A lot of people go through mid life crisis, I call this my almost quarter life crisis.
I can wash clothes with the best of them, I can even fold them. I can cook a decent breakfast and dinner. I can even tie my shoes. But if you ask me if I am ready to live and do things on my own I would have to lie, like most of us would. I can pay bills, i think, but I would rather not have to deal with it.
As I get closer to my Military career I look forward to a lot of new things. My own money is one, but the other is furthering my knowledge and experience. Everyone needs a gut check right? Why not take the ultimate one? Hell, maybe they will teach me how to be a “Grown Up” or at least drill it into me. There is a lot of uncertainty in future, but my route is at least under construction.
© 2016 Alex Shermer