Goodbye to my Addiction
This was an assignment given to me in rehab. The whole class was given this topic to write. "A goodbye letter to your addiction." They gave us about 10 minutes to write it and this is what I came up with. I'm not sure if I would have done better if given more time. Not having anytime to think about it like I usually do when I write forced me to put down my true gut feelings. I think this might help some people. So I've decided not to edit it but to publish it as I originally wrote it.
To my addiction, specifically to Meth. This is the last thing I will ever say to you. I don't mean to come across rude but it's not like you've ever done anything to deserve my respect. Since the first day I met you, you've done nothing but lie to me. I came to you at the lowest point in my life. After I had lost my wife, my home, my job and the life that I was used to. I was vulnerable to say the least. Definitely not on top of my game. You saw that and you came along to take advantage of me. You reached out to me.
I remember the night my friends introduced me to you. You told me you could take my problems away, and that night you did I must admit. It was love at first sight to me. I thought you felt the same because at first you were good to me. You brought me a type of happiness I had never experienced.
Then I partnered up in business with you. You told me that you would not only bring me money, but fame, respect, love and oh yes, lots of sex! You did bring me all that, but like a deranged genie or an evil leprechaun every gift was a loss and every blessing was a curse. The money only went straight back to you. You made me famous, but only to snitches and police. Respect was false and only directed toward me when you were standing beside me. Lots of sex definitely until I went to prison., then it was three plus years of the safest sex possible.
That brings me to the biggest lie of all you told me. You said you would free me from all of my problems, and that you did. I no longer had the problem of where to live, how to dress, what to eat, or where to work. Because of you, the Kansas Department of Corrections took care of all of that for me.
Everything you gave me or did for me did nothing but hurt me. I guess you could say this letter is long overdue. It’s not like you deserve any goodbye’s anyway. If it wasn’t for this assignment you wouldn’t have gotten anything from me. Goodbye and good riddance! Kick rocks and bend a corner!