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Hold My Hand and Say Goodbye one last Time

Updated on January 21, 2016
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Hold my hand one more time. Walk with me into tomorrow, promise to love me forever. I’m just not ready to say goodbye.

Sadness influences behavior and empty promises disappoint our lives.

Desperation seeks solutions to answers unknown.

Deafening by the sounds which torment my heart a sudden anger pounds in the realm of truth with haunting memories of yesterday. A volcano erupts. My thoughts are leading, this is borrowed time. Crying inside and dying a little each day, with these broken wings.

Hold my hand and walk with me a little while.

Hold my hand

Alone in the dark, seeking the light, afraid to approach the memories come flooding back. It is impossible to escape. Softly, tenderly pressing the heart with captured artistry the lone bird sings a shallow song.

Slowly dancing to the rhythm of the beat, life is slowly slipping by. Passively seeking truth, looking for meaning and purpose, a love is left unfulfilled.

It’s time to move on, to get past the heartache. Knowing the world is a better place having had you in it.

Hold my hand for a little while and lead me to forgiveness.

Your shadow’s presence left behind; tells me this is not how it should be.

Say you won’t go stalking me with realities of unbelief. Loneliness creeps before me uncovering the emptiness I find. The covers are left on the floor, the memory of your warmth.

Frightened and confused my mind is playing tricks on me. Soaking up the comforts in my life left with a soft palette to taste what the future has to offer; possibilities of a life without you.

Unimagined endings are walking beside me like a monster ready to tear my soul. Gasping for breath, I scream out into the emptiness of the room.

Just hold my hand for a little while and breathe the life back inside me.

Holding hands on the beach

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Today I asked for prayers. Trusting it all would work out but there are so many doubts. Forever seemed like eternity and nothing could stop the momentum of our life’s direction. Waking up to real possibilities it is vanished.

I visited you today but you didn’t say a word. Crying over what might have been, I wondered what you would say to me.

I listened in the silence waiting and nothing happened.

Emptiness stole my soul and here I am, standing at your grave. Your name imprinted on stone. Feeling the engravings, I read every word. Grief causes intense sorrow.

Hold my hand just one more time and stop this heart from breaking.

I’m saying my last goodbye, it’s over. Your death makes it final. This grief consummates, it accumulates, and it doesn’t hide so you can go find it. It shows up out of nowhere, like a storm cast over a sunny day. Grief walks with you when you are alone. Grief holds your hand when you are frightened. It absorbs your inner being and it can destroy you.

"He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering. Like one from whom men hide their faces He was despised, and we esteemed Him not." – Isaiah 53:3

I'm still holding on.

Grief is a final act of saying goodbye to loved ones held dear.

Taking your heart and banishing it with sufferings, grief is unstoppable. An unmistakable pain rips at your soul. You are left broken.

Grief speaks to you like a friend, “in the quiet times you will find me.” In the photo albums, grief states, “you will see me.” At the grave, grief says, “you will feel me.”

Certainly there will be one day when it comes along and says, “Let me introduce myself. I am going to be by your side for a while. You don’t have to be ashamed of me. I’m going to be your friend for some time. You can try and push me away, but I’ll be back.”

No one wants grief as a friend. Don’t join my world, just go away. There is a time we must decide to let it go. Resting it at the graveside and choosing to walk away.

Every day is a new beginning to start over. Leaving the past behind, of what we cannot change, we hang on to our hopes and dreams.

Asking for help and making decisions is challenging for those in grief. Walking a fine line between what was and what might have been, survivors of grief look at yesterdays with fading memories.

The world keeps turning but for those in grief they are walking by the wayside.

After the funeral is over, when all have left, the grief becomes their closest companion. This is not a gift; it is a way to survive.

Asking for one last chance to say the things they didn’t say, grief holds on. Wishing that death didn’t take them now, for we were not ready.

Learning to say goodbye as you hold my hand just one more time, I‘ll endure this one last time. Healing will begin tomorrow.

“Faith Will Give You Courage, Courage Will Give You Faith” – Dr. Norman Vincent Peale

Hold my hand and walk with me a while, I’ll say goodbye tomorrow.

God won't let go

Like a child holding on, grief is relentless. But God says, Hold My Hand.
Like a child holding on, grief is relentless. But God says, Hold My Hand.

Turning away from grief is no easy task. Saying goodbye is the hardest thing to do.

God says, Trust Me. Hold my hand and I will walk you through this. Rest in His arms, walk in faith, and He won't let you go.

"Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light." - Matthew 11:28-29

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      Fluffy77 6 years ago from Enterprise, OR

      I have worked in healthcare, and have been in the position of helping others say goodbye for there lasts times. I know how hard it can be, and what you have written here is so very beautiful. Some people are very ready to say goodbye to there loved one's too so there suffering may stop and they can go to a better place for them. Your words here, are wise and full of compassion. Thanks for sharing, and keep writing!

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      Aamna Aamad 6 years ago from Pakistan

      beautiful hub...though we have forgotten death but thats the eternal place where we all have to go

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      Thatguypk 6 years ago

      A very beautiful hub.

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      FaithDream 6 years ago from (Midwest) USA

      Thank you hyphenbird. I appreciate your warm kindness. I sometimes come back to this article myself just to embrace the pain. Listening to the video speaks to my heart and sometimes a good cry is healing.

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      Brenda Barnes 6 years ago from America-Broken But Still Beautiful

      This is a beautiful Hub indeed. It brings solace to a pained heart. Thanks FaithDream.

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      FaithDream 6 years ago from (Midwest) USA

      Thank you for your kind words happyboomernurse.

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      Gail Sobotkin 6 years ago from South Carolina

      Beautiful, heart-wrenching, realistic portrayal of grief. Thanks for sharing this amazing hub. I voted it up because it truly moved me.

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      FaithDream 6 years ago from (Midwest) USA

      Thank you for your comments, Prosperity66 and WillSteinmetz.

      I appreciate your kind words.

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      WillSteinmetz 6 years ago

      Wonderful article.

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      Prosperity66 6 years ago

      Indeed, it's a beautiful Hub, very touching and I'm just speechless.

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      FaithDream 6 years ago from (Midwest) USA

      Thank you chasemillis, sorry I missed this one. I appreciate your comment.

      Aww..Vocalcoach, you touched my heart. I do understand how the impact of loss changes your life. We can't go back which is sad and we hurt for that. The hole that is left is so profound, we live with it every day.

      I am blessed by your comments. And grateful that you found something here to lighten the load from the burden you carry.

      Your angel :) I'm smiling. You my dear, have a friend in me. Blessings to you.

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      Audrey Hunt 6 years ago from Nashville Tn.

      Oh, you could not have known ~ you wrote this for me. Do you realize how healing this hub is? Losing my beautiful son has changed my life in ways that no one could possibly understand. My heart will never, ever, heal. But you have shown so much empathy and compassion here, I feel much lighter than before I read this. Will you be my angel? ~ Gratefully, Vocalcoach

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      chasemillis 6 years ago

      Beautifully moving Hub, and wonderfully spoken. Voted Up!

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      FaithDream 6 years ago from (Midwest) USA

      Thank you Caribqueen. You said it all beautifully.

      Thanks for sharing your thoughts, they are comforting.

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      CARIBQUEEN 6 years ago

      Saying goodbye may be the hardest thing to do but there is a lot of comfort and assurance in holding hands. It lets people know that you are not alone as the song indicates. And we know that for a fact that God is always holding our hands, so we know that we are not alone. What comfort! Beautiful hub

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      FaithDream 6 years ago from (Midwest) USA

      Thanks Spirit Whisperer. I appreciate the wonderful comments.

      Saying goodbye is the hardest thing to do. I appreciate the encouragement.

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      Xavier Nathan 6 years ago from Isle of Man

      A very moving hub that has affected me deeply. The music is beautiful and adds to the feelings expressed. Thank you.

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      FaithDream 6 years ago from (Midwest) USA

      Thanks WillStarr. Appreciate your comments.

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      WillStarr 6 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

      Beautiful Hub.