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Goodbye to my Addiction

Updated on March 3, 2011

Rehab Writings

This was an assignment given to me in rehab. The whole class was given this topic to write. "A goodbye letter to your addiction." They gave us about 10 minutes to write it and this is what I came up with. I'm not sure if I would have done better if given more time. Not having anytime to think about it like I usually do when I write forced me to put down my true gut feelings. I think this might help some people. So I've decided not to edit it but to publish it as I originally wrote it.

Goodbye Meth

To my addiction, specifically to Meth. This is the last thing I will ever say to you. I don't mean to come across rude but it's not like you've ever done anything to deserve my respect. Since the first day I met you, you've done nothing but lie to me. I came to you at the lowest point in my life. After I had lost my wife, my home, my job and the life that I was used to. I was vulnerable to say the least. Definitely not on top of my game. You saw that and you came along to take advantage of me. You reached out to me.

I remember the night my friends introduced me to you. You told me you could take my problems away, and that night you did I must admit. It was love at first sight to me. I thought you felt the same because at first you were good to me. You brought me a type of happiness I had never experienced.

Then I partnered up in business with you. You told me that you would not only bring me money, but fame, respect, love and oh yes, lots of sex! You did bring me all that, but like a deranged genie or an evil leprechaun every gift was a loss and every blessing was a curse. The money only went straight back to you. You made me famous, but only to snitches and police. Respect was false and only directed toward me when you were standing beside me. Lots of sex definitely until I went to prison., then it was three plus years of the safest sex possible.

That brings me to the biggest lie of all you told me. You said you would free me from all of my problems, and that you did. I no longer had the problem of where to live, how to dress, what to eat, or where to work. Because of you, the Kansas Department of Corrections took care of all of that for me.

Everything you gave me or did for me did nothing but hurt me. I guess you could say this letter is long overdue. It’s not like you deserve any goodbye’s anyway. If it wasn’t for this assignment you wouldn’t have gotten anything from me. Goodbye and good riddance! Kick rocks and bend a corner!

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      Jack West 4 years ago

      Sign up for a hubpages account then click on "start a hub."

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      crystal bailey 4 years ago

      How do I make one of these

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      50 Caliber 7 years ago from Arizona

      Jack, great job! I wrote that letter in January 1990, if you read my stuff and posts there is a bundle of bologna that I write about having a still, smoking weed, and there was a time I could not joke about checking out of life by getting high or low, it didn't matter what drug it was give me some I don't want to face the world or my past, present or future. It would take a hub how I did it, but the easiest way is to say I prayed a lot and worked hard at it and it has paid off. Life with Christ who paid our debts in full is how it goes and works.

      Thank you for sharing this revelation. Peace and much Love, dusty

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      Jack West 7 years ago

      Thanks sis. I love you too!

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      Tammy Bruner 7 years ago

      I love the way you think little brother. Knowing you like I do I can just hear this coming out of your mouth and it brings a great big smile to my face! I Love You!

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      Allen Werner 7 years ago from West Allis

      Jack, sometimes our first thoughts are the purest and truest. It's easy to hide them. Glad you didn't conceal them and glad you are free of your addiction! Praise Ye Yah! May the Lord keep you in His arms and guide you from now on! Peace

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      Jack West 7 years ago

      Thank you Karanda. The trick is realizing that I will never beat it. I have arrested it and made recovery possible by submiting my will and my life to Jesus Christ. Through His love and the support of my loved ones, friends, sponser and Narcotics Anonymous I now have over 9 months clean.

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      Karen Wilton 7 years ago from Australia

      Powerful writing here. I'm glad you chose not to edit. All the best on beating your addiction.

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