How Did You Find Out That You Had Cancer?
Its a scary thing. A horror nobody wants to believe has happened. To them. Happens to others, yes, but not them. Yet, it does even though you feel totally fine and no symptoms exist.
The doctor enters the waiting room. You immediately ask, "Is everything okay"?. The doctor responds, " Please come into my office, I need to talk to you". Suddenly, a ton of fear and anguish topples over you like a tsunami. The doctor shows you the MRI scans and points to a specific area.
"I don't know what it is", the doctor states. You are terrified. He continues, " the growth is pushing into other areas and is invasive". You are shell shocked. A quiet panic. He continues, "I am not comfortable letting this continue. We need to admit you now. Time, your time, is of essence. The only thing you conjure up is, "Am I going to die?". The doctor shrugs, "I have no clue, we need to operate ASAP".
Suddenly, your normal life of just 30 minutes ago, goes into overdrive mentally. Things to do randomly hit you in no order. You have things to do in the next day, important things, like, jogging in a race, working on your 67 Chevy, going to back to school. You feel just fine, yet, in a few short words, it may come to a screeching halt. Confusion enters. if I feel fine, you think, what is the rush? I am not ready for this!!! You think, maybe the tests and MRI are wrong, incorrectly analyzed. Maybe, maybe, and more maybes.....you are not ready to end your one and only life forever!
Soon, some reality does set in. You think, I have must things to do today. Let's just delay this, this thing. It can wait. I want to have it like it was. I feel fine. Until this MRI, I was fine! The doctor blurts out, " look, the longer we wait, the more change this growth will cause more damage. I do suspect it to be cancer".
Cancer. That f-ing word. Why can't God just perform a miracle and begone it!! Why does he allow it????? More thoughts randomly go through your mind. Anger. why me??? This happens to OTHERS, not me! I have been healthy all my life!!
Being told you have cancer is an instant horror story.