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How to live life within reality.

Updated on June 29, 2013

Today my boy and I hiked 4 gallons of water down to this place and left it with a good homeless man who would sell to the others.

What does a gallon of water mean in 103 degree heat?
What does a gallon of water mean in 103 degree heat? | Source

Our situation in life does not change by the climate. Oh our minds might!

Lived in Vermont for one winter and the sun never did come out. They say that within 80 days it was only seen in 20 places through out the state. I lived in a hotel overlooking a canary row and two breweries on the White river. The hotel cared for veterans dying of old age and a lot of emphysema from the wars and the industrial plants. I earned room and board helping them.

I watched a man get stabbed to death, stealing on old veterans medications. It was the manager who stabbed him, 14 times. The winter was tough and I earned some cash coaching skiing in a program out of Dartmouth. I earned some as a Bartender in a Holiday Inn. And I did interior painting for rich folks.

More often than not I was cold that winter. More often than not hungry. Early March I left that place and lived under a bridge and up river in a tent. Fished through ice and went ahead and lost some pound.

That winter was not one of depression. It was one of isolation and contemplation. I do not think I ever felt sad during that time. Almost when I almost lost a toe to frostbite.

I moved on from there back across the country to my town of family of origin

I prospered. Great place to live part ownership in a steakhouse of my dreams. Exercise and women and my family around me. Good hard honest work. A church of my liking. Even some respect. A really cool truck. And healthy enough to run for an hour at 8,000 ft.

It was in July that the next winter hit. I would say it hit hard and cold. Stage 4, Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma with pancreatic involvement. Has anyone ever suggested to you that you have a 97% probability of failure? In this case failure was death. My dad asked me to beat it. He said he did not want a child to die before him. I told him I did not have to beat shit, shit had to beat me.

And so it is that I still fish and release, I still am a craftsman painter. I can still run some at 8,000 ft or carry a backpack at 9.

You see those things that pass as indicators of a sad life are not that at all. A sad life is not the result of trouble or tragedy or tough circumstances. A sad life is one without family and hope and dreams and purpose.

I just have a feeling that this tree in the south of France does not suffer

Why would we suffer? I suppose we could chose to suffer.
Why would we suffer? I suppose we could chose to suffer. | Source

I ain't never suffered

Hospitals suggest suffering. I have spent my time in several, I always thought it was a relief to be there. Most suggest jail is a bad place and one of suffering. Worst one I was ever in was Tijuana and it was not that bad, oh it was nasty and gross and dangerous, but livable.

Today it got over 100 degrees, we got no air conditioning like the double wides up on the hill. We made it through and ran out and played when it dropped down to 85. You just get used to stuff and adapt. 85 was too hot a week ago, but a relief today.

Please my friends chose not to suffer but to celebrate the agony and defeat as well as beautiful days and abundance. This is life, our life. Be Glad in it and rejoice that you have something to lose.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Great to hear from you my Texan friend, It is the big let go that allows us to hold on!

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Guess I'm about a year late reading this. . .But, oh well. Good for you, Eric. Good for you, my friend that you not only survived but thrived as well. You say you didn't have to beat it, rather had to let it beat you. But I say that you did have to beat it. It would have been incredibly easy to let it rob you of life, love, health, spirit, and joy. Yet you did not.

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      Eric Dierker 4 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Building up each other, it sure feels good. Thanks

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      Lurana Brown 4 years ago from Chicagoland, Illinois

      Eric, thank you for your wonderful reply. I appreciate it very much.

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      Eric Dierker 4 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      I am a very lucky man to have lived a life no one would choose. But if I could I would choose it again, beginning at day one. Only through the pains have I learned how unimportant they are.

      Lurana, I look forward to some more music from you soon. It carries me away.

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      Lurana Brown 4 years ago from Chicagoland, Illinois

      Your recollections are intriguing and inspiring. Thank you for sharing!

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      Eric Dierker 4 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      MsDora, thank you. I revel in your delight.

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      Dora Isaac Weithers 4 years ago from The Caribbean

      "Celebrate the agony" sounds like a title I could steal for a hub. Your survivor's attitude is an inspiration. Thanks!

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      epigramman 4 years ago

      The greatest rendition of Waltzing Matilda within a dramatic context I've ever heard or seen is a movie scene from On the Beach starring Greogory Peck and Ava Gardner.

      My dad told me it made him cry and it made his son cry too .

      Look for it on You Tube. It is a sublime and indelible film moment.

      Off now for a lunch of haggis and black pudding

      lake erie time 1:34pm

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      Eric Dierker 4 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Colin my friend, I have to get to work for my preaching and teaching so my boy and I have to stop racing cars and building towers and dancing to Waltzing Matilda. But he will do well "reading" about dino's in his fort with my flashlight.

      I do believe you are right about documentaries. To "document" is worthy. I used to not like the slants that were put on them, now I also enjoy the point of view.

      My Gabriel sends his best to your Gabriel, well he said "hi Gabriel" at least when I explained.

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      Eric Dierker 4 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      It is a daunting task and responsibility to teach our children to follow your advice. Doing our best to live as you do is a good thing, thank you Denmarkguy

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      Peter Messerschmidt 4 years ago from Port Townsend

      Finding this was a nice way to start the morning.

      Sadly, people seem to "worry" so much (whether justified, or not) that they almost forget LIVING. Life, all in all, is a beautiful place.

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      epigramman 4 years ago

      Well what better way to start the day , Sir Eric, than to pour my first cup of coffee and to be caressed in the warmth and joy of your writing.

      I am currently listening to a Horn concerto by Mozart and just let the cats outside to check for unwanted four legged visitors (and two legged ones too) and it's currently 11:58am

      I stayed up late to watch some 'free' documentaries on You Tube and a free documentary website called Documentary heaven. I think a good documentaries is like the eyes to the soul of the world we live in and one of my favorite shows is CBS' 60 Minutes.

      And talk about heaven - heaven on earth is having a good buddy like you Eric to make up for the family I don't have and to be able to read your immense gift at communicating the written word.

      I often think of myself as a creative anomaly but you Sir you are truly one of a kind as a gentleman, humanitarian and creative free spirit.

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      Eric Dierker 4 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      You are so right --- notice "I" almost ruined this hub with too much "I". But "I" am learning so life is getting better. How great to be over 50 years young!

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Nice, Eric! I do chuckle at people some times. Here in the Northwest, we complain about the rain and then when summer gets here we complain about temps in the eighties....how about just enjoying life instead of nagging constantly?

      Life is good my friend and it gets better if I allow it to do so.

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      Eric Dierker 4 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thank you friend. I am glad that you liked it.

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      Firoz 4 years ago from India

      Impressive hub. Voted up.