I Embrace My Bipolar
I want to share my life with you in hopes to help anyone that has the possibility of being bipolar. Many times it is misdiagnosed as depression. That's what happened to me. I was only treated for depression and not for the manic episodes. My mood swings were horrible. I felt like I was going crazy. My husband thought I was evil and my kids did not understand. When you have all of those things going on at once, the normal reaction is to breakdown and thank God that I did. A rule of thumb, don't go to your family doctor to diagnose you for a mental illness. Go to a Psychiatrist. They specialize and deal with mental illness on a daily basis.
Before I was treated, I use to feel like I was invincible, like I could do anything. That is what's called a manic episode. When those episodes were over, my moods crashed and I wanted to die. All I could do was think about death. It was so bad to the point that I wanted to go lay down in the middle of a highway. I cried a lot. I stayed in the bed a lot. I missed a lot of work and quit many jobs on the spot. I wasn't stable. My thoughts use to race very fast. I was not able to concentrate on one thing. Therefore, I tried to do many things at once.
Dealing with this illness is not easy but it can be done. I have met so many wonderful people going through the same struggle. We all heal in our own way. I don't see it as a curse, I see it as a blessing. It has given me a second chance at life to face my past and move forward to the future.
Your Not Crazy
Remember that just because you have a mental illness does not make you crazy and it's nothing to be ashamed of. A lot of people have not been educated on mental illnesses because they never had to deal with it. That is why people give such a negative response to mental illness because they don't have that understanding.
I embrace my bipolar because it is a part of me and that is where I get my creativity. Always remember that you are not alone! God bless you.