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How Weight Loss Changed My Life!

Updated on September 30, 2019
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I’m here to inspire others to undergo their own weight loss journey, gain confidence and have it transform their life!

If you stumble onto this piece of content, you are probably in a place where you are struggling to lose weight and I can relate to that.

Not so long ago, I was exactly at the same position you are at right now!

A little about myself:

I’m an Asian living in Singapore and I suffered from obesity ever since I was a kid.

That's me at my 16th birthday
That's me at my 16th birthday

In school, I was forced into everything single Trim & Fit Program (public school exercising program for overweight kids!

And I quickly realise that no matter how much I sweat, It’s never enough to lose enough weight to have a slim body. Back then, that meant the world to me!

In my own head, being fat usually meant that you are unattractive and I would kill to lose all the weight just to be attractive. I remember the time I was 13 when I have a huge crush on this girl. And to show her how serious I am, I declare to her that I’ll lose that extra weight for her.

It would have been fine but she said “No” but she went on to show the whole class the text message. I could never forget how my classmates laugh behind my back while the class goes on. I never felt more embarrassed but I’m stuck in the class. I want to escape but I couldn’t. I could only sit here with my head low and endure the shame.

I had never felt so unloved in my life before.

Throughout my teenage years, I tried multiple ways to lose weight but every attempt left me frustrated.

I tried going to the gym, only to realize building muscles on top of fat is just going to make me puffier and going to a place filled with egoistic body-builders makes me feel inferior more than ever.

I tried running, only to stop a few kilometres away feeling like my heart is going to explode.

I tried eating “clean” only to starve and carve for my junk food at every single meal.

I did manage to lose weight! Back then I was 85 kg and every attempt never seems to break past 80kg.

And the moment my willpower stops, my old habits took over! I never got to keep my hard-earned results. My weight just kept bouncing between 85kg and 80kg.

It’s like taking 2 steps forward and 1 step back!

Slowly and unknowingly, I gave up…

I gave up on trying losing weight.

I gave up on trying to look attractive.

I gave in to a life of resignation and being unloved.

That year, my weight slowly and unknowingly creeps up on me as well.

A few kgs at a time.

Slowly, I expanded from 80kgs to a whopping 90kgs; a full 10 kilos weight gain in just a year!

Until an incident at the public pool pulled me back into reality!


The tanning bench that pulled me back to reality
The tanning bench that pulled me back to reality

I was chilling by the public pool, sun tanning while gaming on my phone on a weekday morning when a whole cohort of school kids came into the swimming complex for their swimming class.

It was getting noisy and I decided to leave.

Just as I sat up, my butt suddenly sank a few inches downwards. I could feel the wet and hard concrete floor against my butt accompanied by the sound of laughter. It was directed at me. I broke the tanning bench! and the school kids are laughing at me!

I was overwhelmed with embarrassment and shame.

I could only pretend to look down at my phone, pretend nothing happened and endure the shame as I walk back.

Back in the showers, I looked into the mirror and I couldn’t recognize who I see!

I see someone that had given up more than his weight, I see someone that was so beaten down in life that he doesn’t even begin to see himself being loved.

I wasn’t happy in life and I didn’t like that narrative!

That’s when I had enough!

That when Angelo, this friend of mine pops up in my head. Angelo is this massive caucasian that weighs over 100kg. And deep down in my heart, he is the kind of guy that I would benchmark my weight with; as long as I don’t match up to his weight, I’m good!

The funny thing is: the week before when we meet up, He actually lost a ton of weight and weighs below 90kg now. He actually caught up to me. Back then, I just see it as something cool that he did and I didn’t ask much about what he did.

But that day, I was so depressed that I didn’t hesitate to ask. That’s where he reveals to me, the keto secret!


No Boring Carbs, No Toxic Sugar! Just Eat the Meat and Vegetables that you love!

Initially, I was very sceptical, can this really help me lose weight? It went against ever conventional thinking that I ever know of. But I had nothing to lose any more after that pool incident. Even if that fails, I’ll just be fatter. Nothing I have not already experienced.

But if I succeed, the world would be different for me. All these years of pain and suffering, feeling unloved and lonely would probably go away.

So I decided to commit to this for a month without ever giving up. And meal by meal, I pushed through 30 days.

Thankfully, my friends around started noticing the change by the 2nd week and came to tell me about it. Initially, I thought it’s was out of encouragement and courtesy that they did that. So I didn’t give it much attention.

It was only till the end of the 4th week that I stepped onto the weighting scale to verify what they say.

I remember stepping into this wellness room in my campus and walking up toward the BMI composition machine.

It’s was a scary experience, a moment of truth that would either free me from my suffering or would break me forever.

I could still hear the noisy little printer churning out my BMI report in the quiet and empty room. It felt as though the machine was announcing my use of it to the world. I was embarrassed by it and I wanted to leave so badly

As I reach out to grab the receipt, I caught a glimpse of my weight and my heart skipped a beat. I saw the number eight at the very front of where my weight is supposed to be.

8..
….
….
7.
6.
87.6kg!

I've lost a total of 3.4 kg?

I couldn’t believe my eyes. I stood there for a while and read the slip again and again to verify it. I almost jumped back onto the machine to test it out again but held myself back because of the noisy sound it made.

That day when I walked out of that room, I knew this would be something that would get me out of the rut I was in.
What it didn’t know is that my life would change massively.

I started to feel more comfortable being in my own skin and I started learning to love the person in the mirror more.
I started to feel more energetic even after a long day of work allowing me to enjoy more of what life have to offer.
I started to feel more confident in meeting other people and eventually got lucky in the love department.


Me at 67kg
Me at 67kg

So can you see why I’m so enthusiastic about weight loss and keto now?

This thing can possibly change your life like how it changed mine!
Even if it doesn’t massively transform your life, at least you would look and feel good in your own skin.
And that’s priceless!

This content is accurate and true to the best of the author’s knowledge and does not substitute for diagnosis, prognosis, treatment, prescription, and/or dietary advice from a licensed health professional. Drugs, supplements, and natural remedies may have dangerous side effects. If pregnant or nursing, consult with a qualified provider on an individual basis. Seek immediate help if you are experiencing a medical emergency.

© 2019 Leong Han wai

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    • Han wai profile imageAUTHOR

      Leong Han wai 

      6 months ago from Hougang New Town

      Thank You Rafia.

      This journey is constantly reminding me that results will come as long as the science is right. I just need to grind through it!

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      rafia 

      6 months ago from lahore pakistna

      I also joined gym last month . And i was getting anxious because the body shape that i want will not come that soon . So i was also reminding me that it is OKAY .....U CONTINUE .

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