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I Embrace My Bipolar

Updated on June 16, 2011

Wrong Diagnosis

I want to share my life with you in hopes to help anyone that has the possibility of being bipolar. Many times it is misdiagnosed as depression. That's what happened to me. I was only treated for depression and not for the manic episodes. My mood swings were horrible. I felt like I was going crazy. My husband thought I was evil and my kids did not understand. When you have all of those things going on at once, the normal reaction is to breakdown and thank God that I did. A rule of thumb, don't go to your family doctor to diagnose you for a mental illness. Go to a Psychiatrist. They specialize and deal with mental illness on a daily basis.

My Episodes

Before I was treated, I use to feel like I was invincible, like I could do anything. That is what's called a manic episode. When those episodes were over, my moods crashed and I wanted to die. All I could do was think about death. It was so bad to the point that I wanted to go lay down in the middle of a highway. I cried a lot. I stayed in the bed a lot. I missed a lot of work and quit many jobs on the spot. I wasn't stable. My thoughts use to race very fast. I was not able to concentrate on one thing. Therefore, I tried to do many things at once.

Dealing with this illness is not easy but it can be done. I have met so many wonderful people going through the same struggle. We all heal in our own way. I don't see it as a curse, I see it as a blessing. It has given me a second chance at life to face my past and move forward to the future.

Your Not Crazy

Remember that just because you have a mental illness does not make you crazy and it's nothing to be ashamed of. A lot of people have not been educated on mental illnesses because they never had to deal with it. That is why people give such a negative response to mental illness because they don't have that understanding.

I embrace my bipolar because it is a part of me and that is where I get my creativity. Always remember that you are not alone! God bless you.


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      earnestshub 6 years ago from Melbourne Australia

      This is the type of information that creates empirical evidence that may be helpful for those with this disease and those who research it. More research money is needed.

      Gutsy and informative hub, I voted it up and awesome.

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      ahorseback 6 years ago

      Sassy ...Awesome , please keep writing . You can help a lot of people!....;-} And smile for us...@-->---

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      spirit929 6 years ago from Upstate NY somewhere over the rainbow

      Hi Sassy,

      read your hub and I can definitely relate I myself suffer from OCD and my daughter is Bipolar, I think it runs in my family. Her episodes are severe at times where she swears off the whole family including myself. She is married and has 1 child, she is 32 years old. I dont know if she is taking any meds I certainly hope she is treating this for her own peace. Thank you for sharing and stay well!

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      Karen A. Harris 6 years ago from Milwaukee, WI

      Thank you so much MysteriousOne. Yes, getting help definitely made me have better days. I am glad to hear that your daughter is doing well. I am on my way to visit your pages. God Bless You.

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      MysteriousOne 6 years ago

      I commend you,Ms.sassy! This is a very courageous step that you have taken!!My daughter is also bipolar,but with help,she has better days now! Kudos to you and pushed all the buttons! I welcome you to visit my hub pages,too! I would like to send some people to you,as you are a very good writer....

      God Bless!