How Bad Do You Want It? A Moment With Bill Reflection
It is a hunger. It is a thirst. It is a clawing in the deepest recesses of my stomach, an Alien-like moment with a powerful force erupting from my cavities and soaring with teeth bared and a growl of satisfaction.
You see, I am a writer, and I am driven to succeed in writing, and that means fifty and sixty hour weeks of writing, and networking, and marketing, and when I’m done with all that I start again, day in, day out, week in, week out, the months turning to years and that first sentence has become millions of words and……
I want it so damn badly that I can, indeed, taste it, and the thirst is never satisfied, and there never seems to be enough networking or marketing and there certainly never seems to be the perfect words, sentences, paragraphs…..never enough…..still the need…..never enough….still the need.
Why do I write? Why do I breathe? Same question really and unanswerable. This is what I do…this is what I must do…and I must succeed….I will succeed….succeed with the need.
It Has Always Been So
As long as I can remember it has been this way. Tell me I’m too short and skinny to play on your baseball team and I’ll spend hour after hour practicing until my fastball paints the corner and your knees buckle and you are forced to admit that the short, skinny kid really does have game.
Tell me I can’t make it in business and I’ll work sixteen and eighteen hour days to prove to you that all you need are willpower, determination and a refusal to quit to make it in any damn business.
An un-teachable student? I’ll find a way to teach them. A windmill that needs toppling? Give me a second to find my white steed and just point me in the right direction.
The question has never been “is it possible”….no, the question, to this man, is as simple as “how bad do you want it”….and I usually want it pretty badly.
So I ask the same question of you…how bad do you want it?
Very Helpful Book For All Writers
To My Writer Friends
How bad do you want it? Don’t tell me this writing gig is tough. I know all about tough. I know about the hours spent with no rewards. I know about the rejections and the feelings of inadequacy, and I know about the struggles to find the right words.
I know there are some of you reading this right now who doubt your abilities. I know there are some of you reading this right now who lack encouragement from loved ones and friends, and who are wondering if you have what it takes to make it in this crazy, mixed up world of the arts. The money trickles in, the hopes fade and the distractions keep sending you on detours.
You write a book and it is met with a collective yawn by the reading public. You pour your heart and soul into your craft and the thud of failure can be heard for miles. Your query letters are met with silence, your re-writes are as ineffective as the originals, and the bills pile up demanding that you quit this foolishness and get a real job.
And I say to you…how bad do you want it?
A Message For All
To Those Who Are down and Out
The sun shines but there is no warmth.
Is there really a point to this thing called life? Despite your best efforts, or what you believed to be your best efforts, failure has always reigned supreme for you. Dead end jobs, failed relationships, legal problems and a seemingly endless array of daily trials leave you exhausted and hopeless at the end of the day. The shadows crawl across the walls and the warmth leaves the air, and no matter how many blankets you pile on top of you at night you cannot avoid the chill in your heart.
Your job won’t pay the bills. Your husband left you and the kids seem to conspire to make you miserable. The government is no help, the fair-weather friends have headed for nicer weather and you are left with the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune.
When there is nobody left to support you, and your back is pressed firmly against the wall, I have only one question for you….
How bad do you want it?
I Know Some People Who Would Knock Your Socks Off
Physical handicaps? Big deal! Abused as a child? Big deal? Born into poverty? Big deal!
No, I am not making light of those situations, but I am pointing out that I know people who have met challenges that would bring most to their knees, and they have overcome those challenges because they wanted it badly enough.
But you say you have no opportunities to succeed? I say bull!
But you say the cards are stacked against you? I say bull!
But you say it is too hard and there is no hope? I say bull!
Not terribly eloquent but I think you understand my message.
If you were not born in the lap of luxury and the opportunities are limited then make your own opportunities.
If you were born with a 40-card deck that is missing the face cards then print your own face cards.
If you were born with a thousand pound weight attached to your shoulders, remember that one arm seems like a bounty in the land of blind men.
How bad do you want it!
Sing with me....How Bad Do You Want It?
I Do Not Tolerate Excuses Well
I admit it. As understanding and empathetic as I am, and I am very understanding and empathetic, I have very little patience with excuse-makers.
Do not tell me what is wrong with the world unless you can give me suggestions on how to make it better.
Do not tell me what is wrong with your life without telling me what you are going to do to improve that life.
Never underestimate the power of a determined person.
During my years as a teacher I observed an interesting phenomenon with my students. As the years became decades I saw more and more children throwing up their hands and giving up at the first sign of adversity, and I’ve got to tell you that bothers me on so many levels. If a middle-school student is so eager to throw in the towel and quit at the age of twelve, what possible positive outcome can there be when that same student is forty and they have really experienced life?
The losers in life find a way to perpetuate the losing. Winners do exactly the opposite. We become, in a very real sense, a self-fulfilling prophecy, and it is very difficult to change either of those behaviors.
It is time for excuses to end
And so I Ask You
Maybe you never will reach your goals as a writer. Maybe your articles and books will never be read.
Maybe you never will find a loving relationship and maybe your job will always leave you feeling empty.
Maybe the cosmic world really is against you and you will never crawl out of the hole you find yourself in.
But you will never know unless you try, and that is a truth that cannot be denied.
So, for those who are struggling, for those who have stumbled and fallen and live with permanently scraped knees….for those who are brow-beaten and discouraged and dragging from the weight of it all…I ask you one very simple question….
How bad do you want it?
2013 William D. Holland (aka billybuc)
“Helping writers to spread their wings and fly.”